Wednesday, June 29, 2005
11 and a half hours of sleep..
Darn.. What happen to my blog layout? No more pictures, no more music.. Time to change again? Oh man, need to spend time. After term test, I shall consider.
You won't believe what I did last night.. I slept from 8 p.m till this morning 7.30 a.m!! Was suppose to study for IISO, but I slept. Haa.. Actually I did woke p at aound 12.30a.m, but I wasn't determined enough to get out of bed. Haa, I can sleep alright!!
I'm just enjoying what I can enjoy now. 12 hours sleep? When will that come again? I wonder.. HmmMm.. EC, when is the last time you slept for more than 8 hours? Chinese New Year if I'm not wrong right? Haa.. Anyway, take care buddy, you need rest before you can move on further!
Class is starting soon.. this time I am using Aisha's lappie.. Haa..
You won't believe what I did last night.. I slept from 8 p.m till this morning 7.30 a.m!! Was suppose to study for IISO, but I slept. Haa.. Actually I did woke p at aound 12.30a.m, but I wasn't determined enough to get out of bed. Haa, I can sleep alright!!
I'm just enjoying what I can enjoy now. 12 hours sleep? When will that come again? I wonder.. HmmMm.. EC, when is the last time you slept for more than 8 hours? Chinese New Year if I'm not wrong right? Haa.. Anyway, take care buddy, you need rest before you can move on further!
Class is starting soon.. this time I am using Aisha's lappie.. Haa..
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Midnight scare...Haa..
Blogging with Dino's lappie. Just so not use to use to laptops. Finally I finished my NMM project!! *WeEeee* 2 down, and a few more to go. Boy, I'm worried about PRSP. Can I pass the term test? I'm like so lost of what to do.. What's parameters? I still don't know..
Had a few rounds of CS just now, won a few rounds *Grins* That proves that I'm not a total game idoit! Haa, Grace can play game!!
Better start studying today for term test. Was suppose to start yesterday, but after completing the NMM project, I'm drained out. Went to grandma house to do it and I reah home like around 11.30 p.m Took a bath, read the Bible follwed by New Paper. Has a shock while reading, I was so engrosed in reading one article that I got a shock when I saw EC's picture on the next page. I didn't notice her picture was there untill I turn my head over. One full page of it, scary or not? Hee.. Nah, not trying to say anything. Haven seen her for a while.. New Paper is going to have a new look again? And EC became the poster woman for it? She didn't even know about it...
Breaks, breaks.. Next lecture starting soon.. Learn CMaths from Sheena, I think I can get it.Well, if I can't, I will just ask again! Haa..Missed CMaths lecture today because Dino was late, yet again!
I wonder hoe PaceSetters will turn out.. Cross my fingers.. *Twiching*
Had a few rounds of CS just now, won a few rounds *Grins* That proves that I'm not a total game idoit! Haa, Grace can play game!!
Better start studying today for term test. Was suppose to start yesterday, but after completing the NMM project, I'm drained out. Went to grandma house to do it and I reah home like around 11.30 p.m Took a bath, read the Bible follwed by New Paper. Has a shock while reading, I was so engrosed in reading one article that I got a shock when I saw EC's picture on the next page. I didn't notice her picture was there untill I turn my head over. One full page of it, scary or not? Hee.. Nah, not trying to say anything. Haven seen her for a while.. New Paper is going to have a new look again? And EC became the poster woman for it? She didn't even know about it...
Breaks, breaks.. Next lecture starting soon.. Learn CMaths from Sheena, I think I can get it.Well, if I can't, I will just ask again! Haa..Missed CMaths lecture today because Dino was late, yet again!
I wonder hoe PaceSetters will turn out.. Cross my fingers.. *Twiching*
Monday, June 27, 2005
I will be Still, know You are God
I must confess, I'm a game idoit. Especially when it comes to LAN game, I'm a total idoit. However, I do play CS once in a very blue moon. Finally after years of isolation, I touched CS game today *wEEEeeE* Got kill within 5 mins.. :) That's me, a game idoit. Everyone in class are getting hooked up on CS. I thought that was an old game to play already? I recall playing over at Uncle Ben's play in my primary school days. Mind you, that is like... 5 or 6 years back? The only thing I can remember when I touch CS this morning is "walking, shooting and buying" Thr rest of it, completely behind me. Out of sight, out of mind. It's a miracle that I can remember how to shoot.
Getting all stressed up in the morning. First, I forgot that today is CMath e-learning week, no lecture. But oh well, I went to the lab, hoping to finish the NMM project. In the lab, mood for NMM was no where found. Boy, I was getting all stressed and presured up.
