Monday, January 31, 2005

Working FOR people

My mood is somehow not very good today. Due to work problem and pay problem. Went to check my account few days ago, and found that I have recieved my pay. Should be happy right? But I'm not.. I only recieved $179.50! Where's the rest? I have worked for three weeks, at least should have about $300. I'm going to ask for my pay slip tomorrow to clarify! Another element is-- Alice Quek. Yeah, this lady again. Actually I was starting to like her, opening myself to become friends with her.. But, after today.. It somehow got affected.

When to work today and met Bee Guat.. Yeah! So happy to see her! Ever since I have been place to work afternoon, I seldom have chance to see her or talk to her. Today we chated for awhile! Bee Guat was very caring, asking me how was I, am I used to the job all that. Thanks Bee Guat! She was telling me what Alice wanted me to do and said that just know Alice commented that I was slow. I was affected by that, I felt I was staped from the back! Ok, if you think that I'm slow, tell me! You don't tell me, how would I know?

Like what I mentioned before, the whole of Giant don't like Alice, I was seen as the only one conecting well with her. Many times, people will ask me, "Did Alice scold you?", "Is Alice treating you well?", "Come to my department lah". All the times I just smiled away, saying that everything is going on well. It is!! I want to be your friend, I want to show you I cared! The whole of Giant is talking ill about you, but I didn't take them in. I want to experience you, by my own judgement, not what others tell me. If let's say, only Bee Guat has been the one saying that you are unreasonable, then I will consider what she says.. Maybe she don't like you, want to spoil your image. But, the things is-- Not only Bee Guat is telling me this! Ai Mei, Adrian, Allan and Ah Wee tells me the same thing! Ah Wee was like always asking me to change department, but I choose to stay on.. Alice arg Alice, why are you behaving like this? You can't stand alone, you need friends! Agnes told me today that Alice seem "Zhi Bi", you know, those kind that won't talk to others when people talk to them? Alice arg, change your behaviour man. I wonder if you do have any friends outside.

I have mention before. People who have obtained high rank will tend to look down on those below them or newbies. Have they forgotten, that they were once there? Haiz~ this is the working world, this is what it's like to work for people.. Well.. Treat it like a learning experience Gracie. Next time can share lor! Ahha~ Everything that happens, God permits them.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Come Holy Spirit

I just had a wonderful time with God. I prayed soon after I bath and felt His power and mine renewed! Now..suddenly this song came to mind.. I had always loved this songs, always touches my heart..

Come Holy Spirit fall on me now
I need your anointing, come in Your power
I need You Holy Spirit, You're captivating my soul
And everyday, I grow to love You more
I'm reaching for Your heart
You hold my life in Your hands
Drawing me closer to You
I feel Your power renewed
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see You face to face
I worship You
In Spirit and in Truth

A wonderful song.. Before I prayed, I listened to a CD by Stream Of Praise.The last song on the CD always touches my heart and make me calm down. While the music was playing, pictures of my life played back. Through all the vallies of shadows, God has always been there to lead me through. When I fall, He would be there to lift me up and nurse my wound. When I'm scared, He would always be there for me to run to and seek comfort, peace and rest. I pictured God walking with me, holding my hand. When I'm tired, he would carry me. When I cry, He would be there to wipe away my tears and make me smile again. God, you are a wonderful Father! I always see myself as a little child when I am with God. Doesn't matter how old I am, I am forever God's child. I listened to the music a number of times. Also, I pictured myself sitting on God's lap, flipping my book. Yeah, my book.. stories of my life. I saw God putting me to sleep and how he would watch me with love while I sleep. Presence of God was very strong.

Many times in my life, I admit I did felt helpless and alone . I broke down and thinking that I can't go on. In the end, God will always be my source of strength and hope to move on. Someone broke my heart, God mend it for me. I broke His, he didn't blame me. God, thank you for loving me as what I am. Without God, I wouldn't know where I'll be now. Everything is carefully planed by God.. The people I meet, the childhood I had, my parents..EVERYTHING! God, Gracie LOVE You!!

