Sunday, September 11, 2005
Entry!
A sudden urge to update before I sleep. Lunch today at Fa Wang Lao Shi's place was good, not only the food but also the sharing session. During the sharing session, I had a few good looks at both the adults there; now, they at least know what we talk about when we gather.
Couldn't find most of the scores of the songs that I'm leading today and I was quite fustrated with that. Mood was somehow spoilt, but manage to carry on. Didn't think I did well for today's leading. I was almost breathless while sharing during the worship; what has gotten into me? I was almost fighting for air and that mike, recorded almost every breath that I took in and out.
I do admit I am high in my expectation when it comes to certain things that I do, one such is leading services. I asked for good musicians, songs that linked and good sharings to share. Too much? I do expect a lot from my musicians, cause I think besides me, they are the cores. Music is needed to bring out the atmosphere. Some may think I asked for too much, but I want to give my best to God.
Boy, I think my dream of leading a big group of people may be coming through at the end of the year. It has always been my dream to be on stage, leading a big group of people in praise and worship and bringing them to God. Though there isn't any stage, but it's still the same. Well, things wasn't even settled now; excited I guess.
I hope this event will turn out as it is expected. Though the fellowship never really did any public event before; we did once but I think we failed. I hope this time it will turn out fine. Seeing how excited Aaron was when he talkes about it, it touched my heart. From there, I can see his passion for God. However, I hope his passion is of the right objective.
Had a late dinner after service at the prata shop. Ain't I glad that we set in the air conditioned room, or else I would be smelling of prata on the way home; just like last time. The rice I ordered wasn't bad, there's my favorite kang kong. Had a chat after dinner and I like this kind of gathering. We talked about church stuff, and not some crapy stuff that I don't see any link in my life or to God.
Good, my hair is dried now and I can go to sleep in peace. Recharging for tomorrow!
Couldn't find most of the scores of the songs that I'm leading today and I was quite fustrated with that. Mood was somehow spoilt, but manage to carry on. Didn't think I did well for today's leading. I was almost breathless while sharing during the worship; what has gotten into me? I was almost fighting for air and that mike, recorded almost every breath that I took in and out.
I do admit I am high in my expectation when it comes to certain things that I do, one such is leading services. I asked for good musicians, songs that linked and good sharings to share. Too much? I do expect a lot from my musicians, cause I think besides me, they are the cores. Music is needed to bring out the atmosphere. Some may think I asked for too much, but I want to give my best to God.
Boy, I think my dream of leading a big group of people may be coming through at the end of the year. It has always been my dream to be on stage, leading a big group of people in praise and worship and bringing them to God. Though there isn't any stage, but it's still the same. Well, things wasn't even settled now; excited I guess.
I hope this event will turn out as it is expected. Though the fellowship never really did any public event before; we did once but I think we failed. I hope this time it will turn out fine. Seeing how excited Aaron was when he talkes about it, it touched my heart. From there, I can see his passion for God. However, I hope his passion is of the right objective.
Had a late dinner after service at the prata shop. Ain't I glad that we set in the air conditioned room, or else I would be smelling of prata on the way home; just like last time. The rice I ordered wasn't bad, there's my favorite kang kong. Had a chat after dinner and I like this kind of gathering. We talked about church stuff, and not some crapy stuff that I don't see any link in my life or to God.
Good, my hair is dried now and I can go to sleep in peace. Recharging for tomorrow!
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 9/11/2005 01:24:00 AM