Prayed to God, and I chose to walk out of the lab. There's time, just relax. I did and ain't I'm glad I did? Haa.. Thank you Lord. In IISO lecture hall, dn't know why but I remembered the song, "Still".
The last segment meant the most for me. I really need to find rest, this world just sucked. Sorry to say, but it suck. In one of the e-mail conversation I had with EC, she told me she sometimes need to plunge into God for strength. Even the strong falls sometimes. Yup, no matter how strong we are, we are no stronger than God. God is the ultimate once, the mentor, my friend, my teacher, my father, my everything.
I better concentrate on IISO.. Haa.. Lecture is on air.. Listen.. Shhhh...
Getting all stressed up in the morning. First, I forgot that today is CMath e-learning week, no lecture. But oh well, I went to the lab, hoping to finish the NMM project. In the lab, mood for NMM was no where found. Boy, I was getting all stressed and presured up.
Prayed to God, and I chose to walk out of the lab. There's time, just relax. I did and ain't I'm glad I did? Haa.. Thank you Lord. In IISO lecture hall, dn't know why but I remembered the song, "Still".
Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hands
When the ocean ride
And thunders roars
I will soar with you
Above the storm
Father You are king
Over the flood
I will be still and
know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust
The last segment meant the most for me. I really need to find rest, this world just sucked. Sorry to say, but it suck. In one of the e-mail conversation I had with EC, she told me she sometimes need to plunge into God for strength. Even the strong falls sometimes. Yup, no matter how strong we are, we are no stronger than God. God is the ultimate once, the mentor, my friend, my teacher, my father, my everything.
I better concentrate on IISO.. Haa.. Lecture is on air.. Listen.. Shhhh...
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Sad...
Hey Carmie, I agree with you on the Beng and Lian topic. Sometimes, they are just too irritating and... oh-so disgraceful. *Urgle* Get a life man, looking at them.. I wonder, how will their future be like? Sitting at the coffee shop with their legs on the chair drinking beer, cursing and swearing? Oh my gosh, sad.. I pray for you guys.
Actually it's kind of sad looking at people like this. 80% of their life will be spent in coffee shops, wondering around in shopping malls and working for others. Not that working for others is bad.. But, you are given a chance to be the different, but you just don't see it. Open your eyes and capture what's yours.
Carmie, I miss your craps! The clone of yours is not that crappy as you!! Argg...*Tears my hair*
We're going to CHC next saturday!! I'm excited!! Haa, haven been there for ages. The last time I went there was like April, with EC and so happen SC was there. How is she anyway? Haa...
Look at the time? Oh no..Not going to have enough sleep again... Arg!!
Actually it's kind of sad looking at people like this. 80% of their life will be spent in coffee shops, wondering around in shopping malls and working for others. Not that working for others is bad.. But, you are given a chance to be the different, but you just don't see it. Open your eyes and capture what's yours.
Carmie, I miss your craps! The clone of yours is not that crappy as you!! Argg...*Tears my hair*
We're going to CHC next saturday!! I'm excited!! Haa, haven been there for ages. The last time I went there was like April, with EC and so happen SC was there. How is she anyway? Haa...
Look at the time? Oh no..Not going to have enough sleep again... Arg!!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Life is Good
Gosh!! I think I flop the Pace Setters' Exam paper. How the freak would I know TP's full address, do you? But I think I did well for the interview :), although the role play part wasn't that good :p. Oh well, like what I told the committee, if I can't join Pace Setters, at least I came for the experience and the spirit of it!
Full dress today, came in my formal wear with my jacket hung at my hand. Feel the wind blow, show the confidence.. But one thing, my feet hurt from the shoes! Kill it someone! *Urgle*
Meeting in the afternoon at church, don't think I have time for NMM project. Have to finish it by tonight of tomorrow. Projects and more projects coming up. Save me someone!!
Well, another Saturday came by again. A resting day for some, outing for some and funky fun for others. Me? Church, if I have that special someone, maybe just spend Saturday with him, lazing around, catching up. When? Hmmm... Isn't it just sweet to cuddle around with that someone? Catching up, sharing and playing around. Telling the other half how have your week been, and listen to each other. For me, if he has anything he want to voice out, I would just listen to him. Nag and complain all he wants, I will just be there listening. After so, I will just tell him.." You had a tough week eh? Take a rest and get re-charge for the coming week. I'm sure it will be better." All I want to do, maybe just look into his eyes, let his eyes do the talking. Quietly just look into his eyes or at him. Tresureing every seconds with him. The world is so huge, with billions of people. There's a reason why we met.
