Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Tell me, will you, everything will be alright?
I just realise, I have been hurting myself.. I just realise, I am in so much pain, that I have become numb. Tears are rolling in my eyes, but I'm forcing them in. Burden upon me, I can no longer breath. All this while, I was just pretending, pretending that.. I'm alright.
Looking through all the e-mails you send me, it's just like a knife, stabbing me. Not that you had said something wrong.. I guess I miss you too much. I'm only gald that the card I wrote to you touched you, but... Do you see the meaning in them?
I'm tired, drained out.. Don't do this to me. I'm not that strong to handle this.
What are you doing? Did you recieve my e-mail?
With my birthday drawing near, I don't wanna ask for much.. Do you know when is it? Your wishes will make this birthday special. For years I have not celebrated, it always falls on exam period.. This year, is it going to be any special? All I ask, is just to hear you wishing me.."Happy Birthday, Grace"
I wanted to let go, and this pain ease.. But I know I will hold on.. Because I'm afraid of losing you.. I'm scare.. do you know the fear in me? Why am I so foolish? I just can't let go..
People around me just can't feel the pain.. even if they do.. it's not on them. God, can you? I know you can.. Heal me, will you? Wrap my wounds, tie me up, let me not hurt myself anymore. I'm foolish, let me come to sense.
I just feel like crying out now, but.. I can't. I just want to hear your voice, but I can't. I just wanna see your smile, but I can't.
Do you know how I feel? You don't, you don't, you don't!!! I hate you.. because I cared too much, till I hate you.. I'm sorry..
Someone hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright, please?
Behind every success, there's always a struggling period.. Behind me, a wound I don't know how it's going to heal.. Because I'm digging in it, bleeding non stop, yet..watching it bleed..
Looking through all the e-mails you send me, it's just like a knife, stabbing me. Not that you had said something wrong.. I guess I miss you too much. I'm only gald that the card I wrote to you touched you, but... Do you see the meaning in them?
I'm tired, drained out.. Don't do this to me. I'm not that strong to handle this.
What are you doing? Did you recieve my e-mail?
With my birthday drawing near, I don't wanna ask for much.. Do you know when is it? Your wishes will make this birthday special. For years I have not celebrated, it always falls on exam period.. This year, is it going to be any special? All I ask, is just to hear you wishing me.."Happy Birthday, Grace"
I wanted to let go, and this pain ease.. But I know I will hold on.. Because I'm afraid of losing you.. I'm scare.. do you know the fear in me? Why am I so foolish? I just can't let go..
People around me just can't feel the pain.. even if they do.. it's not on them. God, can you? I know you can.. Heal me, will you? Wrap my wounds, tie me up, let me not hurt myself anymore. I'm foolish, let me come to sense.
I just feel like crying out now, but.. I can't. I just want to hear your voice, but I can't. I just wanna see your smile, but I can't.
Do you know how I feel? You don't, you don't, you don't!!! I hate you.. because I cared too much, till I hate you.. I'm sorry..
Someone hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright, please?
Behind every success, there's always a struggling period.. Behind me, a wound I don't know how it's going to heal.. Because I'm digging in it, bleeding non stop, yet..watching it bleed..
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/27/2005 02:48:00 PM