Everything has been going on fine at work.. New year is approaching, so will be much more busy. Actually, Alice is not such a bad lady after all. Almost whole of Giant has ill talks about her, but I find her..alright! Yeah, just that she can be a little hot tempered sometimes..but that's her! There's six billion people, but there's only one ALICE QUEK! Oh well, the Bible teaches us to love everyone in our life. They came into our lives for a reason!

There will be a TYEM counselling session on Saturday, rest of the team can't make it..Guess I would have to go alone. Was actually a little angry with that, but.. the Bible did mention.. In your anger do not sin..For everything that happens, God permits it.Go alone..alright lah~ I will help the rest take notes..If any.

Being a leader is not easy.. Am reading a book on guide to motivating people.. I had better read up now..to lead Dare2Dream to higher hights. Of course me alone can't do it.. I will need others to give me a hand.. I'm only glad that God placed my team people together with me.. I will learn to be a better leader!

Roy has gone overseas for almost a week..Which means I haven been in contact with him for this long! Oh boy, I do hope he is enjoying himself!

Easter Day is coming soon and the youths are putting up a programe! I'm looking forward to it!!

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Basic Rights To Live For Both Animals And Human

Just came back from the class BBQ at east coast. A plane simple gathering. Everyone hasn't really change much, just that our hairs are dyed and longer! Had a wonderful chatting session with Eddie, Joel, Liana and Ling. It has been some time since we last sat down together. I sure do miss school days! In actual fact, 4E didn't really had a class gathering before, this was the first time. Well in future, I'm sure there will be more. About half of the class turned up, the other half didn't come. Next time, should invite Ms Saffiah along.. but the boys won't be able to smoke! It's such a pity that they started smoking at such a young age.

On sunday, I met Si Yun at Bedok Mac for chit chatting session, after so we went to Giant to shop for vegetables! Si Yun has decided to cook for Cleo that evening. When we reach home, Si Yun made her phone calls while I help myself to her television. We had a great time cooking and eating. After dinner, Si Yun and Cleo showed me a video. The video pictured how animals were treated before they are being killed for their meat.. After watching the video, I am thinking twice of eating meat!

Strange thing is, the next afternoon during lunch, I didn't even eat the curry chicken that is in my lunch box! Animals are God's creation too, why must they be treated like that! Animals and Humans share the same fate. We were made fromdust and when we die, we go back to dust! Put yourself in the animals' shoe, how would you feel if you were to be seperated from your mother moments after you were born? Treated badly because you refuse to listen to instruction? Killed because you are considered useless?If animals could speak, they will tell you how hard their lives is. Humans have the basic right to live, so do animals! Milks form the cows are meant to be for their children. One interesting fact I got to know from the video, Pigs are actually smarter than Dogs!

Just now at the BBQ, Si yun suddenly smsed me says she missed me.. *wOw* Miss me huh, Ah Bu! O levels result coming out soon, don't know when and don't know how well we will do.

Roy has gone for his holidays, don't know when he will be back. Started to miss him already.. Haha~ Usually come online, I would look forward chatting with him.. Sometimes, things are just not meant to be.. I do miss him..HaHa.. Wonder this guy got so good think of me not.. HmMMMmm..


Sunday, January 23, 2005


Cute not? Animated Fei Zhu Posted by Hello

Saturday, January 22, 2005


Dare2Dream Team Posted by Hello


Me in stamp form.. Posted by Hello


Me and Fei Zhu Posted by Hello

Me and My Darling

I first saw you in March 2004, the moment I saw you, I knew I had fallen in love with you. You were so cute, and innocent looking. Everyday after school, I look forward to see you. You were there for me through my saddest and happiest moments. You were always there to listen, never running away. We watch television together, we ate together.. You and I were just made for each other. We would often play hide and seek, I remember once I can't find you-- I was so anxious. But when I found you, I was overjoyed! Often, even when it is late at night, you will always be awake when I needed someone there. I love to watch you sleep, you are more than cute-- I love you!