If one day you found out that you only have a week to live.. Will you have the courage to tell everyone in your life that you love them and how much they mean to you? You will right? Why? Because your time is up and you have to go? If you don't do it this time, the chance will never come by again? Consider, why only then? Most of the time, we don't know when we will be leaving? Not everyone is fortunate to know when he/she is leaving.
I won't just tell them how I feel about them, I will have them pen down on paper. So that when they miss me next time, take out the piece of paper and read what I write. Life is short, live it well. For when you leave, the memories won't leave with you.
Certain people might have gone away from my life, but they are not gone inside me. They might have came into my life for a short moment, but they left deep footprints in my heart. I will never forget them, the things they did for me and the advices they gave me. Maybe for now, they don't know how much they meant to me, or how much I care and love them. I am sure they will one day.
Looking at friends around me, they cursed and swear about their life. But hey, what if one day.. You found that you died. Will you still be cursing and swearing... That why you died? Irony? Ask yourself.
I'm no different from others, I am the same. Born with passion and made for greatness. One thing that make me a little more special, I lived my passion and failed to be what satan wants me to be.
"Life can be good"--- Lena Maria
Full dress today, came in my formal wear with my jacket hung at my hand. Feel the wind blow, show the confidence.. But one thing, my feet hurt from the shoes! Kill it someone! *Urgle*
Meeting in the afternoon at church, don't think I have time for NMM project. Have to finish it by tonight of tomorrow. Projects and more projects coming up. Save me someone!!
Well, another Saturday came by again. A resting day for some, outing for some and funky fun for others. Me? Church, if I have that special someone, maybe just spend Saturday with him, lazing around, catching up. When? Hmmm... Isn't it just sweet to cuddle around with that someone? Catching up, sharing and playing around. Telling the other half how have your week been, and listen to each other. For me, if he has anything he want to voice out, I would just listen to him. Nag and complain all he wants, I will just be there listening. After so, I will just tell him.." You had a tough week eh? Take a rest and get re-charge for the coming week. I'm sure it will be better." All I want to do, maybe just look into his eyes, let his eyes do the talking. Quietly just look into his eyes or at him. Tresureing every seconds with him. The world is so huge, with billions of people. There's a reason why we met.
If one day you found out that you only have a week to live.. Will you have the courage to tell everyone in your life that you love them and how much they mean to you? You will right? Why? Because your time is up and you have to go? If you don't do it this time, the chance will never come by again? Consider, why only then? Most of the time, we don't know when we will be leaving? Not everyone is fortunate to know when he/she is leaving.
I won't just tell them how I feel about them, I will have them pen down on paper. So that when they miss me next time, take out the piece of paper and read what I write. Life is short, live it well. For when you leave, the memories won't leave with you.
Certain people might have gone away from my life, but they are not gone inside me. They might have came into my life for a short moment, but they left deep footprints in my heart. I will never forget them, the things they did for me and the advices they gave me. Maybe for now, they don't know how much they meant to me, or how much I care and love them. I am sure they will one day.
Looking at friends around me, they cursed and swear about their life. But hey, what if one day.. You found that you died. Will you still be cursing and swearing... That why you died? Irony? Ask yourself.
I'm no different from others, I am the same. Born with passion and made for greatness. One thing that make me a little more special, I lived my passion and failed to be what satan wants me to be.
"Life can be good"--- Lena Maria
Friday, June 24, 2005
Pace setters interview and exam, EXAM?
Pace Setters interview tomorrow? Oh gosh! I have yet to study for the examination. Examination? Yes, exam. On what? What say you? Arg!! I just finish IISO, there's NMM on my hand and now some freaking exams about the school? Not to mention, formal wear. That means, I will have to do exam in my jacket? The exam room better be air-conditioned!!
God has been wonderful to me this week, in fact every week, every day. Learn so much this week and experience so much. Thank you Lord. He knows my name, He knows my thought and He sees every tears that fall from my eyes. Many nights I have fall asleep with tears in my eyes, but I know the next morning I will be just find. Cause while I sleep, God will be there mending my broken heart, healing my wound. Where can you find someone who will always listen to you, no matter what mood you are in? Who will have the patience to look after you day in day out, 24/7, 365 days? Lord, thank you for loving me and accepting me as who I am-- and because You love me so much, You couldn't bear to leave me as who I am.
While on my way to Grandma's place from TP, I saw Mr Shaw. Didn't know he's going to Bedok as well, so went up the same bus with him. Think he didn't see me. Sat behind him, he was busy reading some stuff. Looking at him, reminds me of someone. I don't know why as well. Plus, the shirt he wore today, just like that someone. Not to mention body size, height.. Almost the same. Got to know from Duane some bad news. Oh gosh, so poor thing. After all that hard work, that MD is not going to pay up? He has the cheek to employ more people? How the freak is he going to pay them when he can't even pay us all on time? Oh well, he has his way of doing things.
