Saturday, April 03, 2010
I've been sneezing and finally today it felt like I was having a flu and not because of Sandy's hair or Eugene's dust. And man, I might be coughing soon. So, for the past few days my right eye lid was hurting after I plucked my eyebrows. I was wondering why until I looked hard into the mirror last night.. That nehneh china lady who plucked my eyebrows literally yanked out chunks of flesh! How cruel, I must be bleeding then.. no wonder that session of eyebrow plucking was exceptionally painful.. I better stick to the other lady or go back to good old marine terrace.
I've been battling this question, to go back or not to. 90% of me still resents going back, after all I couldn't feel comfortable being in their presence anymore. Or maybe I didn't want to try, at all. It might be unfair, but if I have a clear choice or I harden my heart.. I would choose to bolt. To reside in another country for a year or so and move on from there. I may have some revolution from then on, or maybe it's back to where I have left off. But ultimately, it should be an experience. Some times I wondered if I was being mean, but at times I find myself asking who am I trying to please. I can never make everyone happy, never the case. Since young I have establish that distance is good between family members and me. I guess it will stay within, until some thing strike me to wanna see them every single day.
I have no idea how Manado looks like but strangely I dreamed about it last night! It was so real, I tell you.. But funny thing, Eugene forgot to organize the dive trips and rooms for us, so we were there kind of stuck and everyone was waiting for something to happen. So, I wondered it was a good dream.. or not? But.. it felt so real though.
I need to go wash up and head out soon...
I've been battling this question, to go back or not to. 90% of me still resents going back, after all I couldn't feel comfortable being in their presence anymore. Or maybe I didn't want to try, at all. It might be unfair, but if I have a clear choice or I harden my heart.. I would choose to bolt. To reside in another country for a year or so and move on from there. I may have some revolution from then on, or maybe it's back to where I have left off. But ultimately, it should be an experience. Some times I wondered if I was being mean, but at times I find myself asking who am I trying to please. I can never make everyone happy, never the case. Since young I have establish that distance is good between family members and me. I guess it will stay within, until some thing strike me to wanna see them every single day.
I have no idea how Manado looks like but strangely I dreamed about it last night! It was so real, I tell you.. But funny thing, Eugene forgot to organize the dive trips and rooms for us, so we were there kind of stuck and everyone was waiting for something to happen. So, I wondered it was a good dream.. or not? But.. it felt so real though.
I need to go wash up and head out soon...
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/03/2010 03:23:00 PM