Well well well.. Looking at my tittle, you might thing I'm talkinh about my boyfriend or anything right? Haha~ No lah.. My Darling in life is non other than God, many more people in life and also not to forget my hamster, Fei Zhu!!

Fei Zhu is going away tomorrow, giving it to Aunt Helen's friend. I couldn't bear to let it go, but still I have to. I already gave Fat Pig to her, tomorrow, I'm giving Fei Zhu to her as well. Actaully I wanted to sell Fei Zhu, but looking at her..She's my darling! How can I sell her to make money!! I would rather give it away to someone who can really take care of her. * Fei Zhu, I'm gonna miss you lots!*

I wanted to pass it to Roy at the first place, but guess he didn't really want it.. So, no choice, I have to give it away to someone else. Well, think possitive Gracie, at least Fei Zhu get to be with Fat Pig! I will miss those days with her.

Like what I told Si Yun, somethings, even when you can't bear to let go, you still must-- for the better.

Fei Zhu, I don't know when I will see you again. I wonder if I can cope without you. After tomorrow, you will not be there waiting for me anymore. We won't share food, watch television again.. Fei Zhu.. I will miss you!! *Sob*



Friday, January 21, 2005

Knowing what to do and doing it is a different thing

Here I am at Si Yun's place, typing my blog. I didn't go to church today-- Partly I wasn't feeling well this morning, and also, I didn't really prepare for my debate notes. *Sorry Lydia and sorry God.. Sorry for being lazy* I called Lydia to tell her my points and after that I had a bad feeling. It was as though I have done something wrong. I prayed to God, and I felt much better after that. *God, you are so wonderful*

This morning, at work, my mind was like.." I don't want to go to church, I haven prepare my notes yet. Lydia is going to be unhappy." Then, I was thinking of excuses to not go church. Actually, I wasn't really unwell. I was just having the normal montly stomach cramp. *God, I felt so sorry..Forgive me..* Praise the Lord that I am able to come up with the points while I was on my way to Si Yun's place. I was so empowered with thoughts, I just kept writting and writting. The topic for the debate is, " Teachers are the reasons leading to slow growth of youth fellowship"-- My side ws against it.

I find this topic quite easy..as in, I can have much to talk about. Slow fellowship growth isn't mainly due to teachers' fault, youths have to play a part. We are considered the future leaders, we should take some responsibilities. I personally feels that the youth fellowship should be spearheaded mainly by youths, not just only adults. Humans tends to pushes the blame to others when things goes wrong. Why can't human take a look at themselves before they arrow others? When you point a finger at others, do you realise you have three more of your own fingers pointing at yourself? It takes two hands to clap. Youths have come together to want to solve the problems, but how many of times have it been done seriously? Knowing what to do and doing it is two different thing. Well, people.. If we want a breakthrough in our church, in our youth fellowship.. we have to take the first step out in faith. May not be easy, but you will never know what is hard before you try. How high is high to you untill you climb the tallest mountain? We can approach the elders ourselves, don't have to wait for the teachers. They are humans, so are we! We are all equal in front of God.

Election of the merger thing will be held later.. Cleo is not coming.. Is she unhappy with the merger thing? Did she agree to the merger because she doesn't want Si Yun to be upsad? I don't know, but I will find out from her. Although I'm not close to Cleo, but there will be a time I have to face her. I'm a bit nervous about the merger, don't know what will the outcome be.. Somethings can just pop out from no where.. Anyway, Gracie, trust in God!! Whatever happen, there is always a reason behind it. His way are always higher than mine. Though certain things I may not understand, but God knows the way.

"You have been faithful in all of your way. Though we may not understand why we go through life this way. But we know what it's like to be by your side. Teach us Lord to be like you, to be so faithful and true."

