The Grace in Grace

Do I Make You Proud - SVU Cast

[Verse One:]
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

[Chorus:]
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

[Verse Two:]
I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
Myself in spite of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out

Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud
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I heard about this song before, but never listen to it; I did today. It touches my heart, it expresses so much; most importantly it tells of what I want to say to my family. If I had the courage, I would like to ask my family "Do I make you proud?"

Sometimes I would sit and wonder; what have I done all my life, had I made anyone proud, did I put a smile on someone's face? I remembered those times I put anger, fear and tears on other people. I also recalled the times I did those things to myself. Uncle Tony asked last sunday whether we had done anything that we wished we didn't. I couldn't think of any, but I knew there are. Maybe, I have learn to let go and let God handle everything.
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There are a number of people in my life that had watched me grow and help shape me to who I am today. Like verse one in the song, I wasn't who I was and won't be without some people.

Grandma: She held me up when I fall, the only one that told me that I can when everyone think that I can't. Because of her I am standing tall. My heart is full of endless gratitude, she was the one; the one to guide me through. Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning. I will stand taller and shine brighter. You always said that you are proud of me, you have always been the one to give me those words that I needed. I guess I’ve learned to question is to grow. That you still have faith in me, is all I need to know. I’ve learned to love myself in spite of me, and I’ve learned to walk on the road I believe. Because you believe in me, I will go. Because you supported me, I will be brave. Because of you, I'm still here. Grandma, I know you never read this; but I just want to say.. Thank you, I know I have made you proud now. I will carry on this journey.

Dad and Mom: This has always been the answer I want to know, do I make you proud? You never did told me anything. You smiled, I understood.. but I wished I could just hear it from you. My dreams, I dare not to tell. And finally I did one night; what were you thinking then? Will you support me? Will you go along with me? Stronger than I've ever been now, never been afraid of standing out; do I make you proud? When I leave, will you be proud that I have choosen what I believe in? I want you to understand the struggles I face, the fears I'm feeling, the concerns that I'm worried about.
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I tried to talk to someone about what I am thinking and feeling nowadays.. But no one seem to be listening or have the time. All they gave was a one or two word answer. " Ask God about it."--- I wanted more. Maybe it's me that doesn't know how to express them out..

So, the question still lies... DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?

Do I make you proud?