Sunday, October 30, 2005
Meet these people in your life
Let's start with the "bad" first. Singaporeans are really weak! Why did I say that, the bus journey today made me wanna post this; that has been in my head for awhile. Do you notice how people will smack their hand(s) on the bus seat when someone just got up and they so happen to take that seat? Well, doesn't apply to all, but mostly aunties and uncles. It's so irritating and "low-class". What's wrong with taking a "hot" seat? Will you die from sitting that sit? Yeah, I heard some myth that if one take the "hot" seat too much, you'll get some boil on your butt; come on.. it's not that hot till the boil will pop out just like that. It shows the "weakness" in Singaporeans! Can't stand heat, can't stand cold weathers, can't stand long waiting hours.. etc etc But I'm surprise some can still line up for hours for some promotions; which I don't think is of much use; in case you didn't notice, I think while in line, their brains are complaining like never before. Went to Orchard with Farabi yesterday and saw some StarHub promtion. The line was long, all because of some cheap handphones on sale. When to Cine and there was a long line of people, for what? Beats me.. Afraid to lose, afraid to die.. What a "proud" culture! Sometimes, I wished and pretent that I'm not a Singaporean.. But sometimes it's still proud to be one, sometimes :)
Was so sleepy at the bus, but I manage to listen to all the songs from the CD, with my eyes close but brain active.
Was kinda affected by someone's look before lunch when I mention about song writting. So, I can't write songs and talk about it eh? Why give the other guy that kind of look? Who knows, I might have started first before you even did, just that I might be slower because I have no music traning. This "anger" left me after awhile, I can choose to be angry and affected by it or just simply forget that look in his eyes and get on with life. Like what pastor mention, you have different people in your life that has different effect on me. Time to get my songs ready, since the others are out with theirs :)
I mentioned freedom at lunch when Lydia told me that she was made to order the fried chicken because she saw me eating it. Haa, I told her she has the freedom to choose not to in the first place. Right, God gave us a lot of freedom in case you didn't realise. He didn't point a gun at your head and wants you to follow Him; even though you are His. He didn't cane you when you caused trouble; in fact He gave you chance to repent and you get to choose, to want to admit or not. See, when Jesus washes Judah's feet. He's actually giving him a chance to repent. Jesus knew Judah was the one that's going to betray Him, but He still washed his feet, every diciples' feet.
Talk about washing feet, are you willing to? To humble yourself, bring yourself down, lay down your pride to serve others? Azri's display name is currently "What are you willing to sacrifice in order to gain something?", I replied him "pride". Everyone has pride, whether it's good or not. Pride kills and humility saves. Most of the time it's our pride that caused the downfall of our good character. I used to have high pride, looking down on others when I was in secondary school. I was then a prefect, leading a group of my own and what made it worse, I founded the group and was then doing much better than the rest in my class. Boy, had I lost friends then; history. I started to realise and learn when I was in secondary 3, a breakthrough and I thank God for that. I think I used to be good in faking, I was so "great" at it that everyone around me thought I was someone holy, but I was not. Now, I don't have to fake anymore.. God has released me. Been through so much, so much more than the others; all for a reason.
A few public holidays coming up this week, and off day on monday! Think I have sufficient time to prepare for my coming praise and worship and the christmas event. Praise the Lord for the time.
Everyone in our life have effect(s) on us; good and bad. I wanna share with you guys what I have learn today during sermon in City Harvest Church.
Meet these people in your life
1)There are people in our life that will inspire us to obey, motivate and inspire us to do the right thing. Who inspire you to do the right things?; that's the person who's most important to you. Job 36:11-12
2)People who are driven by their integrity
Gen 39:9 ; Prov 10:9 , 11:3
3)Those who are assigned to your future
Mark 2:1-4
In your life, there are the "yesterday people". They are the people from your past, always reminding you of your past and trying to be a magnet to pull you back to your past. Also, there's the "present people" in your life. These people are interesting people. They accept you the way you are now, but you don't know if these people are "yesterday people" or will walk with you through the future. Last but not lease the "future people". They are the ones that will walk with you through the future and not leave you when troubles come. Read Mark 2:1-4, the friends of the man are the "future people". They came to the where Jesus was and won't leave without their bed-ridden friend getting healed. They put in so much effprt, dug a hole on the roof in order to ger their bed-ridden friend to Jesus. These people are the ones that will walk through the future with you, they are the ones with great faith. If you find them, never let them go. Never miss an opportunity that God has for you. If you do notice, God doesn't give second chance, He gives new start.
4)Those who are God-given friends
Prov 13:20 Job 15:4
God would only let you stay with the wise and be a fool for awhile.