I love you God!!

Thursday, January 20, 2005

You Are 20 Years Old
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Lyrics of some of my favorite songs

The Reason-Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a resaon for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You [x4] I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you
Numb-Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be
I Dream-Taufik Batisah
In my mind I can climb All the mountains that surround me My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly In my heart There's a spark That can light the world around me An open door, where I am sure dreams are Doesn't matter if I win Or the colour of my skin Cause this race is all about Believing in yourself And I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream, I can be The hero that's in me I dream, I dream There's a time, In your life When the odds are so against you There's no defeat if all you keep is pride First or last, Slow or fast There's a dignity that makes you Keep driving on, when world's have come apart Doesn't matter rich or poor Or the things you've done before Cause the race is all about Believing in yourself And I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream, I can be The hero that's in me I dream I dream! Of a moment That forever will be golden When the torch is passed Only dreams will last That are shared by everyone I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream, I can be The hero that's in me I dream, I dream

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

There Will Be A Time When You Need To Fly Alone

Work afternoon shift today, make no difference anyway-- I miss Ah Guat! Haha~ Actually I did saw her today, but didn't manage to say "Hello". Today work isn't tough, most of the time I'm walking around, doing simple things. I was taught how to do Paper Order (P.O) today. Wasn't as difficult as I though it was, but still need some judgement in it. In case some will be wondering what is P.O, P.O is something like ordering socks when it is running low. One will have to make judgement, to order enough goods. Alice wasn't as bad as I taught-- Well, maybe so far, I have only seen her "good" side? Actually I did experience her bad side, but.. Oh well, it was history.

Before going to work today, I had a meeting with Rod and Si Yun. After today's meeting, I have come to a decision. If Keep Hope Alive doesn't wish to merge with Dare2Dream, We will have to go seperate ways. Can't always work together and present ourselves as two teams. A joint project is find with me, but which organisations will always work with another to bring out a project? Get me? There will be a point, when we have to soar alone, just like a child will have to leave his/her parents when he/she is old enough. Not saying that working together is no good, but.. We have to be independent.

The meeting with Adrian yesterday made my decision firmer. Me, Si Yun and Cleo went for the TYEM information session. After the session, we stayed on to discuss some details with Eli, Si Yun's friend. After so, Adrian join in. Adrain at first thought there's only Dare2Dream Team, but after Si Yun told him that they(Si Yun and Cleo) are from another club, Adrian got a little bit confused. I don't feel good in that meeting, it's as though both clubs are...fighting?? Fighting to prove..or should I say promote our team? Cleo was right at the meeting. Cleo was telling Adrian that my Dare2Dream is a Team, while theirs is a club. Yeah, I agreed! Dare2Dream is a team, where every member works together to achieve the team's aim. I would want my member to work with me, not for me. I don't want my people to join for the sake of joining, I want them to join and feel belong!

I called Rod just now and told him my thoughts. Amazingly, Rod actually shared the same thoughts as me! Ok, I shall call Si Yun and tell her later. Being friends with Si Yun is great, Si yun make a very good friend. But when it comes to business partners.. I sometimes do find her a stumbling stone, she's a challenge for me. That's outside, I still treat her as a friend. We would call for members to vote this friday or as soon as possible. If we can't merge, we will have to go seperate way. For TYEM's project, we won't be doing it together... If we can't merge, we will have to go on our own. I really do hope we can merge, bringing both teams together. I don't want to waste time on this issue again.

Actually I wanted to meet Roy yesterday, but he has to go Jurong for some job interview, in the end, I ended up talking to Si Yun over her emotional and mental struggle. On Saturday, I was suppose to go church for fellowship, but got cancelled, so I wanted to visit Roy, but... Haiz~ Don't know what happen. he suddenly dissappear. I wasn't quite happy, but I let it go.. What's the point of being angry and burning my brain cells right?

