Saturday, January 17, 2009
I don't want to go - Avalon
Day 3: The thought of walking away from God, Church and pretended that I was never a Christian... scares me. Standing at the road junction, I thought to myself what it would be like if I weren't a Christian? Maybe I wouldn't be going through what it is now, maybe life would be much carefree, maybe... Are all these excuses to make myself feel better, I reckon.It is. It's always a human nature to push the blame away.
It takes a lot of courage to admit mistakes made, even more courage when you're a leader. But God allows U-turn and I believe in that. He knows it's time I slow down and listen, He knows it's time I turn back and listen to Him, He knows it's time I check in with myself and Him. He knows.
God emptied me, to get my attention. His heart broke when He saw the way I was, His tears fell when He knows that the new promises I gave is another empty one, His heart ached when He saw I was trying to hide from Him..
But He lifted my face and wiped those tears away when I came to Him.. broken. If it was real life, I'm pretty sure God ran to me with open arms, held my head to His chest and with forgiveness in His voice.. He said, "Do you know I still love you?"
You changed my world
When You came to me
You drove a passion
In my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything
I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie
And I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
Cause my heart needs to be where You are
So I don't want to go
So come whatever
I'll stick with You
I'll walk, You'll lead me
Call me crazy or a fool
For forever I promise you that...
Without Your touch
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean
For Your grace is enough
Enough for me
To never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/17/2009 06:26:00 PM
