Monday, July 31, 2006
Took a look at my scedule today.
SWEN project due this week.
CMSK due next week.
INMM and STMD the week after next.
It's the time of the month again; mood swinging...
SWEN project due this week.
CMSK due next week.
INMM and STMD the week after next.
It's the time of the month again; mood swinging...
Friday, July 28, 2006
I believe...
I believe that my life has changed.
I believe that God is always leading my way.
I believe no matter what my failures are; God still loves me.
I think I screwed up my DBSY project. I know I did, there's time to ammend now but why am I not doing so?
I believe that my life has changed.
I believe that God is always leading my way.
I believe no matter what my failures are; God still loves me.
I think I screwed up my DBSY project. I know I did, there's time to ammend now but why am I not doing so?
Do I know how to love someone?
When it comes to the topic of love, people often linked it up with boy/girl relationship. No, not really talking about that here. Do I really know how to love the ones around me, do I really know how to love God? Such a complicated issue.
Never once I told someone I love him/her; except in prayers and that was to God. Unlike others, I don't know how to sweet talk and whatever conversation I start won't last very long. Am I alright, or just because I didn't take the effort to love?
Few days ago I was thinking of the theme for Church's christmas event. A lot of thought went through my mind, before something came in and I knew that was the proposal I'm going to propose. But, whether it will be accepted or not; I don't know. Just moments ago, the idea came to me again when I was listening to 'Just Like Heaven' and on the spot, I asked God if that was the idea He wanted me to prepose. Somehow I feel that this Christmas is gonna be different and I want to do something different also. Instead of the usual Praise and Worship, followed by sermon and Praise and Worship again.. I had this big proposal of a musical. Well, not really a musical, but a skit rather to be. I had the whole storyline in my head and a little of the story board drafted in my head. Of course, I would want my idea to be accepted for this year's Christmas theme; but like what I learned in ANM today... May it be in God's will instead of mine.
Have you read the part in the Bible where it mentioned that Jesus was scared when He was praying in the garden before He got taken away? Have you ever wonder why was He scare; He's the Son of God! I began to wonder after the Pastor asked this question. What came to mind was, "Because Jesus was a human then, naturally He'll be scare." But the answer that the Pastor gave and explained was much more meaningull then this. "Jesus feared, so that we will have courage." He came as a man, He came not only to save but also to replace. He replaced our weakness, our sorrows, our fears. How? You may ask. Didn't Jesus felt all that when He was on earth. He felt those (He don't have to) so that He can replace them and when we cry out to Him, He really understand.
Bought the SOP's CDs at Eden today. So excited to see it on the shelf! I have a pile of codes to write, and DBSY is due tomorrow! Next week's dueing project is SWEN and two weeks later is INMM, STMD and CMSK. Killer.
Lord, I want to love. I want to learn how to love and not be shy about it. Teach me how to love through Your love.
When it comes to the topic of love, people often linked it up with boy/girl relationship. No, not really talking about that here. Do I really know how to love the ones around me, do I really know how to love God? Such a complicated issue.
Never once I told someone I love him/her; except in prayers and that was to God. Unlike others, I don't know how to sweet talk and whatever conversation I start won't last very long. Am I alright, or just because I didn't take the effort to love?
Few days ago I was thinking of the theme for Church's christmas event. A lot of thought went through my mind, before something came in and I knew that was the proposal I'm going to propose. But, whether it will be accepted or not; I don't know. Just moments ago, the idea came to me again when I was listening to 'Just Like Heaven' and on the spot, I asked God if that was the idea He wanted me to prepose. Somehow I feel that this Christmas is gonna be different and I want to do something different also. Instead of the usual Praise and Worship, followed by sermon and Praise and Worship again.. I had this big proposal of a musical. Well, not really a musical, but a skit rather to be. I had the whole storyline in my head and a little of the story board drafted in my head. Of course, I would want my idea to be accepted for this year's Christmas theme; but like what I learned in ANM today... May it be in God's will instead of mine.
