Sunday, March 12, 2006
Left with half and hour; then I realise my music scores for Praise and Worship was left at home. Panicked, rushed home and on the way so many things happened.
First, got out of the church. Zeke called to say Doctor Andjelita is looking for me (I know). She got on the phone and because of poor reception in the basement; she couldn't hear what I was saying. Think she got irritated and put down the phone. Got into the taxi and Wan Yi called to say Doctor Andjelita is angry. I don't have time to explain to her and since she's leaving right after tea time; I cuold only e-mail her again. Wanted to ask the taxi driver to wait for me below my falt; but he didn't want to!
Alright, then got to my flat. Pressed the bell no one answer; panicked. After about 5 minutes then Uncle came to open. Praise God that I didn't make the decision to look for him downstairs. Took the scores, got a taxi. Just when I thought everything is over; the taxi driver took the wrong way! I was like, "What's coming up next? Tell me!" Irritated.
Who to blame? Well, that's only me. Didn't prepare well enough the night before and the music scores didn't even crossed my mind! 15 minutes late; mood gone. Spend so much time to prepare then the end result is such. Felt so bad, wanted to cry.
After church; everyone's gone. Dragged myself to give tuition and on the way.. The feeling got so terrible! Fa Wang Lao Shi said I did a good job, just that the timing... oh-well.. If i was on time; I think it will be better. But, it's over. What's a sunday.
Leading again on Tuesday and haven prepare yet! Need to do powerpoint and so on. Need to go home today cause I haven been home in like what.. one week? Choose songs tonight, type powerpoint tomorrow. Not to forget Easter and coming sup paper! Study, study.. Lord, I need You.
During class today, talked about boasting about tomorrow in the book of James. Then talked a little about Hebrews also. There's this passage that hit me quite hard. Hebrews 10:26-27 If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgement and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God. The idea of going to hell scared me. Of course, I myself know what's going on in me.. for the past few weeks.. Arg.. And Uncle Tony did asked us to ask ourself have we really been saved..
If we have, we would be a changed person.. I got to think about that..
Lord, in times like this.. let me hold on firmer to you!!
First, got out of the church. Zeke called to say Doctor Andjelita is looking for me (I know). She got on the phone and because of poor reception in the basement; she couldn't hear what I was saying. Think she got irritated and put down the phone. Got into the taxi and Wan Yi called to say Doctor Andjelita is angry. I don't have time to explain to her and since she's leaving right after tea time; I cuold only e-mail her again. Wanted to ask the taxi driver to wait for me below my falt; but he didn't want to!
Alright, then got to my flat. Pressed the bell no one answer; panicked. After about 5 minutes then Uncle came to open. Praise God that I didn't make the decision to look for him downstairs. Took the scores, got a taxi. Just when I thought everything is over; the taxi driver took the wrong way! I was like, "What's coming up next? Tell me!" Irritated.
Who to blame? Well, that's only me. Didn't prepare well enough the night before and the music scores didn't even crossed my mind! 15 minutes late; mood gone. Spend so much time to prepare then the end result is such. Felt so bad, wanted to cry.
After church; everyone's gone. Dragged myself to give tuition and on the way.. The feeling got so terrible! Fa Wang Lao Shi said I did a good job, just that the timing... oh-well.. If i was on time; I think it will be better. But, it's over. What's a sunday.
Leading again on Tuesday and haven prepare yet! Need to do powerpoint and so on. Need to go home today cause I haven been home in like what.. one week? Choose songs tonight, type powerpoint tomorrow. Not to forget Easter and coming sup paper! Study, study.. Lord, I need You.
During class today, talked about boasting about tomorrow in the book of James. Then talked a little about Hebrews also. There's this passage that hit me quite hard. Hebrews 10:26-27 If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgement and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God. The idea of going to hell scared me. Of course, I myself know what's going on in me.. for the past few weeks.. Arg.. And Uncle Tony did asked us to ask ourself have we really been saved..
If we have, we would be a changed person.. I got to think about that..
Lord, in times like this.. let me hold on firmer to you!!
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 3/12/2006 05:15:00 PM