What I expect from my other partner (Not business partner, partner as in...relationship) is their support and concern. Know and understand that I can get real busy at times, but still they have a place in my heart. I may seem aloof, but I do care about what's going on around me.. Specially the ones I love. I'm also a girl that needs confirmation, I do not wish to jump into something without really knowing what's going on.. Like Si Yun, I dislike getting hurt. But in life, we learnt through pain. It's only through pain, we become stronger-- in person, in emotions and in mental.

Just recieve some bad news from Si Yun.. Well, woman.. It's time you move on. When one doors is close, the other will open up for you.

Roy arg Roy, where are you? Have you eaten? Haha.. could have called you right.. but.. HMmMmM... Don't know lah..

Be strong Si Yun, you have Gracie!


Saturday, January 15, 2005

God is so good!

Back from work and here I am to blog again!! Roy was reading my blog just now and complained how little I wrote about him.. Haha~ I've got good news!! I'm working morning shift on Monday-- Which means I get to attend the TYEM information session! Amen, thank you God! Today I learnt something new at work again, Alice taught me how to do price check and I'm going to do it on Monday. She's coming at 11.00a.m on Monday, so she wants to do the price check for her.

Suppose to have youth fellowship today, but got cancelled. Think will spend afternoon watching TV? Actually I wanted to meet Roy, but... Don't know how to open up to him.. Oh well..Never mind, think it will be good watching TV also.. HAha~

Sunday again tomorrow, and I'm off! Alice told me that since I have something on every Sunday, she would try to let me get off on sunday! Thank you God!! I love you!!


Friday, January 14, 2005

Another wonderful day given to me

Today is another great day given to me by God! I had a great night of sleep, without having to worry about anything. Alice said she will train me, hoping that she will have someone to take over her when she have to go-- which is don't know when. She was talking to me-- telling me how I can achieve and maybe someday become a Super Market manager. But-- that's not where I am heading. Working now is just to gain some experience and get the taste of work, I'm not working for money now. Though pay is low, but if I know how to handle my finace management, I can cope with it! God will watch over me-- there's greater things to do in future!

Si Yun came to cook at my place yesterday-- As usual, she was late! I was falling asleep when she came, knocking on my door.
Woman, there's such things called doorbells. Both of us don't know how to cook, so I told Si Yun to seek my grandma's help. Grandma was helpfull, she assist us all the way. While cooking, we discuss about the team's stuff. There's going to be a general meeting for both Si Yun's club and my team. We will be telling them our new direction.

Roy went for his job interview today--Don't know how it will go. I hope he can get the job! Roy have been sick--this boy arg, don't know how to take care of himself. I'll be working tomorrow and off on Sunday. Yeah~ Sunday is God's day, Amen I able to get off. From next week onwards, I will be working afternoon shift--that means I won't be able to see Ah Guat any more! Oh no, going to miss her.. She's such a nice lady to work with.

On monday, there's a information session on TYEM, I can't go. I'm thinking of sending Si Yun and Rod to go, at least when they got back, they can brief us on what happen. However, I'm not sure if we can attend, have to ask EC later. I would like to go, but working noon shift. I prefer morning, cause afternoon I can do what I want and go for any meetings--But, oh well... God will guide me.


Thursday, January 13, 2005

Si Yun's Gonna Cook In My Kitchen?!?!

HiYeE!! Just came back from work and had lunch. Si Yun is coming over to use my kitchen later! Haha~ I was at work today when Si Yun smsed me, saying that she got a favor to ask from me, and to call her later. Just now when she called, the first thing she said is, "Please don't laught at what I'm going to tell you." But-- I was already laughting! When she told me she wanna use my kitchen, I laught even louder.. Kitchen?! Haha~ She want to cook for Har Jit la, and she don't have the rice she wanted. She got to come all the way to Bedok Centre to buy the rice, travel back home and after cooking, travel to Woodlands again. Since my house is near the Centre and MRT station, she thinks it would be easier to come. Si Yun even asked me to help, but-- I, myself is an idoit in cooking, I might just burn your food!