Have you read the part in the Bible where it mentioned that Jesus was scared when He was praying in the garden before He got taken away? Have you ever wonder why was He scare; He's the Son of God! I began to wonder after the Pastor asked this question. What came to mind was, "Because Jesus was a human then, naturally He'll be scare." But the answer that the Pastor gave and explained was much more meaningull then this. "Jesus feared, so that we will have courage." He came as a man, He came not only to save but also to replace. He replaced our weakness, our sorrows, our fears. How? You may ask. Didn't Jesus felt all that when He was on earth. He felt those (He don't have to) so that He can replace them and when we cry out to Him, He really understand.
Bought the SOP's CDs at Eden today. So excited to see it on the shelf! I have a pile of codes to write, and DBSY is due tomorrow! Next week's dueing project is SWEN and two weeks later is INMM, STMD and CMSK. Killer.
Lord, I want to love. I want to learn how to love and not be shy about it. Teach me how to love through Your love.
Monday, July 24, 2006
似乎在天堂
人群中我悄悄地出走 忘记了已流浪了多久
我的灵魂好孤单 静静地让往事沉淀
找不到暂时的休息站 一路上总忘记了被爱
我的记忆已空白 下一站哪里是未来
(C)
我记得你说你爱我 不论往何走你仍抱著我
泪光中似乎看见你的脸 原来你一直在我身边
我愿意让你来爱我 不愿一个人好孤单地走
我相信爱与被爱那么真实 在你微笑中我似乎在天堂
Tired.
Sleepy.
Lab Test.
Examination.
DBSY project due this week.
I need sleep.
Wahhhhhh..........
CHOSEN
Sleepy.
Lab Test.
Examination.
DBSY project due this week.
I need sleep.
Wahhhhhh..........
CHOSEN
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Oh my, people around me have been working their fats out! Guess it's only me, the big fat lazy bone still sitting around :P Wanted to run on Friday, but somehow kept giving myself excuses. Oh man, I wish I have a partner to push me to run everyday! Talk about healthy life; I'm going vegetarian this few days and am still keeping at it! The only meat I ate for the pass few days was fish and nothing else :) Healthy.
I'm just getting so lazy nowadays!
It's Tuesday again, as usual came to school for an hour of lesson than I'm free to do what I have to do. Had rehearsal with April and Jesher at the Library and don't know what I want to do next. Yes , I'm still at the library typing this entry. Maybe I should go running? Yeah, that's the way!
Humans, a funny kind of animals that have even lived on earth. Sometimes we think too highly of ourselves and sometimes we see ourselves as nothing! I remembered once I read this from one of my friend's Friendster profile, " I see myself weak, but You (God) gave me strength. I see myself as nothing, but You raise me up". Ever since the day I read that, it was deeply rooted in my mind. Really, many times we see ourselves as nothing but God raise us up to be someone for Him! Look at King David, he was nothing but a boy looking after his father's sheep; but God raise him up to be the greatest king ever! God uses small people to achieved great things for Him! So, if you are feeling down right now or ever before; fear not! God will use you one day! Don't close the door when God has opened it up for you!
Had a great chatting session with Fa Wang Lao Shi, Pei Sen Lao Shi, Zeke, Aaron and Lydia! Cleared some doubts and cleared some misunderstandings too. Sometimes, isn't is great to just sit down and talk things out? Often we say there isn't much time to do so; who says? We can manage our own time, if we want to :)
Been reading the SOP's blog for their tour updates and each testimonies were so touching! Especially the testimonies on the last Hong Kong event. "Sexual sins", I was somehow shocked when I saw those words. However, as I read on further.. God was somehow speaking to me also. I thought I was the worse of all to have committed such sins, and who would have guess so? The testimony from Teresa about someone's sharing touched me deeply. I am not alone; and it's even firmer for me to wanna break the chain that satan has place on me.
