Sunday, July 31, 2005
Released
Living as a released-person was indeed different. Woke up this morning full of relieved and joy. Never had I woken up feeling so fresh and relieved. I sang songs while preparing for church and I knew today was going to be wonderful. Praise the Lord when I listen to the songs on my CD, it didn't affect my mood like it always did. You know, those saddy songs that would often make me think of my past and the pain I have gone through. I thanked God countless times, on the way to church, when I reached church, etc.. A lot of things!
I just felt so relieved, and happy. I can proclaim now to the world and to others: I'm free! I was tempted to throw my temper a couple of times today, but I held on knowing that I am already a changed person. First thing that tried to blow me up; I wasn't inform that the meeting this afternoon was cancelled. I went there after church, waited for sometime before I was informed that the meeting has been cancelled. I was fustrated at first, I could have joined my church mates for lunch and went out to town. I prayed and asked God to calm me down. I kept my temper and didn't blow up. Second thing; when Joycelyn asked me stuff about projects. I didn't know why, but I got impatient with her. But I keep asking God to calm me down and prayed. I manage to answer all the questions she asked. I just hope that she can find what she wants to find.
I personally find that our friendship has distanced. Maybe I'm disapointed with her. Ever since she started playing Maple, things started to change. Her attitude towards school work for example. Last thursday while on the way to school, I asked her if she has finished her Digital Imaging concept proposal. Her reply to my questions just simply shocked me. What happened? 10 marks can make a difference to your grades. Busy playing maple and no time for a minimum three concept proposal? I don't like her attitude she has to certain things, I am just glad gaming hasn't taken the position of God.
I just don't understand, what's so great about games? I don't opposed to playing game, but there's a limit to it. What is the big hoo-ha of getting all those ranks that meant nothing after a period of time? You gain rank in games, does that makes you a better person? Games can sometime ruin lives. I had one friend which who approached me because of this gaming problem he has. He was so addicted to the game, that his results suffers. He tries to stop playing, but it's just simply too hard for him.
Yes, games can trained up your thinking, enhance your I.Q in some way or another. But if one went over the border, it's not doing good at all. You can be an expert in gaming, you can make a profession out of it; provided you know where you are heading. I don't see any meaning in playing game when all you are chasing for is to get high ranks in that game or gatehr all the tresures in them. After a few years, you look back; that game will look stupid to you. You might even ask, "Why the heck did I get so involve in that game?"
I don't really play game, I do once in a while. Gaming is not part of my life, I can live without it. Ask me what's the top ten things in my life, gaming would not even take the last place. I enjoyed playing games as well, but not too much of it. Never let games control you, but you control them.
Lord, guide me and keep my path straight. It will not be smooth, it's going to be difficult; but I know I can fight it through. I'm made a warrior for Christ. After a breakthrough, I'm awaiting for another greater one. Await for more updates and grow with me.
Comments in my blog are solely my opinion.
I just felt so relieved, and happy. I can proclaim now to the world and to others: I'm free! I was tempted to throw my temper a couple of times today, but I held on knowing that I am already a changed person. First thing that tried to blow me up; I wasn't inform that the meeting this afternoon was cancelled. I went there after church, waited for sometime before I was informed that the meeting has been cancelled. I was fustrated at first, I could have joined my church mates for lunch and went out to town. I prayed and asked God to calm me down. I kept my temper and didn't blow up. Second thing; when Joycelyn asked me stuff about projects. I didn't know why, but I got impatient with her. But I keep asking God to calm me down and prayed. I manage to answer all the questions she asked. I just hope that she can find what she wants to find.
I personally find that our friendship has distanced. Maybe I'm disapointed with her. Ever since she started playing Maple, things started to change. Her attitude towards school work for example. Last thursday while on the way to school, I asked her if she has finished her Digital Imaging concept proposal. Her reply to my questions just simply shocked me. What happened? 10 marks can make a difference to your grades. Busy playing maple and no time for a minimum three concept proposal? I don't like her attitude she has to certain things, I am just glad gaming hasn't taken the position of God.
I just don't understand, what's so great about games? I don't opposed to playing game, but there's a limit to it. What is the big hoo-ha of getting all those ranks that meant nothing after a period of time? You gain rank in games, does that makes you a better person? Games can sometime ruin lives. I had one friend which who approached me because of this gaming problem he has. He was so addicted to the game, that his results suffers. He tries to stop playing, but it's just simply too hard for him.
Yes, games can trained up your thinking, enhance your I.Q in some way or another. But if one went over the border, it's not doing good at all. You can be an expert in gaming, you can make a profession out of it; provided you know where you are heading. I don't see any meaning in playing game when all you are chasing for is to get high ranks in that game or gatehr all the tresures in them. After a few years, you look back; that game will look stupid to you. You might even ask, "Why the heck did I get so involve in that game?"
I don't really play game, I do once in a while. Gaming is not part of my life, I can live without it. Ask me what's the top ten things in my life, gaming would not even take the last place. I enjoyed playing games as well, but not too much of it. Never let games control you, but you control them.
Lord, guide me and keep my path straight. It will not be smooth, it's going to be difficult; but I know I can fight it through. I'm made a warrior for Christ. After a breakthrough, I'm awaiting for another greater one. Await for more updates and grow with me.
Comments in my blog are solely my opinion.
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 7/31/2005 08:43:00 PM
