Monday, January 02, 2006
New hopes
I guess, certain comments still do hurt even when you have heard it many times; especially when it came from people you have place your high hopes on. Maybe they didn't know, or maybe they don't want to know--but profound words left scars; and scars remains. Not that I'm keeping those scars fresh or will be remembering it; but it's disspointment that drives me to tears. Compared with sadness, I think dissapointment hurts just as much. A year has passed, what have the youths gather? Tears flowed for them, prayers said for them, revival asked-- How far more can I go? How long can it last from me? In times, it's just tiring to carry on. Many times I had wanted to give up, but Lord just won't let me. Is it that hard to ask for what I have asked?
Cycling in the rain makes me think about it. Strange but true, the Lord has once again guided me. On the way to the park, Lord reminded me that hopes on humans can't last, so don't pin all of them on people. I was thinking of heading to Fishermen village, but somehow took a longer way that expected. The paths were all dark and most of the time I'm alone. Scared, but I know Lord is protecting me from all harm. I went round and round at the same place, before finally figuring out the right way to where I'm heading. Before I could even reach the destination, the rain came. I turn back and cycled on. Cold, lonely-- I asked God, "What's all this about? You know that I'm feeling awful. Why send the rain?"
However, God is good. As I head back, I reach where I came from shorter than I expected. I thought I have taken the wrong way and stop to check. After much thinking, I finally understood what God wanna tell me.The road to achieve what I hope to acheive might be long and maybe in times, taken the wrong path and wasted time. The rain represented the sorrows in between. God sometimes send us trials, so that we can experience Him and when we overcome them; we are made into a better person.As long as I hold on to Him, I will reach where I want to go. Though there may be pain and sorrows; but Lord will guide you till you reach your point. Cycling in the rain; a whole new kind of experience for me. God send the rain, but at the same time; He send his comfort and healed my wounds. Though it's cold, but God's love is enough to keep me warm.
A new year has began; brand new start. Forget what's behind me and time to move on. I trust that the Lord will guide me though this year and many more years to come. Storms can come crashing into me, stones on my path can cut my feet; but Lord I pray that my faith in you will not be shaken, but instead to be even firmer. Many things I wanna do and acheive; Lord, let it be in your will and not mine.
I wanna grow to love God more, I can't never stop loving Him and understand Him more. Teach me through Your words, talk to me personally and show me the way you want me to take. Lord, my way may be tougher, longer and harder than many others; but Your grace is ever sufficient for me. When You have taken away something from me, You replaced them with Yourself, more than what I could ask for. Give me a humble heart, to serve You more than what You have ask from me. Let me do what You want me to do and not only me doing what I want to do. Lord, the chance to live isn't from me; but from you. Use me, I'm here.
As the stories unfold, friends; once again you will experience life with me :)
Cycling in the rain makes me think about it. Strange but true, the Lord has once again guided me. On the way to the park, Lord reminded me that hopes on humans can't last, so don't pin all of them on people. I was thinking of heading to Fishermen village, but somehow took a longer way that expected. The paths were all dark and most of the time I'm alone. Scared, but I know Lord is protecting me from all harm. I went round and round at the same place, before finally figuring out the right way to where I'm heading. Before I could even reach the destination, the rain came. I turn back and cycled on. Cold, lonely-- I asked God, "What's all this about? You know that I'm feeling awful. Why send the rain?"
However, God is good. As I head back, I reach where I came from shorter than I expected. I thought I have taken the wrong way and stop to check. After much thinking, I finally understood what God wanna tell me.The road to achieve what I hope to acheive might be long and maybe in times, taken the wrong path and wasted time. The rain represented the sorrows in between. God sometimes send us trials, so that we can experience Him and when we overcome them; we are made into a better person.As long as I hold on to Him, I will reach where I want to go. Though there may be pain and sorrows; but Lord will guide you till you reach your point. Cycling in the rain; a whole new kind of experience for me. God send the rain, but at the same time; He send his comfort and healed my wounds. Though it's cold, but God's love is enough to keep me warm.
A new year has began; brand new start. Forget what's behind me and time to move on. I trust that the Lord will guide me though this year and many more years to come. Storms can come crashing into me, stones on my path can cut my feet; but Lord I pray that my faith in you will not be shaken, but instead to be even firmer. Many things I wanna do and acheive; Lord, let it be in your will and not mine.
I wanna grow to love God more, I can't never stop loving Him and understand Him more. Teach me through Your words, talk to me personally and show me the way you want me to take. Lord, my way may be tougher, longer and harder than many others; but Your grace is ever sufficient for me. When You have taken away something from me, You replaced them with Yourself, more than what I could ask for. Give me a humble heart, to serve You more than what You have ask from me. Let me do what You want me to do and not only me doing what I want to do. Lord, the chance to live isn't from me; but from you. Use me, I'm here.
As the stories unfold, friends; once again you will experience life with me :)
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/02/2006 01:55:00 PM