Lord, grant me a steadfast heart and faith that's as firm as solid rock!
I got to go now, it's rather late! And where's that April?? Her lappie is with me... Muhahaha, I shall bring it home then... :)
I'm just getting so lazy nowadays!
It's Tuesday again, as usual came to school for an hour of lesson than I'm free to do what I have to do. Had rehearsal with April and Jesher at the Library and don't know what I want to do next. Yes , I'm still at the library typing this entry. Maybe I should go running? Yeah, that's the way!
Humans, a funny kind of animals that have even lived on earth. Sometimes we think too highly of ourselves and sometimes we see ourselves as nothing! I remembered once I read this from one of my friend's Friendster profile, " I see myself weak, but You (God) gave me strength. I see myself as nothing, but You raise me up". Ever since the day I read that, it was deeply rooted in my mind. Really, many times we see ourselves as nothing but God raise us up to be someone for Him! Look at King David, he was nothing but a boy looking after his father's sheep; but God raise him up to be the greatest king ever! God uses small people to achieved great things for Him! So, if you are feeling down right now or ever before; fear not! God will use you one day! Don't close the door when God has opened it up for you!
Had a great chatting session with Fa Wang Lao Shi, Pei Sen Lao Shi, Zeke, Aaron and Lydia! Cleared some doubts and cleared some misunderstandings too. Sometimes, isn't is great to just sit down and talk things out? Often we say there isn't much time to do so; who says? We can manage our own time, if we want to :)
Been reading the SOP's blog for their tour updates and each testimonies were so touching! Especially the testimonies on the last Hong Kong event. "Sexual sins", I was somehow shocked when I saw those words. However, as I read on further.. God was somehow speaking to me also. I thought I was the worse of all to have committed such sins, and who would have guess so? The testimony from Teresa about someone's sharing touched me deeply. I am not alone; and it's even firmer for me to wanna break the chain that satan has place on me.
Lord, grant me a steadfast heart and faith that's as firm as solid rock!
I got to go now, it's rather late! And where's that April?? Her lappie is with me... Muhahaha, I shall bring it home then... :)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
The yellow balloon
My STMD project!! That voice you hear is non other then mine; I know it suck... ahaha
My STMD project!! That voice you hear is non other then mine; I know it suck... ahaha
Slept at 4a.m on friday's morning and woke up at 11a.m; just in time for my noon class. Wasn't quite done with my proposal and drawings but praise God I finish them before 6p.m.
Just as I was typing, I realise I wasn't really saying any praise to God nowadays! Oh man, maybe this is my first "praise-God" in like a thousand entry! Praise God, praise Him!! Giving praise to the King of kings is just magnificent! Praise God, all nations!
Took part in All Nations Ministry fellowship on thursday, wasn't very use to it... Maybe I was away for a long long time and coming back to Him just felt so weird. They sang a number of songs and I only knew one of them. However, one thing that touched me was the way they worship. Little people like my youth fellowship, but they worshipped God and was not affected by the number of people that turn up. Get what I mean? The way the children and teenager worship just hit me. Maybe it will take sometime for me to get use to ANM. One funny thing, once I opened my eyes and was shocked to see all the people on their knees and I was the only one standing; I was someone "paiseh" :P
Yes! My volunteer role was confirmed on Thursday! WooHoo, looking forward to it! Youth forum tomorrow, early morning again... I wanna sleep all that I want :P
Just as I was typing, I realise I wasn't really saying any praise to God nowadays! Oh man, maybe this is my first "praise-God" in like a thousand entry! Praise God, praise Him!! Giving praise to the King of kings is just magnificent! Praise God, all nations!
