Sunday, May 15, 2005
Communication,people!
Raining kitten*Meow* and puppies*Woof* outside at the moment, what a wonderful night to fall asleep! Alright, I shall bath later before I sleep. Eh, not that I'm a dirty pig, but sometimes when I'm too tired after church, I would just pop down to bed, without bathing. But I do bath in the morning yeah! I'm not that dirty after all, LoL!
Finally I had my birthday pictures up! Take a look guys, not that well taken, but oh well, I enjoyed that night.
Just came back from church, I was really hungry on the way back and began yawning and yawning. That's not a good sign for me, if I kept yawning, that means I am not feeling well. Ling called me just now in church, but was unable to talk as I was running some games for the fellowship. Manage to ring her up on the bus, I think they are having something on this Wednesday. Something fishy yeah... What's up? You better tell me! Oh well, whatever you guys do, don't sell me away!
Let me update what happen a few days ago, haven got the chance to blog. First, I took a plane and flew up to the mood and met Mr. Mars! Ok, I know that's lame, L-A-M-E!
Went for friday's conference over at CHC, I reached at about the same time as thursday, but I didn't manage to get it! I couldn't even enter the Chinese church or cafe. I went to the lobby for service, boy, that was a terrible place for service. We weren't even allowed to clap our hands! The place is cramp, and aircon isn't really cold enough. I didn't let that affect me, I prayed, knowing that God is everywhere, not just in the main hall!
I enjoyed the service, but I think it would have been much better in the main hall. For this conference, I felt that God wanted me to attend for a special reason. I have been so stubborn for the past few months, He explained everything to me that two nights. On friday, Dr Phile mentioned that people will react to us by how we react to them and treat us by how we treat them. True yeah? Emotions should not rule us and our mind. I then realise my mistake, a great mistake that I have committed. Lord, thanks for waking me up and defeating me so that You can raise me up again.
God sometimes might appeared to be asleep, the reason why? So that we can wake up to who we are. Amen! Fellowship in my church tonight was great as well. Had a speaker and she talked about Communication.
Communication, proper communication is what almost everyone lacks. Agree? Can you live in harmony with a person for 7 days, if you can, you are bravo! People have difficulty communicating with each other, especially for teenagers. I find it hard to communicate with my parents, especially Mum. Mum and me can't really communicate well since young. Unlike other parents, she treat me like a "special" kid. Most of the time she don't talk, so I have gotten use to that. Nowadays because of my illness, she tend to remind me of not to do this or eat that. Not that I don't like her doing that, but sometimes she just keep going on and on and on. Since she had never spoken to me since young, when she suddenly talk so much, I couldn't take it.
Take for today when she reminds me of my diet that I have to follow.She kept going on and on, I got irritated and asked her to, you know, "Shut up". I know I shouldn't have done that, I wasn't feeling good inside me, but I don't know how to treat her the way other children would treat their Mum. Looking at how Yu Men and Aunty Lee Juan get along, I just hope that me and Mum can be like them. However, it's because of the way she treat me and the way she brought me up, I know it's somehow impossible to be so.
People would thought that only child are usually very blessed. Not in my case! My parents didn't treat me like a only child, I was very much left alone since young. Different childhood from others, different up bringing, "different" type of parents too! So, when people asl me how come I could be the me now, I think I should ask them to understand my childhood, maybe they will know.
Oh well, that's all history. Let the past be the past, I shan't hold on to it. What's the point right? I'll pray about it, like what Qiao Zhu Lao Shi and Erwin had advice me before. I will, I don't wanna see the same time happen again to my own child. I see my younger cousin going through the same thing as me, maybe she's worse. God, watch over her.
I kindda miss Jacko, haven seen her for a long time. Wondered how she is with her Mom. We'll meet again Jacko, although you're naughty at times, but Grace Jie Jie misses you yeah? Take care girl.
Finally I had my birthday pictures up! Take a look guys, not that well taken, but oh well, I enjoyed that night.
Just came back from church, I was really hungry on the way back and began yawning and yawning. That's not a good sign for me, if I kept yawning, that means I am not feeling well. Ling called me just now in church, but was unable to talk as I was running some games for the fellowship. Manage to ring her up on the bus, I think they are having something on this Wednesday. Something fishy yeah... What's up? You better tell me! Oh well, whatever you guys do, don't sell me away!
Let me update what happen a few days ago, haven got the chance to blog. First, I took a plane and flew up to the mood and met Mr. Mars! Ok, I know that's lame, L-A-M-E!
Went for friday's conference over at CHC, I reached at about the same time as thursday, but I didn't manage to get it! I couldn't even enter the Chinese church or cafe. I went to the lobby for service, boy, that was a terrible place for service. We weren't even allowed to clap our hands! The place is cramp, and aircon isn't really cold enough. I didn't let that affect me, I prayed, knowing that God is everywhere, not just in the main hall!
I enjoyed the service, but I think it would have been much better in the main hall. For this conference, I felt that God wanted me to attend for a special reason. I have been so stubborn for the past few months, He explained everything to me that two nights. On friday, Dr Phile mentioned that people will react to us by how we react to them and treat us by how we treat them. True yeah? Emotions should not rule us and our mind. I then realise my mistake, a great mistake that I have committed. Lord, thanks for waking me up and defeating me so that You can raise me up again.
God sometimes might appeared to be asleep, the reason why? So that we can wake up to who we are. Amen! Fellowship in my church tonight was great as well. Had a speaker and she talked about Communication.
Communication, proper communication is what almost everyone lacks. Agree? Can you live in harmony with a person for 7 days, if you can, you are bravo! People have difficulty communicating with each other, especially for teenagers. I find it hard to communicate with my parents, especially Mum. Mum and me can't really communicate well since young. Unlike other parents, she treat me like a "special" kid. Most of the time she don't talk, so I have gotten use to that. Nowadays because of my illness, she tend to remind me of not to do this or eat that. Not that I don't like her doing that, but sometimes she just keep going on and on and on. Since she had never spoken to me since young, when she suddenly talk so much, I couldn't take it.
Take for today when she reminds me of my diet that I have to follow.She kept going on and on, I got irritated and asked her to, you know, "Shut up". I know I shouldn't have done that, I wasn't feeling good inside me, but I don't know how to treat her the way other children would treat their Mum. Looking at how Yu Men and Aunty Lee Juan get along, I just hope that me and Mum can be like them. However, it's because of the way she treat me and the way she brought me up, I know it's somehow impossible to be so.
People would thought that only child are usually very blessed. Not in my case! My parents didn't treat me like a only child, I was very much left alone since young. Different childhood from others, different up bringing, "different" type of parents too! So, when people asl me how come I could be the me now, I think I should ask them to understand my childhood, maybe they will know.
Oh well, that's all history. Let the past be the past, I shan't hold on to it. What's the point right? I'll pray about it, like what Qiao Zhu Lao Shi and Erwin had advice me before. I will, I don't wanna see the same time happen again to my own child. I see my younger cousin going through the same thing as me, maybe she's worse. God, watch over her.
I kindda miss Jacko, haven seen her for a long time. Wondered how she is with her Mom. We'll meet again Jacko, although you're naughty at times, but Grace Jie Jie misses you yeah? Take care girl.
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 5/15/2005 12:00:00 AM