Although Si Yun is 5 years older then me, but we click really well! Some even say we look alike.. Do we? I seem to look like many people.. Some say that I look like Olinda Cho(Singapore Idol), Mrs Chan(BNSS), Ah Guat(Giant), Si Yun and got once my classmate say I look like EC! Haha!! ErmM.. Doen't matter who I look like, I'm Grace, God's one and only Gracie!! AHhaHa..

Work today is good. I remembered my promise to myself yesterday and work today was better! Alice didn't show her temper--She even chatted with me!
*WoW* She asked me how old am I-- She was surprise after I told her my age. She couldn't believe it.. HAhAa~ You're not the first one! Alice said I look 20 plus---do I? She asked about what I will studying all that. She even shared her past history with me. Alice used to be a hairdresser--Kinda can tell lah~But after working for 20 over years, she didn't make any progress and decided to change job--and Giant was where she landed. I told her I had a friend who used to be a hairdresser too--but had ever since moved off to become an entrepreneur-- she made it in this path!

Sometimes, the first path taken or first step out may not always be right. Take me for an example-- My first dream was to set up 7Faith first, but now-- Dare2Dream got formed before 7Faith started! When the time is right, God will open up the door for us yeah? Amen!!

Ok, Si Yun is coming soon-- I'm going to laught at how she's going to cook! BaHAHaa... That's mean, Gracie!! I'm kind of tired..But never mind, I'm going to get a good laught afterwards.

Chated for about 2 hours plus with Roy last night-- He said he wanted to come look for me at work--but he never.. Oh well, bluff me! *HmpFT* Called him after my work, he sounded real sick. Ask him visit the doctor he dont want to.. Please take care of yourself boy! AHhaAHa.. Ok, can't use the net for long during the day--or else people can't get through..


Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Be Good to Everyone On Ur Way Up..

It's another day brought to me by God! Went to work again this morning--Today wasn't good. Early in the morning, me and Ah Guai started by arranging the biscuit lane then went down to the CNY goods on the first floor. Spend like 2 hours plus arranging all the stuff there. Today Alice, the senior, threw her temper--somehow. I was at the first floor arranging the goods and doing the ticketing, Ah Guat was on the second floor. When I was almost done, Ah Guat came down to look for me--That's nice of you Ah Guat! She was worried about me, cause she was wondering why I am spending such a long time below.. Why? Adam lor.. Kena transfered to G2, do his work half way and threw it to me to finish up. Ok, enough of that. After that, me and Ah Guat went up to do the Malaysia Lane. On the way up, we saw Alice. I heard Alice called out,"Where are you are running too!" I some sort of ignor her, cause me and Ah Guat was already on our way up. While we are doing the Malaysia Lane, Alice called Ah Guat and I think scolded her-- That's unreasonable!! Alice said we are "playing" with her--Hello, playing with you? We are doing our work!! So, we went down. Then Alice went on and on and on... BlA BLA BlA... Say she not happy with this, with that. Told us in a fustrated tone that when the Recieving Department call her, we should go. But... hello, they are paging for ALICE, not GRACE or BEE GUAT! You didn't tell us before hand, how you expect us to know? After so, Ah Guat did the first floor and I was to do second floor.

On the second floor, she showed me all the lanes with goods on the ground, she wants me to carry them all to someplace--Just make sure it's not noticable. I was fine with it,untill I carried them. There were cartons and carton of milk. MILK!! Heavy!!! I was the only one doing it! Arg~ But I still manage to finish them all. Oh well, during the last youth camp, Uncle Su said before," Do not grumble". After I'm done with that, Alice brought me to Purchase with Purchase lane. Alan, the other supervisor was there. Alice ask him to tell me what to do. He was much better, he joked with me and even helped me with the goods. Then Adrain came along and chat. Alan even ask me, why did I choose to work at Giant, I told him because can't find job. He commented that the job I am doing is not fitted for HUMANS. ---- I agree!! Then they were asking if I had gotten scolded by Alice--Guess everyone knew "who Alice was" Then they asked me if I was a part time or full time, I said part,but suddenly become full. The strange thing is, they advised me not to work full time!