Took part in All Nations Ministry fellowship on thursday, wasn't very use to it... Maybe I was away for a long long time and coming back to Him just felt so weird. They sang a number of songs and I only knew one of them. However, one thing that touched me was the way they worship. Little people like my youth fellowship, but they worshipped God and was not affected by the number of people that turn up. Get what I mean? The way the children and teenager worship just hit me. Maybe it will take sometime for me to get use to ANM. One funny thing, once I opened my eyes and was shocked to see all the people on their knees and I was the only one standing; I was someone "paiseh" :P
Yes! My volunteer role was confirmed on Thursday! WooHoo, looking forward to it! Youth forum tomorrow, early morning again... I wanna sleep all that I want :P
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Animation almost done :)
Wednesday: Giving tuition :|, give tuition :|, finish animation :)
Thursday: Meeting Pris for All Nations Fellowship :D, Finish INMM proposal
Friday: Submit INMM project, Discipleship class :()
Saturday: Youth Forum, Praise and Worship practice, Youth fellowship :)
Sunday: Church, Giving tuition at night :)
Next week's project: DBSY, SWEN
Monday: RHD Stress test :X
So far, so good!
Remember to pray for SOP and HK choir! They are having their first event tonight and 33 more to go!
Wednesday: Giving tuition :|, give tuition :|, finish animation :)
Thursday: Meeting Pris for All Nations Fellowship :D, Finish INMM proposal
Friday: Submit INMM project, Discipleship class :()
Saturday: Youth Forum, Praise and Worship practice, Youth fellowship :)
Sunday: Church, Giving tuition at night :)
Next week's project: DBSY, SWEN
Monday: RHD Stress test :X
So far, so good!
Remember to pray for SOP and HK choir! They are having their first event tonight and 33 more to go!
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
加油！！
星期二这一天，自己提自己请假；不用上课！星期二也是最少课的一天，只有一个小时的课就能回家了。一点上课，两点下课。。过后跟朋友们吃吃饭聊聊天，到图书馆看 "I Shouldn't Be Alive"然后回家！星期二，好休闲噢！
赞美之泉已在香港，亚洲巡回就要开始啦！今年第一站是香港过后才去台湾，马来西亚最后新加波；还期待噢！今年赞美之泉出了两张赞美系列的专辑，<宝贵十架>和<似乎在天堂>。两张专辑都收入了动听的赞美敬拜歌曲！单单只听他们的 demo 就已经被感动啦！时间过得真快，记得去年的巡回也是在八月。一年就这样过去啦！一年没见，大家还好吧？我看今年的巡回会不同，一定会比往年更复兴！期待能和赞美之泉，Cindy, Priscilla和多位弟兄姐妹一起敬拜！
香港诗班的弟兄姐妹加油！赞美之泉也要加多一点油！魔鬼会在暗中想要阻止和扰乱，信心不要动摇！BBS 的弟兄姐妹们会多为你们代祷！
若你八月十一日至十三日在新加波，想一同与赞美之泉敬拜的话；请到他们的 site check 一下下聚会地点和时间！http://www.sop.org
开始做我的animation!! Grace 也要加油！！
赞美之泉已在香港，亚洲巡回就要开始啦！今年第一站是香港过后才去台湾，马来西亚最后新加波；还期待噢！今年赞美之泉出了两张赞美系列的专辑，<宝贵十架>和<似乎在天堂>。两张专辑都收入了动听的赞美敬拜歌曲！单单只听他们的 demo 就已经被感动啦！时间过得真快，记得去年的巡回也是在八月。一年就这样过去啦！一年没见，大家还好吧？我看今年的巡回会不同，一定会比往年更复兴！期待能和赞美之泉，Cindy, Priscilla和多位弟兄姐妹一起敬拜！
香港诗班的弟兄姐妹加油！赞美之泉也要加多一点油！魔鬼会在暗中想要阻止和扰乱，信心不要动摇！BBS 的弟兄姐妹们会多为你们代祷！
若你八月十一日至十三日在新加波，想一同与赞美之泉敬拜的话；请到他们的 site check 一下下聚会地点和时间！http://www.sop.org
开始做我的animation!! Grace 也要加油！！
Monday, July 10, 2006
INMM animation, DBSY's ERD diagram, codes, SWEN, EXAMINATION!! So many things to do... Life in Singapore as a student? Weird eh, I think I'll miss school when I officially done with it.
It's rainy and cold today, finally woke up without sweat! Journey to school was wet but somehow enjoyable. Read the Bible on the bus and Monday blues wasn't a threat to me :) School term is flying pass, in less then 2 months our finals will start. Work hard.
Congratulation, Shirly, for passing her English oral! It's kind of weird that the system over there only choose a certain of them for English oral exams; isn't that unfair? Plus, they get to know their results on the spot!
SOP's AT is starting in a day's time! First stop: Hong Kong.
I'm waiting for the CDs to be out...
It's rainy and cold today, finally woke up without sweat! Journey to school was wet but somehow enjoyable. Read the Bible on the bus and Monday blues wasn't a threat to me :) School term is flying pass, in less then 2 months our finals will start. Work hard.
Congratulation, Shirly, for passing her English oral! It's kind of weird that the system over there only choose a certain of them for English oral exams; isn't that unfair? Plus, they get to know their results on the spot!
SOP's AT is starting in a day's time! First stop: Hong Kong.
I'm waiting for the CDs to be out...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
It's almost 3a.m now and I had just finish my Communication Skills 3 report. Some report that I had never dreamt that I will write on; Environmental Issues! Heck, am I that environmental friendly? Haa, maybe a little. Too tired and late to do my animation now. Got to sleep man, tomorrow is gonna be a long day...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Looks like many are returning to where they came from this Summer break eh; and I wonder when will it be my turn. Just a 8 hours ride and I can get home, but just ain't got the time! Haven been home for 6 years and counting. I hope things don't change much there, I kinda like the kampong feelings back home compared to Singapore.
Monday, July 03, 2006
"If you can't trace His hand, trust His heart"
Do you notice how easy is it for us to say we love God, trust Him, be faithful, keep praying and all; but it's all so hard to do? How many times we went far from God and wanted to come back, but it's so hard? FAITH, so simple yet so hard.
I'm bringing a HUGE challenge into my life, yes LIFE. If you know me, I'm seriously not a morning person. If you wanna get hold of me during holidays, you can only reach me after 12 noon. I'm that sleepy head. What's the big challenge then? I'M GONNA CHANGE MY QUIET TIME TO MORNING!! Actually, I've long wanted to do so.. but as you know.. Agreed with what Z said, mornings are the best time for QT. Nothing has gotten into our head and we start off with God's words in out heart. It's gonna take a lot of motivation and discipline to wake up a few hours earlier. I can do it, yes I can!
Just when I thought I was going nowhere in life, not leaving any footprints; God proved me wrong. I forgotten the reasons why I went through so many ups and downs in my life, why I survived and why I am chosen; God is the reason. EC once told me, "You're a blessing to many". Through me and His children, He's gonna use us to spread His wonders for Him; be it through the smallest effort to the biggest event. Grant me a humble heart, Lord.
Pris just texted me some Christian organization in Singapore, gonna have to check them out when time permits. Lord, I wanna do more; out of my comfort zone, out of what the 'me-myself-I' zone.
Projects, meetings, trainings, practices... AT coming, add oil SOP. Our prayers will help you fight the war against the evil side.
Do you notice how easy is it for us to say we love God, trust Him, be faithful, keep praying and all; but it's all so hard to do? How many times we went far from God and wanted to come back, but it's so hard? FAITH, so simple yet so hard.
I'm bringing a HUGE challenge into my life, yes LIFE. If you know me, I'm seriously not a morning person. If you wanna get hold of me during holidays, you can only reach me after 12 noon. I'm that sleepy head. What's the big challenge then? I'M GONNA CHANGE MY QUIET TIME TO MORNING!! Actually, I've long wanted to do so.. but as you know.. Agreed with what Z said, mornings are the best time for QT. Nothing has gotten into our head and we start off with God's words in out heart. It's gonna take a lot of motivation and discipline to wake up a few hours earlier. I can do it, yes I can!
