Monday, April 10, 2006
Chatted with Cheryl in MSN today, not really a chat but it's more like an informing thing. I don't know, but chatting with her again seems so weird. Can't bring myself to talk to her already.. Wonder why so, just because of that Sunday? Maybe I had high expectation from her, but disappointed after that.
Are people just getting on my nerves of what; or is it me? Jesus wanted us to love each other like how He love us, but it's all so hard. How to love someone that is asking questions that's somewhat irritating you? Maybe it's my mood or what; but I'm tryng so very hard to give that person the answer to the question.
Forgot when was the last time I read the Bible; oh my goodness! Everytime just give myself excuses that I'll read them tomorrow but tomorrow never come. And shall I asked when was the last time I really prayed? Each night just muffered a few words of prayers and went to bed. Wonder what that was? Oh the usual "Thank you God for this day and for protecting me...etc"
I'm somehow like handing in the middle of nowhere; not on top nor the bottom. A good leader? Well, I usually like to do things and often forgot to tell/inform others about it when it's a team work thing. I give myself excuses that there's still time, but often ended up doing last minute work. Wanted to wake up early each day but often get up past noon. It seems that my "tomorrow" never comes. Wanted things to be in order but somehow I feel that others can't handle what I said of the insructions I gave. Told them not to prepare Worship on last minute bassis but somehow they would just do the opposite. Arranged everything nicely and I think within a month it will all be screwed again. Told that person to put back what he took from the files but he keep giving excuses that he'll put them back later and "later" never came.
I've no right to judge, no right to scold or discipline because I'm not a perfect person. Oh God, teach me what to do! Telling them off may spoilt the friendship, their heart is gonna be so fragil that it will break after what I said. Doing things silently and some may say I'm not doing any.
Everything is so dry. Easter is coming in less than a week and my throat is killing me.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Are people just getting on my nerves of what; or is it me? Jesus wanted us to love each other like how He love us, but it's all so hard. How to love someone that is asking questions that's somewhat irritating you? Maybe it's my mood or what; but I'm tryng so very hard to give that person the answer to the question.
Forgot when was the last time I read the Bible; oh my goodness! Everytime just give myself excuses that I'll read them tomorrow but tomorrow never come. And shall I asked when was the last time I really prayed? Each night just muffered a few words of prayers and went to bed. Wonder what that was? Oh the usual "Thank you God for this day and for protecting me...etc"
I'm somehow like handing in the middle of nowhere; not on top nor the bottom. A good leader? Well, I usually like to do things and often forgot to tell/inform others about it when it's a team work thing. I give myself excuses that there's still time, but often ended up doing last minute work. Wanted to wake up early each day but often get up past noon. It seems that my "tomorrow" never comes. Wanted things to be in order but somehow I feel that others can't handle what I said of the insructions I gave. Told them not to prepare Worship on last minute bassis but somehow they would just do the opposite. Arranged everything nicely and I think within a month it will all be screwed again. Told that person to put back what he took from the files but he keep giving excuses that he'll put them back later and "later" never came.
I've no right to judge, no right to scold or discipline because I'm not a perfect person. Oh God, teach me what to do! Telling them off may spoilt the friendship, their heart is gonna be so fragil that it will break after what I said. Doing things silently and some may say I'm not doing any.
Everything is so dry. Easter is coming in less than a week and my throat is killing me.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/10/2006 09:18:00 PM