I went home after I arrange the new stocks. Adrian even ask me quick quick go.. I tried,but at the punch card area, I met Alice there. Alice was shock to see me with my bag.. I was like---Oh no!! She was surprise and called Andrew (Head)---Yeah, I'm a part-timer! For the past three days, I have over work the clock leh..Suppose to leave at 12, but every day leave after 1p.m! No extra money some more!

Talking about Alice.. Reminds me of many people. They have high ranks now (not saying that Alice's rank is high), they will tend to be proud and forgot what they have gone through.. Don't forget you were once there before you got here.. You been through the same thing, same process--Don't look down on the others who have just started. There's s saying,
"Be good to everyone on your way up, for you don't know who you will meet on your way down." God, I prayed that when that day comes, God you will humble me.

Oh well--Enough of work! Whatever I have gone through, there's always a lesson to be learnt. I got to be more dedicated to my job tomorrow--although it's not the job I wanted. Carmen is working full shift--10 hours a day!! Wow--but she will earn more then me.. HeEe~ Anyway, doesn't matter how much I earn now, I just want to gain experience. I have a bigger way to go man! This is just the training process.. Many successful people have gone through such things also..I'm on my way to success! God will be there! Amen!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

I wanna GROW!

Here I am, typing my blog again!! Actually I was lazy to update,but when I visit Adriel's blog and saw his entry about Jesus and church, something told me that I shouldn't be lazy! I have been lazy for some time~ Don't know why. Gracie,where are you!? Come back!!!
Mentioning God, I admit I have been slacking a bit here and there. Usually I would read 3 chapters a day from the Bible plus spiritual books and pray without fail..Now--I read like only a chapter, and didn't pray as much as what I did last time.. Something is wrong with me-- Someone,help me? I don't want my passion for God to die off, I wanna be the light for Him, I want to walk with Him and let His love cover me. Haiyoyo...Gracie arg~ What happen to you?! Why have you been slacking? What has gone wrong? Why so lazy now??? Wake up Gracie, wake up!!
God, I'm afraid of sidetracking, I'm afraid I will walk on the wrong path.. Tell me what to do?--- Now,let talk about my church.. HmMm.. I really hope YCK can somehow be like CHC. All the people there,almost, are so God-loving! Looking at my church's youths..Haiz~ Some came to church/fellowship for the sake of friends or because their parents are there. I want to grow,I want to grow!! I want a breakthrough in my church!! Many times, I have thought of changing church--CHC was one of my choice. CHC's sermons are general, not too chim, not too simple. During worship, God's presence is so strong-- Looking at YCK...Haiz~~ But, Lydia always tell me.."God put us in YCK for a purpose. We shouldn't leave church just like that."--- Yeah, I know and understand.. But I can't seem to grow much.. If I were to change church, it will not be so easy after all. I will be "questioned" by many people--Example, my Grandma,Uncle Bao Ming, Lydia and many others. Presure arg~~ God, show me the way.. When the time is right, I know God will open the door for me.
I miss all my quite moments with God. I have been busy and lazy.. I felt so bad. God took time to love me, watch over me all day long, not even leaving me for a second--Yet, I can't give Him time. Gracie, reflection time!!! Find strength through God's words.. This year, will not be any normal year, I wanna grow!!
Came back from work not too long ago, today is another tiring day. Move the goods up and down, arrange this and that. I was requested to work full-time, I'm fine with it anyway. At work, met a kind lady, don't want call her aunty, she don't look old to me. Her name was Bee Guat, but I call her Ah Guat. She's a nice lady, have been teaching me and Adam(guy on the job with me) since our first day. She's cute also, plume and short..Not really that short la.. Haha...She's just cute to me! I look forward to seeing her everyday at work!! Thanks Ah Guat, you make my working day brighten up!
Will be going home for dinner later-- forgot when I last had dinner with my parents.. Now, I have to brainstorm Dare2Dream Team's new name. We want a even more impactful name, short and simple like CREATIVE technology. I'm tired and miss my prawn prawn!! Prawn Prawn where are you?!?!?! AHhaHAha~

Monday, January 10, 2005

Why Lightbulb?

