The Grace in Grace

I finally got down to start my prayer letter. As I reference through David's prayer letter and my Logos II prayer letter, it seems like I have so much to say yet nothing to say this time. I am sure God has called for this trip and that is the only reason why I resign with obedience. Please don't tell me I have heard God wrongly or it was a wrong choice made...

Once in awhile the thought of spending 6 weeks in Cambodia scares me. After all, it's a country I didn't dare go back to, I told myself. The fear within is so spiritual, I'm scare yet I know I must be strong. I need about $2500-$3000 to cover everything for that 6 weeks, where is the money coming from?

Looking back at Logos II, I didn't have any money a week before departing yet I trusted that God will provide. Why am I of little faith this time? If God could provide for that amount that I could never imagine, what more this time, right? Have more faith, Grace.. Trust Him like you did before, trust Him even more this time as you step into your land of fear.

Gosh, I haven break the news to my family that I've resign and planning for Cambodia. What will their reaction be? Maybe I'm crazy enough to quit now with such economy, with a stable job and a stable income. If only they could understand that "hey, I'm young. I only live once!" Well, maybe they do :) Just like how grandma understood rugby and diving HAHA!

Twin say at least I'm living my dream now, while she is still hanging and drifting. We talked about how working life sucked, how wrapped a child's thinking use to be and all the crap about studying hard, get a good job theory the teachers have endlessly tried to drill into our young innocent minds. It's good to reminisce those forgotten old times. It's been awhile since we chatted, brought me back to those times we would talk while walking from class to technical block for her D&T and my Art lesson. Man, been 5 years since I left secondary school...

Alrights, got to go collect my contacts and meet Siang at OM office. Diving this weekend, I will be singing 'Count on me Singapore' in malaysian waters :D