Sunday, April 24, 2005
Look down on me?
Just got back from church, the sermon today ay CHC was great. Learnt something, after a long long time. When over to Yio Chu Kang Gospel Hall in the morning and left after the morning service. The bus to CHC was late today, reached church at around 11.10a.m. Waited for EC at the lobby and went in to service together with another of her friend.
Sermon was about sowing seet and harvest. I must agree with Pastor Tan, we get what we sow. If we want good harvest, we must sow good seet. Also, we should give our best to the Lord and others. Nothing can change a person, only God's word. If we want love from others, we must sow the seet of love. Sow with faith, knowing that the Lord will guide us through.
After service, we had lunch at the cafe. Was surprise to see SC was there also. Didn't know that she came back from China. But EC told me that SC will only stay for about a week and she will have to go back. During lunch, I sat with EC and friend, SC and friends sat at the other table. We joint up only after the crowd in the cafe cleared. SC seem happy to see me, she came and gave me a pat on the back. I told her I might be going over to China this July, and she said to let her know if I am going over. Actually wanted to get her contact, but didn't ask her. Oh well, if I am really going to china, I will let EC know and she will inform SC.
EC send me home just now, now I smell like her car! She wasn't feeling well, heard that she threw up a few times already. you should go home and rest! SC went home as well, she was sleepy. Had a nice chat with EC in the car just now, she was asking me about my health and work. Thanks for your concern, buddy!
Had a chat session with grandma just minutes ago. Haha, it's so strange.. Many of my family members actually looked down on me. Or should I say, all of them. Take for instance my O level, non thought that I could have made it, but I did! They expected me to fail, but..Hey hey hey, boy did I pass! Same goes for my PSLE, non thought I could pass, but I made it into express! Haha, why huh? My own family members don't believe in me, but on the other hand, my friends believed that I can pass. For most of my life, I have been looked down, why? In case you don't know me well.. I was a failure back then. My results in primary school days were rock bottom. I show no interest in studying and I don't seem to care.
When I finally came to my sense, I still show that I'm not interested and lazy lah.. But hey, I don't have to show you in the face that I'm hard working right? People, people, people.. Wake up, I don't have to work right in front of you to show you that I'm serious. But I kinda like the feeling, when people look down on me but got shocked when they learn that I did well! Haha..
Look down on me, mock me, laught at me, but beware of who is going to get the last laught. To all my mockers, thanks for your "motivation" that kept me going. But of course, in my life there's a lot of real motivators. Take for instance my grandma and mentors! Without them and many others, I wouldn't be what I am today. Friends around me played a part too! Carmen was one of them. Everytime I would aim to beat her in her score, and that pushes me to work hard.
Not forgetting God! Without Him, I wouldn't have the strength to hold on and fight the battle till now. In my weakness, He's my strength. In my sorrows, He's my comfort. When I fall, He will be there to lift me up. Ailing once asked me, "Grace, how come you can do well in your studies and excel in other things?" I told her, "Because I got God"
Now, not forgetting him. For those who have been reading, you might be wondering who is this him that I always talk about, that is causing me to torture myself. Well, he's a friend I got to know while working. He left the company already. The rest you know it all, if you read the past post. I've decided.. Leave it all to God. I will just do my part. Like what EC told me in the car, there isn't a need to worry. Half of the time we worry for things that we don't have to. Ok EC, I will change and be less worrying. Trust in the Lord fully!
Sermon was about sowing seet and harvest. I must agree with Pastor Tan, we get what we sow. If we want good harvest, we must sow good seet. Also, we should give our best to the Lord and others. Nothing can change a person, only God's word. If we want love from others, we must sow the seet of love. Sow with faith, knowing that the Lord will guide us through.
After service, we had lunch at the cafe. Was surprise to see SC was there also. Didn't know that she came back from China. But EC told me that SC will only stay for about a week and she will have to go back. During lunch, I sat with EC and friend, SC and friends sat at the other table. We joint up only after the crowd in the cafe cleared. SC seem happy to see me, she came and gave me a pat on the back. I told her I might be going over to China this July, and she said to let her know if I am going over. Actually wanted to get her contact, but didn't ask her. Oh well, if I am really going to china, I will let EC know and she will inform SC.
EC send me home just now, now I smell like her car! She wasn't feeling well, heard that she threw up a few times already. you should go home and rest! SC went home as well, she was sleepy. Had a nice chat with EC in the car just now, she was asking me about my health and work. Thanks for your concern, buddy!
Had a chat session with grandma just minutes ago. Haha, it's so strange.. Many of my family members actually looked down on me. Or should I say, all of them. Take for instance my O level, non thought that I could have made it, but I did! They expected me to fail, but..Hey hey hey, boy did I pass! Same goes for my PSLE, non thought I could pass, but I made it into express! Haha, why huh? My own family members don't believe in me, but on the other hand, my friends believed that I can pass. For most of my life, I have been looked down, why? In case you don't know me well.. I was a failure back then. My results in primary school days were rock bottom. I show no interest in studying and I don't seem to care.
When I finally came to my sense, I still show that I'm not interested and lazy lah.. But hey, I don't have to show you in the face that I'm hard working right? People, people, people.. Wake up, I don't have to work right in front of you to show you that I'm serious. But I kinda like the feeling, when people look down on me but got shocked when they learn that I did well! Haha..
Look down on me, mock me, laught at me, but beware of who is going to get the last laught. To all my mockers, thanks for your "motivation" that kept me going. But of course, in my life there's a lot of real motivators. Take for instance my grandma and mentors! Without them and many others, I wouldn't be what I am today. Friends around me played a part too! Carmen was one of them. Everytime I would aim to beat her in her score, and that pushes me to work hard.
Not forgetting God! Without Him, I wouldn't have the strength to hold on and fight the battle till now. In my weakness, He's my strength. In my sorrows, He's my comfort. When I fall, He will be there to lift me up. Ailing once asked me, "Grace, how come you can do well in your studies and excel in other things?" I told her, "Because I got God"
Now, not forgetting him. For those who have been reading, you might be wondering who is this him that I always talk about, that is causing me to torture myself. Well, he's a friend I got to know while working. He left the company already. The rest you know it all, if you read the past post. I've decided.. Leave it all to God. I will just do my part. Like what EC told me in the car, there isn't a need to worry. Half of the time we worry for things that we don't have to. Ok EC, I will change and be less worrying. Trust in the Lord fully!
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/24/2005 04:11:00 PM
