The Grace in Grace

Angst. Very. What's wrong, I don't know. Just so be it. PMS, lack of proper knowledge, proper life and proper life. Seriously, what am I looking forward to each day? Each freaking day pass me just like that.. I am wasting every moment of it. Irritated.. VERY.

Poor souls who didn't do anything to me are suffering. I'm sorry it's just not the time for grace to be all kind and smiley. Very much like a trigger fish, I attack when there's intruders in my comfort zone. This is bad, real bad. The only difference are triggers bite, literally. I don't.. I snap. So with new people coming to the hang out place, it gets a little uncomfortable. Naturally it's open to all and ultimately it's not mine to say.. But then, it irritates the hell out of me..

I need to get a life, a proper, all rounded life. Not just the same old place day in day out, 24/7, 365.. I need to meet new people. But wait, there are new people coming in but I'm extremely irritated! Ahhhh... maybe I need to meet those new people outside of my comfort zone.. we'll see..

Don't ask me why, cause I don't know. What did that poor fellow do, what did that fellow say.. Well, nothing. It's not a woman's thing.. but literally nothing. Just stepped on my land mine, I guess. Must be. I can so tell if one day that fellow were to sit on my table or touch any...ANY of my personal stuff.. that will be the end.. Ah, kill that angsty inside, someone... before I turn green and huge and start picking up eugene's car and all the cars I can find outside and throw it into the opposite house.. All to one house.. just that one house.. I should so stop..

I need new things in life, new adventure, new people...new beginning. I need to get away.. up up and away!

"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone"