Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Free loader
To those who thinks that I'm a free-loader not doing anything:
I may seem aloof this time, not caring enough, not doing my part. I apologise for that. She slept at 3.30a.m, I slept at 5a.m doing all the projects that were meant to be shared by four. Not that I wanna compare who slept the lease; but please understand. I would like, or should I say, LOVE to go home after school, stay in school to do project after lessons; but I can't? How I would love to spend time with my friends before we split, but time don't allow?
Don't see the surface and judge, it's so unfair. I wish I had friends like she had, release her emotions and display her affection like she do; but I don't have that talent. I buried, I kept, I cried; to myself. "Free-loaders"; it hurts. Everyday I go to school, I don't know how to face those people around me; I'm an outcast. I know they are angry, unhappy with me. I'm breaking down inside me. People don't seem to care, they don't seem to know.
You don't know how it feels to be lifted up and beaten down. I thought to myself, it will be over soon.. But Lord, how soon is soon?
I don't want to be a free loader, I needed help.. But who will? I don't wanna disturb anyone, exams are drawing near. I dislike the Grace now, who are you? I want the real Grace back, not a free loader.
I may seem aloof this time, not caring enough, not doing my part. I apologise for that. She slept at 3.30a.m, I slept at 5a.m doing all the projects that were meant to be shared by four. Not that I wanna compare who slept the lease; but please understand. I would like, or should I say, LOVE to go home after school, stay in school to do project after lessons; but I can't? How I would love to spend time with my friends before we split, but time don't allow?
Don't see the surface and judge, it's so unfair. I wish I had friends like she had, release her emotions and display her affection like she do; but I don't have that talent. I buried, I kept, I cried; to myself. "Free-loaders"; it hurts. Everyday I go to school, I don't know how to face those people around me; I'm an outcast. I know they are angry, unhappy with me. I'm breaking down inside me. People don't seem to care, they don't seem to know.
You don't know how it feels to be lifted up and beaten down. I thought to myself, it will be over soon.. But Lord, how soon is soon?
I don't want to be a free loader, I needed help.. But who will? I don't wanna disturb anyone, exams are drawing near. I dislike the Grace now, who are you? I want the real Grace back, not a free loader.
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 1/24/2006 11:47:00 PM
