Sunday, January 11, 2009
Drained.
"主祢要往哪裡走, 我就跟祢走. 領我走到世界盡頭, 一生不再回頭" We sang the camp's theme song today and it reminded me of the times on Logos II. I came back feeling energized and ready for full-time mission, or so I guessed. My plans was to depart for 2 years full time ministry after graduation, but it didn't turn out to be. So, I told myself to wait till 2009; and now 2009 is here. I would still love to go, but there's a huge "BUT" inside me.
Sitting in Church today, I didn't feel like doing anything. I've been telling people that I'm stepping down from youth ministry; maybe they think it was just words, but I'm seriously thinking of it. I even told Wan jokingly that I'm joining her "drifting club" soon. I guess it's the point when serving and ministry reached a peak; I need a break.
I wonder how it's like to not hold any positions, not get involve in any decisions making and just be a normal church-goers. Am I just being plain lazy? Am I just procrastinating? Is all this just excuses? Why do I feel so drained out?
I need someone to talk to; but who do I trust to talk to?
Maybe I need a loooooooooooooong break. Anyone willing to sponsor supplies of lonely planets and money for my get-a-way backpacking? I welcome anyone who is having thoughts of getting away.
* Grandma, thanks for your hug.. even though you didn't know what was going on.
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/11/2009 07:39:00 PM