Guidelines in choosing friends that last and help you grow together in Christ:
-Must be committed to long-lasting relationship
-Must have empries in their brains (Know what they want in life, have dreams and visions)
-Must be sowers (Willing to reach out to others; spread the gospel)
-Must qualify to receive my seed
-Must prize integrity above relationship
-Must be willing to confront my enemies (Willing to tell you your fault(s) rather than keeping it) -Those who celebrates you rather than tolerate you
-Those who unlock your gratitude (1 Sam 25: 30-33)
-Those who awaken your gererosity (I Chron 29; Acts 10:1-5)
Poverty is not the lack of money, poverty is the guide to misleading money
Was so sleepy at the bus, but I manage to listen to all the songs from the CD, with my eyes close but brain active.
Was kinda affected by someone's look before lunch when I mention about song writting. So, I can't write songs and talk about it eh? Why give the other guy that kind of look? Who knows, I might have started first before you even did, just that I might be slower because I have no music traning. This "anger" left me after awhile, I can choose to be angry and affected by it or just simply forget that look in his eyes and get on with life. Like what pastor mention, you have different people in your life that has different effect on me. Time to get my songs ready, since the others are out with theirs :)
I mentioned freedom at lunch when Lydia told me that she was made to order the fried chicken because she saw me eating it. Haa, I told her she has the freedom to choose not to in the first place. Right, God gave us a lot of freedom in case you didn't realise. He didn't point a gun at your head and wants you to follow Him; even though you are His. He didn't cane you when you caused trouble; in fact He gave you chance to repent and you get to choose, to want to admit or not. See, when Jesus washes Judah's feet. He's actually giving him a chance to repent. Jesus knew Judah was the one that's going to betray Him, but He still washed his feet, every diciples' feet.
Talk about washing feet, are you willing to? To humble yourself, bring yourself down, lay down your pride to serve others? Azri's display name is currently "What are you willing to sacrifice in order to gain something?", I replied him "pride". Everyone has pride, whether it's good or not. Pride kills and humility saves. Most of the time it's our pride that caused the downfall of our good character. I used to have high pride, looking down on others when I was in secondary school. I was then a prefect, leading a group of my own and what made it worse, I founded the group and was then doing much better than the rest in my class. Boy, had I lost friends then; history. I started to realise and learn when I was in secondary 3, a breakthrough and I thank God for that. I think I used to be good in faking, I was so "great" at it that everyone around me thought I was someone holy, but I was not. Now, I don't have to fake anymore.. God has released me. Been through so much, so much more than the others; all for a reason.
A few public holidays coming up this week, and off day on monday! Think I have sufficient time to prepare for my coming praise and worship and the christmas event. Praise the Lord for the time.
Everyone in our life have effect(s) on us; good and bad. I wanna share with you guys what I have learn today during sermon in City Harvest Church.
Meet these people in your life
1)There are people in our life that will inspire us to obey, motivate and inspire us to do the right thing. Who inspire you to do the right things?; that's the person who's most important to you. Job 36:11-12
2)People who are driven by their integrity
Gen 39:9 ; Prov 10:9 , 11:3
3)Those who are assigned to your future
Mark 2:1-4
In your life, there are the "yesterday people". They are the people from your past, always reminding you of your past and trying to be a magnet to pull you back to your past. Also, there's the "present people" in your life. These people are interesting people. They accept you the way you are now, but you don't know if these people are "yesterday people" or will walk with you through the future. Last but not lease the "future people". They are the ones that will walk with you through the future and not leave you when troubles come. Read Mark 2:1-4, the friends of the man are the "future people". They came to the where Jesus was and won't leave without their bed-ridden friend getting healed. They put in so much effprt, dug a hole on the roof in order to ger their bed-ridden friend to Jesus. These people are the ones that will walk through the future with you, they are the ones with great faith. If you find them, never let them go. Never miss an opportunity that God has for you. If you do notice, God doesn't give second chance, He gives new start.
4)Those who are God-given friends
Prov 13:20 Job 15:4
God would only let you stay with the wise and be a fool for awhile.
