Saturday, May 07, 2005
Time just isn't right yet
Haven been blogging for a few days, been kind of busy at work. Went to collect my new glasses this afternoon, I looked more classy now-- The uncle told me.. :) Still getting use to them. Will be going out to celebrate Mothers' day and my birthday this evening. The strange thing is, I'm not celebrating it with my Mom, but with Grandma! Uncle Mike is taking her out for mothers' day dinner, might as well celebrate my birthday since it's quite near by.
Work in the office has been going on fine, just that I got a bit pissed off by Adrian. Don't wanna talk about it and don't wanna remember it as well. It's all over!
Hello people, *hint*hint*.. My birthday is COMING soon! Haha.. First year I don't have to be under any exam stress eh? LoL
I thought of him again last night and teared. Just a little, because I missed him and the days we shared.. He haven replied my e-mail, what happen? He finds me irritating already? But... Hey.. Oh well, forget it. It's just draining me..
I am coping well with my illness, for those who cared and am worried about me, don't worry yeah, I'm doing fine.
You know people, sometimes I just wished that I can have someone by my side to share all my worries and fears. I know God is there, but.. just this special someone, a human.. To be by my side. Most of the time when I am afriad, I will just keep it inside me. When I am worried, I will just shut it up in me. I wished I could have someone there, who I can open up to. All my secreats and every little thing, it's shared between me and God. I would like to tell you more about me, but I just can't open up my mouth. I would like to let you know how much I cared, how much I missed you, but I didn't and I don't have the courage.
That's one serious problem with me. I don't feel feelings, I don't express them out. When I talk, I really talk, when I don't, you won't even know I'm there.
Looking at all my friends, most of them have their loved ones with them.. Am in a relationship, have found someone in their life, at least for now. I looked at myself.. I have friends, but hey..They have their own life too right? When I was sitting alone in the hospital, how I wish he was sitting beside me, holding my hand, telling me not to worry..
I could only looked at his pictures in my cellphone, the ones I took without him knowing..
What are you doing now my dearest. I did manage to talk to your sister for a moment, wanted to asked about you.. But I didn't, yet again.
Grace, wake up..Heal!! You can too be like the rest.. you are not cut out from relationships.. Just that the time isn't right yet.. right?
Work in the office has been going on fine, just that I got a bit pissed off by Adrian. Don't wanna talk about it and don't wanna remember it as well. It's all over!
Hello people, *hint*hint*.. My birthday is COMING soon! Haha.. First year I don't have to be under any exam stress eh? LoL
I thought of him again last night and teared. Just a little, because I missed him and the days we shared.. He haven replied my e-mail, what happen? He finds me irritating already? But... Hey.. Oh well, forget it. It's just draining me..
I am coping well with my illness, for those who cared and am worried about me, don't worry yeah, I'm doing fine.
You know people, sometimes I just wished that I can have someone by my side to share all my worries and fears. I know God is there, but.. just this special someone, a human.. To be by my side. Most of the time when I am afriad, I will just keep it inside me. When I am worried, I will just shut it up in me. I wished I could have someone there, who I can open up to. All my secreats and every little thing, it's shared between me and God. I would like to tell you more about me, but I just can't open up my mouth. I would like to let you know how much I cared, how much I missed you, but I didn't and I don't have the courage.
That's one serious problem with me. I don't feel feelings, I don't express them out. When I talk, I really talk, when I don't, you won't even know I'm there.
Looking at all my friends, most of them have their loved ones with them.. Am in a relationship, have found someone in their life, at least for now. I looked at myself.. I have friends, but hey..They have their own life too right? When I was sitting alone in the hospital, how I wish he was sitting beside me, holding my hand, telling me not to worry..
I could only looked at his pictures in my cellphone, the ones I took without him knowing..
What are you doing now my dearest. I did manage to talk to your sister for a moment, wanted to asked about you.. But I didn't, yet again.
Grace, wake up..Heal!! You can too be like the rest.. you are not cut out from relationships.. Just that the time isn't right yet.. right?
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 5/07/2005 04:59:00 PM
