Tuesday, January 11, 2005
I wanna GROW!
Here I am, typing my blog again!! Actually I was lazy to update,but when I visit Adriel's blog and saw his entry about Jesus and church, something told me that I shouldn't be lazy! I have been lazy for some time~ Don't know why. Gracie,where are you!? Come back!!!
Mentioning God, I admit I have been slacking a bit here and there. Usually I would read 3 chapters a day from the Bible plus spiritual books and pray without fail..Now--I read like only a chapter, and didn't pray as much as what I did last time.. Something is wrong with me-- Someone,help me? I don't want my passion for God to die off, I wanna be the light for Him, I want to walk with Him and let His love cover me. Haiyoyo...Gracie arg~ What happen to you?! Why have you been slacking? What has gone wrong? Why so lazy now??? Wake up Gracie, wake up!!
God, I'm afraid of sidetracking, I'm afraid I will walk on the wrong path.. Tell me what to do?--- Now,let talk about my church.. HmMm.. I really hope YCK can somehow be like CHC. All the people there,almost, are so God-loving! Looking at my church's youths..Haiz~ Some came to church/fellowship for the sake of friends or because their parents are there. I want to grow,I want to grow!! I want a breakthrough in my church!! Many times, I have thought of changing church--CHC was one of my choice. CHC's sermons are general, not too chim, not too simple. During worship, God's presence is so strong-- Looking at YCK...Haiz~~ But, Lydia always tell me.."God put us in YCK for a purpose. We shouldn't leave church just like that."--- Yeah, I know and understand.. But I can't seem to grow much.. If I were to change church, it will not be so easy after all. I will be "questioned" by many people--Example, my Grandma,Uncle Bao Ming, Lydia and many others. Presure arg~~ God, show me the way.. When the time is right, I know God will open the door for me.
I miss all my quite moments with God. I have been busy and lazy.. I felt so bad. God took time to love me, watch over me all day long, not even leaving me for a second--Yet, I can't give Him time. Gracie, reflection time!!! Find strength through God's words.. This year, will not be any normal year, I wanna grow!!
Came back from work not too long ago, today is another tiring day. Move the goods up and down, arrange this and that. I was requested to work full-time, I'm fine with it anyway. At work, met a kind lady, don't want call her aunty, she don't look old to me. Her name was Bee Guat, but I call her Ah Guat. She's a nice lady, have been teaching me and Adam(guy on the job with me) since our first day. She's cute also, plume and short..Not really that short la.. Haha...She's just cute to me! I look forward to seeing her everyday at work!! Thanks Ah Guat, you make my working day brighten up!
Will be going home for dinner later-- forgot when I last had dinner with my parents.. Now, I have to brainstorm Dare2Dream Team's new name. We want a even more impactful name, short and simple like CREATIVE technology. I'm tired and miss my prawn prawn!! Prawn Prawn where are you?!?!?! AHhaHAha~
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/11/2005 04:06:00 PM