Guidelines in choosing friends that last and help you grow together in Christ:
-Must be committed to long-lasting relationship
-Must have empries in their brains (Know what they want in life, have dreams and visions)
-Must be sowers (Willing to reach out to others; spread the gospel)
-Must qualify to receive my seed
-Must prize integrity above relationship
-Must be willing to confront my enemies (Willing to tell you your fault(s) rather than keeping it) -Those who celebrates you rather than tolerate you
-Those who unlock your gratitude (1 Sam 25: 30-33)
-Those who awaken your gererosity (I Chron 29; Acts 10:1-5)
Poverty is not the lack of money, poverty is the guide to misleading money
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Secondary vs Poly
Picture lah
Friday, October 28, 2005
Revive Holiness
Lord, come revive my heart
Clense me with Your holiness
Purify and make me whole
Breath in me a brand new hope
Lord, come revive my heart
Make my heart be ever true
Set apart to do Your will
A living pleasing sacrifice
I offer up myself to You, my King
All my days, I'll follow and obey
I'll offer up my life to live for You
For You I breathe
I give myself as living sacrifice
With my life, I proclaim Your glory
And forever lift Your holy name on high
This is my prayer to the Lord...
Lord, I told you once that I want to serve You all my life. I told You once that I will go till the end of the earth for You. I told You once that I'm willing to give all.. I know You heard all these prayers and You held on to my promises.
I never knew what I promised You untill recently. I never took them seriously, but Lord.. You took me word for word. I know You will use me, Lord, guide me as I go. This is my prayer to You.
Others may not understand my relationship with You, but Lord.. It doesn't matter. Others don't have to understand, because it's between You and me.
I have said this many times before, but I never grew tired saying this again and again. Through all my weeknesses, Lord, You walked me through. In my weekness, You carried me. Even when I rebel and caused problems, Lord You still stood by me. Even when I said, " I shouldn't have known you..." Lord, You forgave me. I've done so many wrongs in my life and hide them so well, that others thought I am a "holy" person. But Lord, I can't hide from You. The deepest sorrow, the darkest secret, Lord You know them all. Lord, what can I offer You in return; but only my life?
I'm willing to put down my dream of earning a million, becoming an entrepreneur.. I know all mu life, I just want to serve You.
Lord, I'm here.. Use me as You will.
Clense me with Your holiness
Purify and make me whole
Breath in me a brand new hope
Lord, come revive my heart
Make my heart be ever true
Set apart to do Your will
A living pleasing sacrifice
I offer up myself to You, my King
All my days, I'll follow and obey
I'll offer up my life to live for You
For You I breathe
I give myself as living sacrifice
With my life, I proclaim Your glory
And forever lift Your holy name on high
This is my prayer to the Lord...
Lord, I told you once that I want to serve You all my life. I told You once that I will go till the end of the earth for You. I told You once that I'm willing to give all.. I know You heard all these prayers and You held on to my promises.
I never knew what I promised You untill recently. I never took them seriously, but Lord.. You took me word for word. I know You will use me, Lord, guide me as I go. This is my prayer to You.
Others may not understand my relationship with You, but Lord.. It doesn't matter. Others don't have to understand, because it's between You and me.
I have said this many times before, but I never grew tired saying this again and again. Through all my weeknesses, Lord, You walked me through. In my weekness, You carried me. Even when I rebel and caused problems, Lord You still stood by me. Even when I said, " I shouldn't have known you..." Lord, You forgave me. I've done so many wrongs in my life and hide them so well, that others thought I am a "holy" person. But Lord, I can't hide from You. The deepest sorrow, the darkest secret, Lord You know them all. Lord, what can I offer You in return; but only my life?
I'm willing to put down my dream of earning a million, becoming an entrepreneur.. I know all mu life, I just want to serve You.
Lord, I'm here.. Use me as You will.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
"OUT!"
Can't seem to find the mood to blog this few days. When ever I look at my blog, I just simply couldn't find anything to blog. So much to say, but I didn't know how to put it in words. Started a new devotion book, certain sensative entries are going inside there; so if you wanna know more.. Steal the book and read my hand writtings! Haa, but don't steal yeah.. The Bible said do not steal; and mind you it's in the 10 commanments!
Gonna give the friday christmas practice a miss, on shift that day and won't be able to make it. Darn, I don't wanna miss any practices, but it just so happens to be on a friday! I was kind of up sad when I received the sms that the practice will be on friday :( Why on friday? After a long day at school ( although I'm on holiday and others have finished their exams), come in the evening for a few hours and head back home? I would rather spend my whole Saturday in church. Tried suggesting for a change to Saturday since this week's guitar lesson is off, but her handphone seem to have malfunctioned or simply, don't bother about my request. I admit I'm pissed; a little.Christmas practices started on sunday, sang through all the songs; well not all.. Wasn't very happy about it, but I had fun overall.
Visited some blogs in the past few weeks, and seem to have notice that.. I'm quite "out" with my friends. What do I mean.. Well, how come I don't get called out for steamboat, outing and stuff? Yeah, I'm busy.. I know. It's just that "strange" element in me again. I'm still glad I had some friends standing by and of course.. God!
