Saturday, January 17, 2009
Rescue - Desperation Band
You are the source of lifeI can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of you
I need you Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There's no other name by
Which I am saved
Capture me with grace
This world has nothing for me
I will follow you
Day 1: I was crumbling, yet had to put up a strong front. The smile on my face was fake, it took every ounce of my strength to put it on my face. I wanted so much to frown, but it will be unfair to my students. I told myself to buckle up and all the lessons went pretty well. Back in my lab, alone and cold. I could do with some warm hugs, but all I see was computers and more computers. I wanted to just burst out soaking my laptop with tears, but damn.. the bell rang, another lesson to go to. School was busy, serve as a distraction, I had no time to feel my own emotions. Perhaps it was good, it drown out a little of it.
Day 2: I tried to isolate myself. I wanted some alone time. Still, I manage some smiles today. But behind those smiles, who could see the brokeness in me? I was on my knees the previous night, but nothing came out from my mouth. I found no strength, maybe I couldn't even bring myself before Him now.. I know I'm broken, so I can be healed. I know I'm emptied, so I can be filled again. But God, I need to hear you.. I need to feel you.. I need... you to tell me.. "it's alright.."
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/17/2009 03:06:00 AM