Term test coming, study, study, study!!!
Come one peeps, work hard baby!
God has been wonderful to me this week, in fact every week, every day. Learn so much this week and experience so much. Thank you Lord. He knows my name, He knows my thought and He sees every tears that fall from my eyes. Many nights I have fall asleep with tears in my eyes, but I know the next morning I will be just find. Cause while I sleep, God will be there mending my broken heart, healing my wound. Where can you find someone who will always listen to you, no matter what mood you are in? Who will have the patience to look after you day in day out, 24/7, 365 days? Lord, thank you for loving me and accepting me as who I am-- and because You love me so much, You couldn't bear to leave me as who I am.
While on my way to Grandma's place from TP, I saw Mr Shaw. Didn't know he's going to Bedok as well, so went up the same bus with him. Think he didn't see me. Sat behind him, he was busy reading some stuff. Looking at him, reminds me of someone. I don't know why as well. Plus, the shirt he wore today, just like that someone. Not to mention body size, height.. Almost the same. Got to know from Duane some bad news. Oh gosh, so poor thing. After all that hard work, that MD is not going to pay up? He has the cheek to employ more people? How the freak is he going to pay them when he can't even pay us all on time? Oh well, he has his way of doing things.
Term test coming, study, study, study!!!
Come one peeps, work hard baby!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
What's wrong?
What's wrong with this person? I don't know, and sometimes.. I just donn't want to know as well. It's been weeks this person has been behaving like this. So, what has got into you? Oh boy, don't want to think about it. Stressful enough, projects and term test coming along. Heck am I going to let this affect me. Back to work with iMac..
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Jumbled up...
Looks like I've got a buddy with me, with the same thoughts of changing church. So far, only Reu and Dia's mum knows about it. The rest are clueless about it. Wonder how they will react if the day come. "Hey guys, this is my last day in this church. I'm moving on. See ya guys around. God Bless."
Grew up in that church since young, memories follows me. It's kinda sad just leaving like that. I once had great vision for this church, but.. looking at it and the people in it. *Lord, I don't know how to go on.* When I first starting in that church, I was left out. There was a group of children, now youths, I couldn't seem to fit in. I took 6 years to fit it, what a long time. How did I manage to handle that? People from that group, which is still around today.. Grow up and learn. The church will never grow unless we grow. I'm moving on, move on as well.
I have always believed that I am placed in a church for a reason. No matter how bad or traditional the church can be, I must stick to it. After talking to many people about it, the though doesn't seem that right anymore. Kenneth is right, how can I help the church when I am not learning anything? When the time has come, we just have to move on from we are. Even away from the place we are so use to.
How have you been? Haven heard about you for a long time, hope you are doing well. Hope that you are doing well, kept you in my prayers. Whatever you have embark on, give your best. Go for your dream, don't let your physical health stop you. I hope to see you again some day. When will it be? Beats me.. Haa.. But, do take care.
Out of the blue I thought of this person..So many emotions, so many experience and a great lesson learn. Thanks... Things happen for a reason.
Allow me to be emotional, but believe me that I am alright. Just feeling feelings, expressing myself here, something which I will never do when you see me. This is my blog, but there's certain things I can type, for the fear of some people seeing. Irony.
My wounds are healing.Trust me.I am.
A number of people I have not been in contact with. How have you been Si Yun? How have you been Carmen? How have you been all you guys reading?
Time just passed by, leaving memories and footprints behind. Never will the day return to once where we shared wonderful memories. Imagine 4E studying social studies together. Lost contach with secondary school teachers as well. How are you my dearies?
Every time I read Carmen's blog, I am tempted to be mean.. Haa, you're bad Carmen, bad influence.
Lord, come and heal me.. Bring me and hide me inside you.
I wondered how is SC doing in China, been months since I last saw her. I don't know how to get in contact as well. EC told me once she don't access e-mail. Well, kept you in my prayers.
Many people I cared about, but don't know how to express my love and care for them. If one day I were to leave without saying a word, feel that I loved you.
Let's talk about dying. My days are numbered, so is everyone's! Haa.. With my illness, I know mine is. With the future ahead of me, my illness beside me.. How far can I go? Some times I get scared just by thinking about it. Why me I have asked, at a young age, after going through my Os, making into my desire poly, why now? But I believed I am made for it. In today's fellowship, we did some personality test. Mine is dominent. Yeah, I am. Besides, it says that I am brave and determined. I think I am.. Haa.. What say you?
Grew up in that church since young, memories follows me. It's kinda sad just leaving like that. I once had great vision for this church, but.. looking at it and the people in it. *Lord, I don't know how to go on.* When I first starting in that church, I was left out. There was a group of children, now youths, I couldn't seem to fit in. I took 6 years to fit it, what a long time. How did I manage to handle that? People from that group, which is still around today.. Grow up and learn. The church will never grow unless we grow. I'm moving on, move on as well.
I have always believed that I am placed in a church for a reason. No matter how bad or traditional the church can be, I must stick to it. After talking to many people about it, the though doesn't seem that right anymore. Kenneth is right, how can I help the church when I am not learning anything? When the time has come, we just have to move on from we are. Even away from the place we are so use to.
How have you been? Haven heard about you for a long time, hope you are doing well. Hope that you are doing well, kept you in my prayers. Whatever you have embark on, give your best. Go for your dream, don't let your physical health stop you. I hope to see you again some day. When will it be? Beats me.. Haa.. But, do take care.
Out of the blue I thought of this person..So many emotions, so many experience and a great lesson learn. Thanks... Things happen for a reason.
Allow me to be emotional, but believe me that I am alright. Just feeling feelings, expressing myself here, something which I will never do when you see me. This is my blog, but there's certain things I can type, for the fear of some people seeing. Irony.
My wounds are healing.Trust me.I am.
A number of people I have not been in contact with. How have you been Si Yun? How have you been Carmen? How have you been all you guys reading?
Time just passed by, leaving memories and footprints behind. Never will the day return to once where we shared wonderful memories. Imagine 4E studying social studies together. Lost contach with secondary school teachers as well. How are you my dearies?
Every time I read Carmen's blog, I am tempted to be mean.. Haa, you're bad Carmen, bad influence.
Lord, come and heal me.. Bring me and hide me inside you.
I wondered how is SC doing in China, been months since I last saw her. I don't know how to get in contact as well. EC told me once she don't access e-mail. Well, kept you in my prayers.
Many people I cared about, but don't know how to express my love and care for them. If one day I were to leave without saying a word, feel that I loved you.
Let's talk about dying. My days are numbered, so is everyone's! Haa.. With my illness, I know mine is. With the future ahead of me, my illness beside me.. How far can I go? Some times I get scared just by thinking about it. Why me I have asked, at a young age, after going through my Os, making into my desire poly, why now? But I believed I am made for it. In today's fellowship, we did some personality test. Mine is dominent. Yeah, I am. Besides, it says that I am brave and determined. I think I am.. Haa.. What say you?
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Insulin anyone?
I live my life through injections, so? I get to see blood almost eveyday, so? I'm not that normal after all, so?
I've got what it takes to go through this, do you? I'm running out of place to inject, tell me what you will do?
Hehh.. You want some insulin?
Complete!
Fianally I'm done with my IISO project! Satisfaction. Look at the time, 4 plus already, boy I have been working on this project for a few hours, straight! Church in the evening, guess when I come back, I shall start on NMM. Needa do research all that stuff.
Get some rest and chill off baby..
Get some rest and chill off baby..
Late night... yet again
Sheeeesh... Guess what time did I sleep last night? Very early, 3.30a.m in the morning. What was I doing? Rushing those cartoons for TYEM and spend some time doing Visual Lit.
Today was a relieve, the company that my team is studying on for the IISO project send us the reply email. Late by two days, but better then nothing yeah?
Guess I won't be going to bed early tonight, got to start on IISO project or I'll be dead. *ArGgHhh* Shoot me.
Went to Tampines Mall with Dino after class day, as usual I toured the top level of the mall. Went in a few shops and off to home. While walking by CS, it brought back quite a number of memories, went to a few places.. Memories just flooded in. I wonder, when will this kind of days come again. Maybe never.
Took 21 home, and pass by some place which lead me into deep thoughts and recalling some memories. The wounds have healed, but somehow..When you touch it, it still feels "weird" You know what I'm saying? Haa.
Trying to get a laptop, but... How? Arg.. God will lead me.
Anyway, thanks Farabi for your advice!
WooHoo, finally I am done with my blog! Satisfaction!!
The Good Lord has been wonderful to me this week, in fact..All the time. Though I'm tired, but He lead me through. Gave me strength to move on, and wisdom to think. Wonderful.
Should start working on my project... A lot more to come.. Boy, poly life!! When I was back in secondary school, I yern for poly. Now that when I'm in poly, I yern for secondary school! Haa~ Irony
All right... Back to work, Grace!
Today was a relieve, the company that my team is studying on for the IISO project send us the reply email. Late by two days, but better then nothing yeah?
Guess I won't be going to bed early tonight, got to start on IISO project or I'll be dead. *ArGgHhh* Shoot me.