When I say I'm willing to serve God full time, I mean what I say. May be a little ku ku for some others, but you won't know how I feel inside.
Out, out, out.. sometimes I really feel very out. Does this place event belong to me? I mean, is this place where I am suppose to be? Sometimes looking at my church mates; I feel out. When you talk to some people; they seem to have shut their ears on you; or simply just couldn't hear my voice. Some remarks are so "meaningfull" that I had a hard time accepting it! Imaging singing a song and the pianist complains that the song is putting that person to sleep. Talk about my secondary school class mates, out also. When they are all into 5566, or what so ever thing.. I don't even feel connected. The topic they talk over meals are so.. "out" to me. Poly, the same thing happens. Animation? Outing? Bonding? It's all so out. Who understands my "language"? The people that might understand are either too busy, or simply.. Too far away..
Yeah, I know different people have different point of view and are made differently. I understand. Just let me be a "child" here. I know I should take things easy, don't think too much.. bla bla bla.. I know..
I'm hungry. Been fasting since the start of the week. Why? Done something terrible that's why. But thank God He disciplined me.
Grace arg... Your Mom gave up so many but you get the chance to stayed on.. Good wad! You're different, that's all.. God has His plan. You're not "out" to Him. That's all that matters.
No matter what, all the "outs" and stuff.. I still love the people around me. Even for those I couldn't stand at times. No offence if you think I have step on your tail in this entries (Notice no names mention) But this is just what I feel in me.
Gonna give the friday christmas practice a miss, on shift that day and won't be able to make it. Darn, I don't wanna miss any practices, but it just so happens to be on a friday! I was kind of up sad when I received the sms that the practice will be on friday :( Why on friday? After a long day at school ( although I'm on holiday and others have finished their exams), come in the evening for a few hours and head back home? I would rather spend my whole Saturday in church. Tried suggesting for a change to Saturday since this week's guitar lesson is off, but her handphone seem to have malfunctioned or simply, don't bother about my request. I admit I'm pissed; a little.Christmas practices started on sunday, sang through all the songs; well not all.. Wasn't very happy about it, but I had fun overall.
Visited some blogs in the past few weeks, and seem to have notice that.. I'm quite "out" with my friends. What do I mean.. Well, how come I don't get called out for steamboat, outing and stuff? Yeah, I'm busy.. I know. It's just that "strange" element in me again. I'm still glad I had some friends standing by and of course.. God!
When I say I'm willing to serve God full time, I mean what I say. May be a little ku ku for some others, but you won't know how I feel inside.
Out, out, out.. sometimes I really feel very out. Does this place event belong to me? I mean, is this place where I am suppose to be? Sometimes looking at my church mates; I feel out. When you talk to some people; they seem to have shut their ears on you; or simply just couldn't hear my voice. Some remarks are so "meaningfull" that I had a hard time accepting it! Imaging singing a song and the pianist complains that the song is putting that person to sleep. Talk about my secondary school class mates, out also. When they are all into 5566, or what so ever thing.. I don't even feel connected. The topic they talk over meals are so.. "out" to me. Poly, the same thing happens. Animation? Outing? Bonding? It's all so out. Who understands my "language"? The people that might understand are either too busy, or simply.. Too far away..
Yeah, I know different people have different point of view and are made differently. I understand. Just let me be a "child" here. I know I should take things easy, don't think too much.. bla bla bla.. I know..
I'm hungry. Been fasting since the start of the week. Why? Done something terrible that's why. But thank God He disciplined me.
Grace arg... Your Mom gave up so many but you get the chance to stayed on.. Good wad! You're different, that's all.. God has His plan. You're not "out" to Him. That's all that matters.
No matter what, all the "outs" and stuff.. I still love the people around me. Even for those I couldn't stand at times. No offence if you think I have step on your tail in this entries (Notice no names mention) But this is just what I feel in me.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Hallelujah!
Shagged after a long day in church, but I enjoyed it. Christmas event's practice started today, only the three of us; but heck, we started anyway. Singing all those songs can be torturing, I wonder where will our voices be if we have to sing them again and again; non-stop. Yu Meng and Mei Ling got baptised today, happy for them. I was somehow touched when I saw them getting baptised and also some fellow China church mates. After learning more about China's christians, I can't help but feel relieved and happy for them. God lead them out of Singapore :) Just realise today that China nationals were actually taught from young that there isn't any God, in mandarin it's wu sheng zhi yi. Wow.. quite scary actually.
