Thursday, October 13, 2005
SMILE!
Burn off for two weeks, don't know what have gotten into that manager for putting me on shift for two straight weeks without any off days in between. Finally finished The Strairways to Heaven and moving on. No, not to the next drama series; but with life. There's a reason why I don't watch drama series too often or get myself hook up on games or cartoons.
Been feeling down this few days, why? Beats me. Period is coming, maybe :)
Anyway. For the past two days I have been thinking of my health. Suddenly, the old fear is back. Will I live to fulfill what I wanted to do, how much more time do I have? How healthy can I be? These questions have been ringing in my head for these two days. I'm fortunate enough to be living till this day; while there are some others who can't live past ten and didn't have the chance to think about who they want to be. Thank God.
Kenneth, someone that I met only once but keep sending me e-mails; send me an interesting e-mail. Shall share with you guys at the end of this post. It knock some sense into me :)
Living this life is indeed not easy. Some people are bong not to like you for some reason and some for no reason. Is it wrong to be who I am; maybe you just didn't know me well enough. Sometimes I wondered, am I really living as who God wants me to be or just living as who I want myself to be? Freakingly, I'm born with a face that looks fierce when I'm not smiling; and that might have "scar" some people off or simply make them dislike me. Boy, why this face. When I'm not smiling, doesn't mean that I'm angry or anything.
There something in me, that I didn't know how to express. Some passion, some force that is pushing me. I wanna go all out for God, but it seem that I'm stuck here studying some JAVA that I may have about 10% interest in? Finish it off and off you go Grace, to the end of the earth!
This post is so broken, jumping around here and there.
I just feel that I'm so out at work and at school. The only place I feel "in" is in church and when worshipping. How good it will be if I'm working part time at a christian centre, like SOP or some other places and not somewhere like a cafe. Guess I'm the only christian there; maybe that's why I feels out. I wanna dwell in Your house Lord, I wanna be where You are. In fact You are everywhere yeah?
Learn to be happy Grace. Though the world now is a sad place. But hold on, Jesus is coming and you'll be home in no time! Another asia disaster and thousand of people died. Jesus is coming soon! All you people out there, turn and seek Jesus!
There's a choice everyday, be happy or sad. I wanna be happy. Smile.. Let mt face show the Lord's joy in me! I'm happy now. I'm still 17!! (In case you have forgotten or didn't know) I'm a teenager!
God: Hello! Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something........
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we areheading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Lookinside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in theright direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they neverask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers.. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start this day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and confidence and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve,not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
Been feeling down this few days, why? Beats me. Period is coming, maybe :)
Anyway. For the past two days I have been thinking of my health. Suddenly, the old fear is back. Will I live to fulfill what I wanted to do, how much more time do I have? How healthy can I be? These questions have been ringing in my head for these two days. I'm fortunate enough to be living till this day; while there are some others who can't live past ten and didn't have the chance to think about who they want to be. Thank God.
Kenneth, someone that I met only once but keep sending me e-mails; send me an interesting e-mail. Shall share with you guys at the end of this post. It knock some sense into me :)
Living this life is indeed not easy. Some people are bong not to like you for some reason and some for no reason. Is it wrong to be who I am; maybe you just didn't know me well enough. Sometimes I wondered, am I really living as who God wants me to be or just living as who I want myself to be? Freakingly, I'm born with a face that looks fierce when I'm not smiling; and that might have "scar" some people off or simply make them dislike me. Boy, why this face. When I'm not smiling, doesn't mean that I'm angry or anything.
There something in me, that I didn't know how to express. Some passion, some force that is pushing me. I wanna go all out for God, but it seem that I'm stuck here studying some JAVA that I may have about 10% interest in? Finish it off and off you go Grace, to the end of the earth!
This post is so broken, jumping around here and there.
I just feel that I'm so out at work and at school. The only place I feel "in" is in church and when worshipping. How good it will be if I'm working part time at a christian centre, like SOP or some other places and not somewhere like a cafe. Guess I'm the only christian there; maybe that's why I feels out. I wanna dwell in Your house Lord, I wanna be where You are. In fact You are everywhere yeah?
Learn to be happy Grace. Though the world now is a sad place. But hold on, Jesus is coming and you'll be home in no time! Another asia disaster and thousand of people died. Jesus is coming soon! All you people out there, turn and seek Jesus!
There's a choice everyday, be happy or sad. I wanna be happy. Smile.. Let mt face show the Lord's joy in me! I'm happy now. I'm still 17!! (In case you have forgotten or didn't know) I'm a teenager!
God: Hello! Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something........
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we areheading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Lookinside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in theright direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they neverask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers.. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start this day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and confidence and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve,not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
"Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be."
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 10/13/2005 12:00:00 AM