Went to Tampines Mall with Dino after class day, as usual I toured the top level of the mall. Went in a few shops and off to home. While walking by CS, it brought back quite a number of memories, went to a few places.. Memories just flooded in. I wonder, when will this kind of days come again. Maybe never.
Took 21 home, and pass by some place which lead me into deep thoughts and recalling some memories. The wounds have healed, but somehow..When you touch it, it still feels "weird" You know what I'm saying? Haa.
Trying to get a laptop, but... How? Arg.. God will lead me.
Anyway, thanks Farabi for your advice!
WooHoo, finally I am done with my blog! Satisfaction!!
The Good Lord has been wonderful to me this week, in fact..All the time. Though I'm tired, but He lead me through. Gave me strength to move on, and wisdom to think. Wonderful.
Should start working on my project... A lot more to come.. Boy, poly life!! When I was back in secondary school, I yern for poly. Now that when I'm in poly, I yern for secondary school! Haa~ Irony
All right... Back to work, Grace!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Seek and you shall find
I've come to realize the meaning of, seek and you shall find, ask and you shall be given. Just when I was getting all caught up with my stress level, God cleared my burden. Just today after NMM, the lecturer asked me why do I look so tensed up. I guess I show them all on my face and body language when something is wrong.
Stressed out during NMM lab today, couldn't catch up in time and don't know where is which founction. Fortunate to have Farabi near me, the one I always buck on! Haa, hit him for no reason today, but *AwWw* he's alright with that.. Haa~ I shall hit him more.
Strangly this is my second post, earlier one was kind of *slacking* Aiming to finish my cartoons by this friday, so that TYEM Academy can start on their lessons.
Projects and assignments are building up on me. IISO is due this Sunday, NMM, PRSP, Digital Image and Visual Lit is dueing soon as well. Oh well, Grace can take it.
Many others have come the distance to support my education and I have come this far, I shan't give up. The final chapter is yet to be written.
By the way, Lex, if you are reading.. Do cheer up yeah!
Stressed out during NMM lab today, couldn't catch up in time and don't know where is which founction. Fortunate to have Farabi near me, the one I always buck on! Haa, hit him for no reason today, but *AwWw* he's alright with that.. Haa~ I shall hit him more.
Strangly this is my second post, earlier one was kind of *slacking* Aiming to finish my cartoons by this friday, so that TYEM Academy can start on their lessons.
Projects and assignments are building up on me. IISO is due this Sunday, NMM, PRSP, Digital Image and Visual Lit is dueing soon as well. Oh well, Grace can take it.
Many others have come the distance to support my education and I have come this far, I shan't give up. The final chapter is yet to be written.
By the way, Lex, if you are reading.. Do cheer up yeah!
Thank you, Lord
God is just wonderful to me. Just when I got worried about my finance problem, God opened the way for me. When I went back to office on monday, Duane passed me $50, my over-time pay. I didn't expect it, I don't have to worry for this week already!
Same goes for my education.. Thanks Lord, I know you will lead me and open up the way when time is right.
Thanks Lord..
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Entry?
Before heading home, just wanna blog one last time. Don't know when will be my next entry, maybe next week? I don't know.
God has been wonderful, He has always been. Spoke to Grandma about changing church, at first it was a firm NO, but this morning, she asked me for a reason and finally allowed me to change, but not to CHC. I shan't rush into anything, shall fast and pray about it. So, Dino, you've got one more person to accompany you.
Went to catch Mr and Mrs Smith at Junction 8 after church with church people. Wasn't a bad show, worth watching! I think I shall grade it 4 and a 1/2 star.
School tomorrow, lesson starts at 9 and ends at 10. After so, I will go down to TYEM, to continue on my cartoons. Class peeps were asking me about projects' deadlines over the weekend. Not a very good day(s) to ask eh? My brain are switched off for school matters on weekends. From monday to friday, half of the time I'm thinking about school. So, let my weekd ends be for God and myself. People, relex... One at a time.
I better get going, it's kindda late now. By the time I reach home.. What time will that be?
Lord.. Thank you..
God has been wonderful, He has always been. Spoke to Grandma about changing church, at first it was a firm NO, but this morning, she asked me for a reason and finally allowed me to change, but not to CHC. I shan't rush into anything, shall fast and pray about it. So, Dino, you've got one more person to accompany you.
Went to catch Mr and Mrs Smith at Junction 8 after church with church people. Wasn't a bad show, worth watching! I think I shall grade it 4 and a 1/2 star.
School tomorrow, lesson starts at 9 and ends at 10. After so, I will go down to TYEM, to continue on my cartoons. Class peeps were asking me about projects' deadlines over the weekend. Not a very good day(s) to ask eh? My brain are switched off for school matters on weekends. From monday to friday, half of the time I'm thinking about school. So, let my weekd ends be for God and myself. People, relex... One at a time.