Sermon at yesterday youth fellowship was alright, just that it's a little too long and too many testimonies. But learnt a great lesson through it though. I must confessed that I was somehow put off when the sermon got too long, I simply shagged off; so do many people.. But I still can't figure out how the speaker can still carry on with so many others when it's obvious that the people are getting too much of it. I've made a promise to God, to give one-tenth of what God gave me.. God will guide me :)
Went back to school on saturday morning for PaceSetters meeting, imagine I got up early for a mere half an hour meeting in school? Poor Farabi, had to travel all the way from Jurong to the east for that meeting; he's not feeling well somemore. Went for Long John for his meal and went back home to prepare for church in the afternoon. Boy.. I was getting so sleepy in the afternoon, I thought of not going for the guitar lesson. But thank God I didn't give in to my body and went for the lesson.
The teachers were right, if it's God's calling; it will never go away. So, I don't have to worry. Whenever I'm sitting down, or even when I'm walking around; Serving God with my life is constandly on my mind.
Alright, think the church will have another couple soon, LOL. Told Grandma about it and she turn to ask me when will it be my turn. Come on, like what EC says, "If it happens, it happens. If it don't, it dont." Having Jesus is already enough. Being single is a blessing too, God might just have a better plan for me. Seriously, I do think about such questions.. But I just leave it to God. Been hurt, been down.. been there, done that. Haa.. In God's hands.
Grandma is letting me to go on a trip to China on my own, some time next year. Will be going to Shanghai if nothing crops up. The strange thing, Pei Sheng Lao Shi was talking about going to China and visiting the churches over there. I approached him after class and asked if Qing Dao is near to Shanghai. Haa, he said any places is near. I then shared with him that I might be going to China and he asked me to join him. Oh well, will plan and pray about it.
That Eunice went for a hair cut after lunch, but when she return.. we couldn't tell if her hair was cut or not? Stop wasting your money...
I'm waiting for what God has prepared for me this week... This week is going to be great :)
Sermon at yesterday youth fellowship was alright, just that it's a little too long and too many testimonies. But learnt a great lesson through it though. I must confessed that I was somehow put off when the sermon got too long, I simply shagged off; so do many people.. But I still can't figure out how the speaker can still carry on with so many others when it's obvious that the people are getting too much of it. I've made a promise to God, to give one-tenth of what God gave me.. God will guide me :)
Went back to school on saturday morning for PaceSetters meeting, imagine I got up early for a mere half an hour meeting in school? Poor Farabi, had to travel all the way from Jurong to the east for that meeting; he's not feeling well somemore. Went for Long John for his meal and went back home to prepare for church in the afternoon. Boy.. I was getting so sleepy in the afternoon, I thought of not going for the guitar lesson. But thank God I didn't give in to my body and went for the lesson.
The teachers were right, if it's God's calling; it will never go away. So, I don't have to worry. Whenever I'm sitting down, or even when I'm walking around; Serving God with my life is constandly on my mind.
Alright, think the church will have another couple soon, LOL. Told Grandma about it and she turn to ask me when will it be my turn. Come on, like what EC says, "If it happens, it happens. If it don't, it dont." Having Jesus is already enough. Being single is a blessing too, God might just have a better plan for me. Seriously, I do think about such questions.. But I just leave it to God. Been hurt, been down.. been there, done that. Haa.. In God's hands.
Grandma is letting me to go on a trip to China on my own, some time next year. Will be going to Shanghai if nothing crops up. The strange thing, Pei Sheng Lao Shi was talking about going to China and visiting the churches over there. I approached him after class and asked if Qing Dao is near to Shanghai. Haa, he said any places is near. I then shared with him that I might be going to China and he asked me to join him. Oh well, will plan and pray about it.
That Eunice went for a hair cut after lunch, but when she return.. we couldn't tell if her hair was cut or not? Stop wasting your money...
I'm waiting for what God has prepared for me this week... This week is going to be great :)
Friday, October 21, 2005
Staying in a big room all by myself in a chalet; indeed a whole new experience. Grandma's birthday was fine yesterday, so many people were there and I had no idea who they were; as in how to call them. Well you know it all, in chinese culture all the second uncle, second grand aunt thing. I didn't even recognise some faces. Around 40 over people turn up for Grandma's birthday party; glad that she enjoy it.
Shireen was sharing with me what she sees and feels over at China; what got me all passion up and firmer with my dream was her sharing on Christianity over there. Lord, now I know why you have called on so many people. Serving You just isn't about singing and looking good, no! It's about reaching out to the lost and those waiting for You.
