Thursday, February 23, 2006
I want to be isolated; send me to some unknown island and dump me there. Serious.
Screwed up. I'm done. If things can be repeated once again; Lord, teach me what to do.
What the heck is wrong with me? Looking at the damn exam paper and I'm lazy to answer those questions? Been told to study for that but I missed that out? Heck, Grace.. you need to be slapped!
Some people can just laugh it off when I say I'm gonna take sup papers. "Why you everything sup paper wan?" Who the heck want sup paper when you can jolly well enjoy this holiday? I can't explain why I'm like this, perhaps Grace is dead; the real one. Dead to what, beats me!? Why is this damn idoitic world viewing people by their results? Does the damn result really matters?
On the bus I was thinking; since EC's family is quite well-to-do to send her off to London, most Entrepreneurs' came from well-to-do family of have some well-to-do family members to have them out in life; I shall be the one that doesn't. I have God.
Most of the time I have to pretend that I'm smiling after the papers to show or let's say blend in with the crowd that the-paper-was-fu**ing-easy mood. When you share about your feelings with some people, instead they add stress to you. "Quit your job lah!", "Grace, I'm worried about you, you know? Why not just walk out from your job!", "Grace, you shouldn't be doing this now!" Heck, maybe I should remind you that you are not me?
It's so easy to say, "Quit your job"; easy to say "Learn from it".. But it was never easy to do. Having to bear with some people's nonsense and hearing comments that I don't want to hear; boy..can this world get any better. Isolate me; before I blow up and you don't want to see me angry. And before I forget; some people's attitude just turn you off! "Say sorry for what?!" Say sorry for what? Maybe you should be reminded that you just slammed someone's bag and there's something important inside? Stop telling me things on one side and acting the other on the other side; had enough. More than enough. Overloaded.
And I don't know why people keeping bring the word "idoit" on their mouth. "Idoit" here, "Idoit" there.. So, you call your friends "idoit"? And if it is so, what do you call animals? Fu**ers? "They are thinking like us now.", "They are one of us now", "They are not like us you know?" What the heck do you mean by that? Are "us" special speicies from human? Some people grow up at different speed, think differently; does that make them any different?
People making use of each other. Cold war between couples. Lost of communication.
If she tells me to work tomorrow; I'm gonna rebel. I'm a rebel by nature.
Screwed up. I'm done. If things can be repeated once again; Lord, teach me what to do.
What the heck is wrong with me? Looking at the damn exam paper and I'm lazy to answer those questions? Been told to study for that but I missed that out? Heck, Grace.. you need to be slapped!
Some people can just laugh it off when I say I'm gonna take sup papers. "Why you everything sup paper wan?" Who the heck want sup paper when you can jolly well enjoy this holiday? I can't explain why I'm like this, perhaps Grace is dead; the real one. Dead to what, beats me!? Why is this damn idoitic world viewing people by their results? Does the damn result really matters?
On the bus I was thinking; since EC's family is quite well-to-do to send her off to London, most Entrepreneurs' came from well-to-do family of have some well-to-do family members to have them out in life; I shall be the one that doesn't. I have God.
Most of the time I have to pretend that I'm smiling after the papers to show or let's say blend in with the crowd that the-paper-was-fu**ing-easy mood. When you share about your feelings with some people, instead they add stress to you. "Quit your job lah!", "Grace, I'm worried about you, you know? Why not just walk out from your job!", "Grace, you shouldn't be doing this now!" Heck, maybe I should remind you that you are not me?
It's so easy to say, "Quit your job"; easy to say "Learn from it".. But it was never easy to do. Having to bear with some people's nonsense and hearing comments that I don't want to hear; boy..can this world get any better. Isolate me; before I blow up and you don't want to see me angry. And before I forget; some people's attitude just turn you off! "Say sorry for what?!" Say sorry for what? Maybe you should be reminded that you just slammed someone's bag and there's something important inside? Stop telling me things on one side and acting the other on the other side; had enough. More than enough. Overloaded.
And I don't know why people keeping bring the word "idoit" on their mouth. "Idoit" here, "Idoit" there.. So, you call your friends "idoit"? And if it is so, what do you call animals? Fu**ers? "They are thinking like us now.", "They are one of us now", "They are not like us you know?" What the heck do you mean by that? Are "us" special speicies from human? Some people grow up at different speed, think differently; does that make them any different?
People making use of each other. Cold war between couples. Lost of communication.
If she tells me to work tomorrow; I'm gonna rebel. I'm a rebel by nature.
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 2/23/2006 05:36:00 PM