I better get going, it's kindda late now. By the time I reach home.. What time will that be?
Lord.. Thank you..
Saturday, June 11, 2005
My Souce
MY SOURCE
CITY HARVEST CHURCH
Key: D
Worship
Here is my life Lord Jesus
All I have I give to You
You're my God and my Saviour
You make all things new
My life is on the altar
I give my heart to You
In You i've found my purpose
My reason for living is You
You are my source and
my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days, I
long to know You more
Holy Spirit pour
down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take,
I give my all to You
Your words are life eternal
To whom do I go besides You
My dreams and my desires
I lay them at Your feet
Jesus I give You all
All that I am is Yours
CITY HARVEST CHURCH
Key: D
Worship
Here is my life Lord Jesus
All I have I give to You
You're my God and my Saviour
You make all things new
My life is on the altar
I give my heart to You
In You i've found my purpose
My reason for living is You
You are my source and
my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days, I
long to know You more
Holy Spirit pour
down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take,
I give my all to You
Your words are life eternal
To whom do I go besides You
My dreams and my desires
I lay them at Your feet
Jesus I give You all
All that I am is Yours
"moodless"
I'm feeling much better after the mango *drool* but it's way too sweet for me. Want me to take another one? No thanks, you can have it. Sugar can make you happy yeah? Haa..
Yeah, let me update you guys on my latest health report. Went to doctor yesterday, everything is going on well. Except sugar level in my blood stream is still high, 8.1%. Normal people should be below 6.4% Doctor Lim told me that for us to reduced to 6.4% is quit impossible, if I can go below 7% is already good. I shall aim for below 7%. No blood test yesterday, just had my weight and height taken. Insulin intake was reduced, but still have to undergo injections everyday, 2 times a day. I need to exercise man, to fight with insulin!! It's making me put on weight!
Church in the evening, Uncle Fa Wang is speaking, wonder how will it be. Prayed on Thursday, or is it Wednesday. I teared while praying, God's presence was so strong in me, I would give up my all for Him. The question was brought up again, the question of chainging church. I have been running and avoiding it, but that night, God wants me to face it. I have decided, I shall fast and pray about it for 2 weeks.
I'm hungry for God, I want to know Him, I want to serve Him more. In my own church, I wonder.. How can I achieve that? I don't even pay attention during sermon, half of the time I'm doing my own things. Compare to me attending CHC and Hope, I paid attention. Irony. I look at my own church's youth, should I laught or cry? We grew up together, yes, I tresured that.. But hey guys, let's move on together shall we?
I don't know why I am extreamly irritated today. I just can't stand hearing too much from my family members. I will get pissed.
I've got so much too type, but the mood just simply went out of sight.
What's wrong?
I'm getting sick and tired of my blog music, come on, why did I choose Beauty and the Beast at the first place? Enough of this sicking thing, I'm mean today, but I'm keeping cool. Oh gosh, what's happening, God please calm me down.
Dad just passed me a letter today, showing me that there isn't enough cash in his CPF account. So, now what? I can't study? Oh well, trust in the Lord, He will brings you through. EC once told me that I have a worrying character, I have to agree to that. I'm learning to control, to stop worrying that much.
I'm growing, bit by bit each day.
Projects are up, dead lines to meet. I just hope the company that my team are working on will reply us by coming Wednesday. I'm seriously need to cool down, what's getting on with me?
I'll be back..
Dad just passed me a letter today, showing me that there isn't enough cash in his CPF account. So, now what? I can't study? Oh well, trust in the Lord, He will brings you through. EC once told me that I have a worrying character, I have to agree to that. I'm learning to control, to stop worrying that much.
I'm growing, bit by bit each day.
Projects are up, dead lines to meet. I just hope the company that my team are working on will reply us by coming Wednesday. I'm seriously need to cool down, what's getting on with me?
I'll be back..
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Lappie, when will you come?
I just wish I can have my own laptop and digital camera now, at least I won't have to hear nags from others! While I was at the PC fare with Dino and Boon Wei, I wish I could easily flash out my nets and carry one lappie home. Looking at the cameras and laptops, boy.. I just wish Dad could get one for me. We couldn't afford it alright, it's way too expensive for me.. Judging that I pay almost everything myself.
Oh heck, I didn't let that discourage me. That day will come when I can get my laptop and what I wanted with a wink *Smuk* Not that I spend a lot, I am willing to spend on what I think is worth my money, I don't throw money into rubbish bins. Money, money.. It's not everything, it's the only thing. Almost everything boils down to money, you wanna go school? You need money. You wanna eat and be pretty? You flash out your money. When was the time when salt was valuable?
