Saturday, September 17, 2005
Lalalala
Woke up with swollen eyes this morning, first thing that came to mind was what happened yesterday before I went to sleep. The Lord knows what happened. Work today was alright, thank God; I know He heard my prayers. I was full of thanks by mid-day and full of praise and thanks when the day ended.
When I was covered with tears last night, I know God must have held on to me tightly. Though I couln't feel it in real touch, but I know He did. While tearing, I had a vision.. I was like a little child crying out to the Lord. Crying hard and silently. Just then, God appeared from behind. He called out to me and reach out His hands. I turn and run towards Him. Hug God tightly and I cried even harder. God just held on to me, comforting me.
In many songs, the composer has written how God would hold on to us/them when they are down, sad and lonely. I truely know that it's true. In all my down moments, God has held on to me, renewing my strength. In my weekness, I may say I can't feel Him, it's tiring to walk with the Lord. But in actualy fact, I know I will never give up on the Lord; I will hold on tighter to Him. Read the Bible before I set off to work today. Read one of my favorite book in the Bible, James. God comforted me through His words.
Tough life? Doesn't matter, cause I'm living for God and suffering for Christ.
Saturaday tomorrow, Church day and God day! Praise and Worship practice tomorrow at 4.30p.m tomorrow and after that is the mooncake festival event. Dad and Mum will be meeting grandma and I will be in church first. Finally got the songs I want to lead out just now.
I don't know why, but I think I just don't fit into some 5X2 thing. I don't feel as close to each other as they do, and I don't really enjoy that much as they do. Come on, I think they are much closer than I am. I just an extra in that group. I feel so out of place in that group; more like tagging along. I'm glad to have friends like them; but simply I don't think I clicked with them, well. 5X2 went out together, TOGETHER almost all the time and I wasn't even informed! Yeah, I know I'm working and don't have the darn time; but at least ask? Hah, I'm not angry or anything; it's just weird. It's like, they know so much about each other, sharing stories that I don't even know when it had taken place. And there's someone that seem to know everything. Eg,Me, " You know bla bla bla bla bla..." That person, " (before I could finish) Yeah, I know lah" It just irritates me sometime. I just can't seem to click and be excited being with them. Weird me? Maybe.
Boy, just had dinner. I miss Stream of Praise, when will they come again? Next year? Yeah, I know; when? Haahaha..
When I was covered with tears last night, I know God must have held on to me tightly. Though I couln't feel it in real touch, but I know He did. While tearing, I had a vision.. I was like a little child crying out to the Lord. Crying hard and silently. Just then, God appeared from behind. He called out to me and reach out His hands. I turn and run towards Him. Hug God tightly and I cried even harder. God just held on to me, comforting me.
In many songs, the composer has written how God would hold on to us/them when they are down, sad and lonely. I truely know that it's true. In all my down moments, God has held on to me, renewing my strength. In my weekness, I may say I can't feel Him, it's tiring to walk with the Lord. But in actualy fact, I know I will never give up on the Lord; I will hold on tighter to Him. Read the Bible before I set off to work today. Read one of my favorite book in the Bible, James. God comforted me through His words.
Tough life? Doesn't matter, cause I'm living for God and suffering for Christ.
Saturaday tomorrow, Church day and God day! Praise and Worship practice tomorrow at 4.30p.m tomorrow and after that is the mooncake festival event. Dad and Mum will be meeting grandma and I will be in church first. Finally got the songs I want to lead out just now.
I don't know why, but I think I just don't fit into some 5X2 thing. I don't feel as close to each other as they do, and I don't really enjoy that much as they do. Come on, I think they are much closer than I am. I just an extra in that group. I feel so out of place in that group; more like tagging along. I'm glad to have friends like them; but simply I don't think I clicked with them, well. 5X2 went out together, TOGETHER almost all the time and I wasn't even informed! Yeah, I know I'm working and don't have the darn time; but at least ask? Hah, I'm not angry or anything; it's just weird. It's like, they know so much about each other, sharing stories that I don't even know when it had taken place. And there's someone that seem to know everything. Eg,Me, " You know bla bla bla bla bla..." That person, " (before I could finish) Yeah, I know lah" It just irritates me sometime. I just can't seem to click and be excited being with them. Weird me? Maybe.
Boy, just had dinner. I miss Stream of Praise, when will they come again? Next year? Yeah, I know; when? Haahaha..
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 9/17/2005 12:23:00 AM