I can only give praise when I heard Shireen's sharing. Being a christian in Singapore is so much more better than being one in China. We get to go to church every saturdays and sundays; without worries! Yes, worries like what to wear or where to go after church; maybe in my past case about parents' disapproval. But over in China and also in other parts of the world, it's their life that they have to worry about. You see churches in singapore, big ones small ones, maybe sometimes you don't event give a second look at it. In China, you don't see churches around.. The way the police treats the missionaries and christians once they are caught, how they are tortured..I'm not sure if I can post what I wanna post on net, but I think it's best I keep it to myself and would only share it by mouth.
China, a big country with billions of people, waiting for the Lord. The amazing thing is, the more the police in China purge the Christians, the more revival there is. Praise the Lord! I got a clearer vision last night. I told God that I'm willing to go till the ends of the earth for Him, but I still couldn't put down some of those dreams that I had earlier on. Last night, I told God.. even if it takes my life. Christianity is moving so strongly all over the world, that I think little know about it in Singapore. God is so, so, so wonderful! All the testimony I heard from Shireen was wonderful. I got so much more to learn! Now I know why I didn't leave a chinese church and have a passion to wanna serve the chinese community.
I wanna go China one day...
Count your blessings, not what's missing
The song Send Me Lord has so much more meaning to me now.
Shireen was sharing with me what she sees and feels over at China; what got me all passion up and firmer with my dream was her sharing on Christianity over there. Lord, now I know why you have called on so many people. Serving You just isn't about singing and looking good, no! It's about reaching out to the lost and those waiting for You.
I can only give praise when I heard Shireen's sharing. Being a christian in Singapore is so much more better than being one in China. We get to go to church every saturdays and sundays; without worries! Yes, worries like what to wear or where to go after church; maybe in my past case about parents' disapproval. But over in China and also in other parts of the world, it's their life that they have to worry about. You see churches in singapore, big ones small ones, maybe sometimes you don't event give a second look at it. In China, you don't see churches around.. The way the police treats the missionaries and christians once they are caught, how they are tortured..I'm not sure if I can post what I wanna post on net, but I think it's best I keep it to myself and would only share it by mouth.
China, a big country with billions of people, waiting for the Lord. The amazing thing is, the more the police in China purge the Christians, the more revival there is. Praise the Lord! I got a clearer vision last night. I told God that I'm willing to go till the ends of the earth for Him, but I still couldn't put down some of those dreams that I had earlier on. Last night, I told God.. even if it takes my life. Christianity is moving so strongly all over the world, that I think little know about it in Singapore. God is so, so, so wonderful! All the testimony I heard from Shireen was wonderful. I got so much more to learn! Now I know why I didn't leave a chinese church and have a passion to wanna serve the chinese community.
I wanna go China one day...
Count your blessings, not what's missing
The song Send Me Lord has so much more meaning to me now.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Zhu Di Xi Le Shi Wo Li Liang
Just got to know from Amy that Sandy is married! Hah, so Lydia we are both wrong! Sandy is married to Dennis. I told you I saw her ring in the Hong Kong live VCD!
Prayed last night ( I pray everyday), but last night prayer was different. I really opened up myself and prayed for many people and things that come to my mind. Been putting the 23rd December in my prayer list and not forgetting the song leaders and backups. Listening to the interview from SOP and I catch this point that Sandy mention. Worship leader have to be able to control the atmosphere and have the ability to prepare for sudden outbreak of problems or things that you didn't expect. Yeah, pray about it and continue praying for it. Prayers open up heaven's door for everyone.
You know what I propose Lydia? Both of us and the backups will have to gather often to look through VCD of other worship leaders leading and learn from them; what say you? We got to learn to move more and be more hyper for God yeah!? Open up ourselves and worship and praise Him with all that we have. Don't have to care about our own image or what others might think. We are worshipping the Good Lord and doing all that for God; and non others.
Zhu di xi le shi wo li liang, the Lord's joy is my strength. Don't know why but this sentence came to mind. Haaa.. I have all the reasons to be happy today. A new day and I'm alive. Peace in Singapore and knowing that I'm safe in the Lord.
Amen!
Prayed last night ( I pray everyday), but last night prayer was different. I really opened up myself and prayed for many people and things that come to my mind. Been putting the 23rd December in my prayer list and not forgetting the song leaders and backups. Listening to the interview from SOP and I catch this point that Sandy mention. Worship leader have to be able to control the atmosphere and have the ability to prepare for sudden outbreak of problems or things that you didn't expect. Yeah, pray about it and continue praying for it. Prayers open up heaven's door for everyone.
You know what I propose Lydia? Both of us and the backups will have to gather often to look through VCD of other worship leaders leading and learn from them; what say you? We got to learn to move more and be more hyper for God yeah!? Open up ourselves and worship and praise Him with all that we have. Don't have to care about our own image or what others might think. We are worshipping the Good Lord and doing all that for God; and non others.