Finally Gracie is back to blogging. Haven been blogging since October 17 2004(I still remember the date). Deleted my last blog because of some reasons..Don't wanna mention it--But I learnt something!
O levels are long over, enjoyed myself for a months plus before I found a job at Giant Bedok as retail staff. Lots of things happened ever since the day I stop blogging. First, Dare2Dream Team finally ran a camp! YahOo! The camp was a success, manage to touch a few hearts with my speech. Not only that, I have help some to forgive their mother and thought about what their parents have gone through just to bring them up to there they are now. Actually, I enjoyed seeing the members cry~HaaHaa~ Shows that my speech works! While giving a talk or speech, tone and body language matters.. also not to forget some music to go along with. For the camp, we camp over at Ah Bu's, Si Yun's, place and East Coast Park. 3 day 3 night camp, members learnt alot!
After the KeepHopeAlive's and Dare2Dream Team's members camp, I rested for a few days before I set off for another camp, the church youth camp. This time we combined the camp with Gula,Malaysia, youths. It was fun and for the first time, I actually shop! Gracie, I thought you don't like shopping? HeE~ But with the girls,hAha..Shop la!! Went to Melacca for the camp, on the first day, we actually walked like an hour to reach our hotel from the bus terminal!! Under the hot sun wor~Qiao Zhu lao shi's face was as red as tomato when we reach the hotel! The hotel we stayed in wasn't as bad as what I thought,nice!!
Oh ya~ I just recalled.. Know how I spend Christmas? At first, had BBQ at Eunice's place, then played games and countdown. At around past midnight, I went and met Lawrence. The both of us sat at DownTown East's mac before we went to the beach. We sat there, blow cold wind! Lawrence slept,he was tired,I was awake most of the time.. I watched him sleep~ Hee..
For New Year, again we "camp" at Eunice's place.Before midnight, me,Cheryl,Dyan(Dai An) and Normand cut up the bread for the Gan En Hui in church the next day. Believe it, I actually had a meeting on New Year Eve! You see, while I was on the back to Singapore from the Malaysia camp, Si Yun smsed me for a meeting the next day for a project. Well, we met, Zhen Hui,Adrial,Kenneth,Rod,Eric,Si Yun and me were there. We met up to discuss how the both teams can help the Tsunami victims. At first, those normal ideas came up, donate food,do packing all that. But deep in me and the rest,we wanted to do somthing different! Having the thought that we are a motivational group, I came up with an idea to get people to write their encouragements to the victims and rescuers! Our passion was burning strongly~ I arrange a meeting with EC to seek her advice and see how she can help. After the meeting, we change project's direction abit-- now, the project is handled by Rod, it's up and processing.
Lawrence's birthday was on saturday, 8th Jan. He had a BBQ party at East Coast, and I am the one who helped him book the pit. Had fun..ya~ Did some serious thinking also..
Now~ main topic. Why LIGHTBULB? Well, I was in church one day, when I was thinking of Dare2Dream's new name. Was turning the Bible, when I flip to the page about being the Light and Salt of the world, I came up with this idea-- Lightbulb. We have to be the light of the world and LIGHTBULB came to mind..Actually wanted to use it for team's name..but Rod says it's a bit kiddy.. Never mind, I'll use it for my blog then.
Oh~Working tomorrow... Legs are tired. Don't know what happen to Carmen today..suddenly blank out at work. Hope she's alright..



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