I need a laptop, EC can you help? Maybe not free, but what about a loan? How about.. My christmas present? Heh..
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Drunkens, down the drain you go
Drunk people, do not talk to me or call me when you're "high" on alcohol. I will either ignor you, or simply let you see my face. Spoilt my mood during dinner and scared my childhood. So what if you are drunk? That gives you the reason to throw your weight around? Come on, I have surpassed you, Dad.
That's mean of me, but that's what I would like to tell Dad straight at his face if I have the courage and faced the risk of getting bash up.
Was having dinner with Joycelyn and friends when Dad called. I left my cellphone in the bag while I get my dinner. Of course, for goodness sake, I won't know that the phone rang. The first thing when I pick up the phone was a mean and nasty comment from Dad. I didn't even have a single clue what happened. So Dad, you thing I didn't pick up your call on purpose? Think that I'm like you who don't pick up family's call? You're so damn wrong. I have always dislike talking to you whenever you come home drunk.
Whoever invented beer, why did you even invented it? Why must people abused it? Wake your senses up drinkers.
That's mean of me, but that's what I would like to tell Dad straight at his face if I have the courage and faced the risk of getting bash up.
Was having dinner with Joycelyn and friends when Dad called. I left my cellphone in the bag while I get my dinner. Of course, for goodness sake, I won't know that the phone rang. The first thing when I pick up the phone was a mean and nasty comment from Dad. I didn't even have a single clue what happened. So Dad, you thing I didn't pick up your call on purpose? Think that I'm like you who don't pick up family's call? You're so damn wrong. I have always dislike talking to you whenever you come home drunk.
Whoever invented beer, why did you even invented it? Why must people abused it? Wake your senses up drinkers.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Blood test
Blood test wasn't that painfull.. The needle went in, and out it came after a few seconds. I think my veins got loose, blood was still coming out after the needle was pull out. Oh well, as long as it don't hurts.
Meeting the people at EXPO later for computer fare, don't think I'll be getting anything.. Just dropping by to show my face. Munching down on my breaddie, never had anything in the morning because of the blood test.
No church today, but I'll be going to Joycelyn's church.. Should I? Haa..Stop being lazy, Grace
Meeting the people at EXPO later for computer fare, don't think I'll be getting anything.. Just dropping by to show my face. Munching down on my breaddie, never had anything in the morning because of the blood test.
No church today, but I'll be going to Joycelyn's church.. Should I? Haa..Stop being lazy, Grace
Friday, June 03, 2005
I miss working at the office!
Fever have been on going for the past few days and finally subsided yesterday. Still not feeling too good, and boy.. blood test is tomorrow! Have to endure the needles going into my hands again..
Back in the office today, collected the comixs and had a look on Communication Skills lesson plan. Not bad, sem rather interesting to me. Going out got lunch soon, ain't I am going to be late for school today..
Back in the office, brough back a number of memories as well. I just missed the days when I was in the office. Though the youngest there, but am always clicking well.. Didn't get to see Duane today, miss his jokes and "logics".. Haa..Not to forget Eli's "Serious arg!"
Almost everyone in the office has his/her unique "actions"
Duane: " Eh, you not committed!"---> The big brother of the company, always willing to work and not complaining..
Eli: "Serious arg? Die leh!"---> The smart one
Erwin: "Haa Haa"---> The coffee and chocolate monster in the office, always smiling/ laughting
Charlene: " Very hot arg!"---> This lady should live in North or South Pole.. Dedicated staff of Adrian and Alice
Adrian:"Die lah die lah!"---> The boss..*Too much to comment*
Alice: The smart and work smart lawyer
Back in the office today, collected the comixs and had a look on Communication Skills lesson plan. Not bad, sem rather interesting to me. Going out got lunch soon, ain't I am going to be late for school today..
Back in the office, brough back a number of memories as well. I just missed the days when I was in the office. Though the youngest there, but am always clicking well.. Didn't get to see Duane today, miss his jokes and "logics".. Haa..Not to forget Eli's "Serious arg!"
Almost everyone in the office has his/her unique "actions"
Duane: " Eh, you not committed!"---> The big brother of the company, always willing to work and not complaining..
Eli: "Serious arg? Die leh!"---> The smart one
Erwin: "Haa Haa"---> The coffee and chocolate monster in the office, always smiling/ laughting
Charlene: " Very hot arg!"---> This lady should live in North or South Pole.. Dedicated staff of Adrian and Alice
Adrian:"Die lah die lah!"---> The boss..*Too much to comment*
Alice: The smart and work smart lawyer