Zhu di xi le shi wo li liang, the Lord's joy is my strength. Don't know why but this sentence came to mind. Haaa.. I have all the reasons to be happy today. A new day and I'm alive. Peace in Singapore and knowing that I'm safe in the Lord.
Amen!
SMILE!
Burn off for two weeks, don't know what have gotten into that manager for putting me on shift for two straight weeks without any off days in between. Finally finished The Strairways to Heaven and moving on. No, not to the next drama series; but with life. There's a reason why I don't watch drama series too often or get myself hook up on games or cartoons.
Been feeling down this few days, why? Beats me. Period is coming, maybe :)
Anyway. For the past two days I have been thinking of my health. Suddenly, the old fear is back. Will I live to fulfill what I wanted to do, how much more time do I have? How healthy can I be? These questions have been ringing in my head for these two days. I'm fortunate enough to be living till this day; while there are some others who can't live past ten and didn't have the chance to think about who they want to be. Thank God.
Kenneth, someone that I met only once but keep sending me e-mails; send me an interesting e-mail. Shall share with you guys at the end of this post. It knock some sense into me :)
Living this life is indeed not easy. Some people are bong not to like you for some reason and some for no reason. Is it wrong to be who I am; maybe you just didn't know me well enough. Sometimes I wondered, am I really living as who God wants me to be or just living as who I want myself to be? Freakingly, I'm born with a face that looks fierce when I'm not smiling; and that might have "scar" some people off or simply make them dislike me. Boy, why this face. When I'm not smiling, doesn't mean that I'm angry or anything.
There something in me, that I didn't know how to express. Some passion, some force that is pushing me. I wanna go all out for God, but it seem that I'm stuck here studying some JAVA that I may have about 10% interest in? Finish it off and off you go Grace, to the end of the earth!
This post is so broken, jumping around here and there.
I just feel that I'm so out at work and at school. The only place I feel "in" is in church and when worshipping. How good it will be if I'm working part time at a christian centre, like SOP or some other places and not somewhere like a cafe. Guess I'm the only christian there; maybe that's why I feels out. I wanna dwell in Your house Lord, I wanna be where You are. In fact You are everywhere yeah?
Learn to be happy Grace. Though the world now is a sad place. But hold on, Jesus is coming and you'll be home in no time! Another asia disaster and thousand of people died. Jesus is coming soon! All you people out there, turn and seek Jesus!
There's a choice everyday, be happy or sad. I wanna be happy. Smile.. Let mt face show the Lord's joy in me! I'm happy now. I'm still 17!! (In case you have forgotten or didn't know) I'm a teenager!
God: Hello! Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something........
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we areheading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Lookinside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in theright direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they neverask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers.. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start this day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and confidence and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve,not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
Been feeling down this few days, why? Beats me. Period is coming, maybe :)
Anyway. For the past two days I have been thinking of my health. Suddenly, the old fear is back. Will I live to fulfill what I wanted to do, how much more time do I have? How healthy can I be? These questions have been ringing in my head for these two days. I'm fortunate enough to be living till this day; while there are some others who can't live past ten and didn't have the chance to think about who they want to be. Thank God.
Kenneth, someone that I met only once but keep sending me e-mails; send me an interesting e-mail. Shall share with you guys at the end of this post. It knock some sense into me :)
Living this life is indeed not easy. Some people are bong not to like you for some reason and some for no reason. Is it wrong to be who I am; maybe you just didn't know me well enough. Sometimes I wondered, am I really living as who God wants me to be or just living as who I want myself to be? Freakingly, I'm born with a face that looks fierce when I'm not smiling; and that might have "scar" some people off or simply make them dislike me. Boy, why this face. When I'm not smiling, doesn't mean that I'm angry or anything.
There something in me, that I didn't know how to express. Some passion, some force that is pushing me. I wanna go all out for God, but it seem that I'm stuck here studying some JAVA that I may have about 10% interest in? Finish it off and off you go Grace, to the end of the earth!
This post is so broken, jumping around here and there.
I just feel that I'm so out at work and at school. The only place I feel "in" is in church and when worshipping. How good it will be if I'm working part time at a christian centre, like SOP or some other places and not somewhere like a cafe. Guess I'm the only christian there; maybe that's why I feels out. I wanna dwell in Your house Lord, I wanna be where You are. In fact You are everywhere yeah?
Learn to be happy Grace. Though the world now is a sad place. But hold on, Jesus is coming and you'll be home in no time! Another asia disaster and thousand of people died. Jesus is coming soon! All you people out there, turn and seek Jesus!