Just when I thought I was going nowhere in life, not leaving any footprints; God proved me wrong. I forgotten the reasons why I went through so many ups and downs in my life, why I survived and why I am chosen; God is the reason. EC once told me, "You're a blessing to many". Through me and His children, He's gonna use us to spread His wonders for Him; be it through the smallest effort to the biggest event. Grant me a humble heart, Lord.
Pris just texted me some Christian organization in Singapore, gonna have to check them out when time permits. Lord, I wanna do more; out of my comfort zone, out of what the 'me-myself-I' zone.
Projects, meetings, trainings, practices... AT coming, add oil SOP. Our prayers will help you fight the war against the evil side.
The fake ending of Doraemon was so sad and touching; just can't bear to see Nobita being left all alone. Fake ending was somehow a good ending, Doraemon came back! Alright, there's a child in me when I still enjoy watching cartoons.
It leads to another thought, all things must end; won't they? Be it good or bad. Take for example a relationship, no matter how good it is; it will end one day. A friendship ends when the other partner passed on, something sour took place or some misunderstandings. A marriage ends when the other partner passed on, divorced.. All things come to an end, but one thing never. God's relationship, covenent, promises and love for us will never. That's a comforting one :)
Lately, I've been having thoughts that Grandma might be leaving soon. Don't know why, but I'll get all tense and scare. I admit I am afraid of lossing her. She has been my gurdian angel since the day I step into her life; for all that I can remember, she stood by me all the way. When I was doing badly in school, she cheered and encouraged me to try harder. From the bottom, I came to the top. When I talked about my "impossible" dream, she didn't deny it but supported me. When I wanted so much to go on a trip, she sponsored me. When I was sick, she's always concern; her prayers for me never stops. She worries if I come home late, if I didn't take my meals, if I didn't do well for my studies, if I'm going to places I have not been to. Without her, I wouldn't have kept to my path. I just wanna say, Thanks for being my gurdian angel, a motivator, a story teller, a comfort and a shelter. Whenever I'm feeling down, she will be there to comfort me. When I'm scare, her words will give me courage. However, I haven been a really nice granddaughter. Only me, I shouted at her, made her cry and put in so much.
I can only tell myself that the place where she will be going is much better than on Earth. She will be happier. We are not apart, we'll meet again soon. Love you, grandma.
It leads to another thought, all things must end; won't they? Be it good or bad. Take for example a relationship, no matter how good it is; it will end one day. A friendship ends when the other partner passed on, something sour took place or some misunderstandings. A marriage ends when the other partner passed on, divorced.. All things come to an end, but one thing never. God's relationship, covenent, promises and love for us will never. That's a comforting one :)
Lately, I've been having thoughts that Grandma might be leaving soon. Don't know why, but I'll get all tense and scare. I admit I am afraid of lossing her. She has been my gurdian angel since the day I step into her life; for all that I can remember, she stood by me all the way. When I was doing badly in school, she cheered and encouraged me to try harder. From the bottom, I came to the top. When I talked about my "impossible" dream, she didn't deny it but supported me. When I wanted so much to go on a trip, she sponsored me. When I was sick, she's always concern; her prayers for me never stops. She worries if I come home late, if I didn't take my meals, if I didn't do well for my studies, if I'm going to places I have not been to. Without her, I wouldn't have kept to my path. I just wanna say, Thanks for being my gurdian angel, a motivator, a story teller, a comfort and a shelter. Whenever I'm feeling down, she will be there to comfort me. When I'm scare, her words will give me courage. However, I haven been a really nice granddaughter. Only me, I shouted at her, made her cry and put in so much.
I can only tell myself that the place where she will be going is much better than on Earth. She will be happier. We are not apart, we'll meet again soon. Love you, grandma.