There's a choice everyday, be happy or sad. I wanna be happy. Smile.. Let mt face show the Lord's joy in me! I'm happy now. I'm still 17!! (In case you have forgotten or didn't know) I'm a teenager!
God: Hello! Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something........
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we areheading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Lookinside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in theright direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they neverask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers.. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start this day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and confidence and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve,not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Lord, I give my life
Been about a week since I have time to really sit down and blog; tied up with work and holidays are down to about a month before I'm back to school again. Today passed by fast for me, weekends are coming to an end again and weekdays are awaiting for me. Caught up with watching The Stairways to Heaven and I hadn't really spend time with God properly for a week. Feels bad..
As I'm typing, I Pray is playing from my computer. Sang this song on both saturday and sunday; it never fails to touch me, again and again. Discipline Grace, have self discipline.
Lydia lend me SOP's Let Love Overflow album, was listening to it on the way back. Suddenly through one of the lyrics, I asked myself "What do I have to offer to God?" He have what I have, He made all that I have; what more can I offer to Him? I'm just like a grain of sand on the beach, so tiny and weak; but the Lord watches over me. Would you give a second look to a grain of sand on the beach? But God does :) I have nothing that I can offer to the Lord, but my life. Yes, my life. My life is all that I can give. Lord, I am here; use me to do wonderful things for You.
Giving up your life for God ain't easy. You wanna follow the Lord, take up your cross and follow Him. Often the road ahead were never easy, but trust that there is nothing that you cannot handle.
Songs for the Christmas event are finally confirmed. Coming up with songs and making sure that it link and match the theme; ain't an easy job. Praise the Lord that the survey turn out good, have over a hundred names and contact. Pray that the people will come; may God's will be done. Pray and God will answer prayers. The youth have never done such things before and I was faithless at first; but I put my trust in God that He will lead us in this Christmas event. Looking at how excited Aaron was when he first mention the christmas event over at Fa Wang's place; it's a great motivation.
Let's work hard to make this dream possible! With the strength from God, wisdom and knowledge from the God, the Lord's army with us; satan can't stop us now! I'm excited about this event, it's always been a dream, a vison and a wish to lead a strong and powerfull praise and worship. Of course, I alone cannot do much; but with the people around and God with me; all things are possible.
Lord, I know my jouney with You will never be dull and bored. You are going to bless me like never before, touch me like never before and allow me to experience You like never before. I place all my dreams in Your hands, may You lead me in knowledge and wisdom. Be it I'll be in Singapore or somewhere else on earth; I know that you have been there from the start. Forgive me of my sins Lord.
As I'm typing, I Pray is playing from my computer. Sang this song on both saturday and sunday; it never fails to touch me, again and again. Discipline Grace, have self discipline.
Lydia lend me SOP's Let Love Overflow album, was listening to it on the way back. Suddenly through one of the lyrics, I asked myself "What do I have to offer to God?" He have what I have, He made all that I have; what more can I offer to Him? I'm just like a grain of sand on the beach, so tiny and weak; but the Lord watches over me. Would you give a second look to a grain of sand on the beach? But God does :) I have nothing that I can offer to the Lord, but my life. Yes, my life. My life is all that I can give. Lord, I am here; use me to do wonderful things for You.
Giving up your life for God ain't easy. You wanna follow the Lord, take up your cross and follow Him. Often the road ahead were never easy, but trust that there is nothing that you cannot handle.
Songs for the Christmas event are finally confirmed. Coming up with songs and making sure that it link and match the theme; ain't an easy job. Praise the Lord that the survey turn out good, have over a hundred names and contact. Pray that the people will come; may God's will be done. Pray and God will answer prayers. The youth have never done such things before and I was faithless at first; but I put my trust in God that He will lead us in this Christmas event. Looking at how excited Aaron was when he first mention the christmas event over at Fa Wang's place; it's a great motivation.
Let's work hard to make this dream possible! With the strength from God, wisdom and knowledge from the God, the Lord's army with us; satan can't stop us now! I'm excited about this event, it's always been a dream, a vison and a wish to lead a strong and powerfull praise and worship. Of course, I alone cannot do much; but with the people around and God with me; all things are possible.
Lord, I know my jouney with You will never be dull and bored. You are going to bless me like never before, touch me like never before and allow me to experience You like never before. I place all my dreams in Your hands, may You lead me in knowledge and wisdom. Be it I'll be in Singapore or somewhere else on earth; I know that you have been there from the start. Forgive me of my sins Lord.
Away for a week, but I felt I have been away for a year. So many new post in the forums and I just realise I miss the forum people a lot!
