Saturday, April 23, 2005
Forget or hold on?
Just got back from the youth fellowship BBQ, oh boy, slept for only a few hours! But I'm not tired, gotta go church in the afternoon. Not bad the BBQ, had food and drinks, cycle all night long.
On friday, a group of us went out for our mini class gathering! Though little people, but it's still fun. Carmen, the lazy bone don't wanna go! I just discovered one interesting fact, Liana can't crack egg!! Haha, boy.. It was fun just by looking at how she crack her egg.
I've found a new singer that I like, Josh Gorben. He got nice vocals and his songs are quite meaningful to me. I've ask Charlene to burn the CD for me.
Girls at the steamboat.. Yah, I must admit for most of the time, my mind was thinking of him. Looking at how you guys can get to be with your love ones, it just made me wonder. Am I any different? He knew about it, he knew I had a crush on him.. But I guess he'll just treat me like a little sister? He once told me that 16,17 years old are too young to fall in love.. Does that have to apply to me as well, unfair. He's gone from the office for almost a month, still I have not gotten over him. I still talks about him in the office and occasionally I would sit at his table.
I'm torturing myself. I just gotten over Lawrence and now come another one. Why, why ,why, W-H-Y?
Liana told me I don't have a partner for a reason, capable woman usually don't have partners. I don't want to be the same, why can't I be capable and at the same time, successful in my relationships as well?
Seriously, I don't know how to face him. Yeah, we'll be like friend, but imagine how awful I will feel inside me. Should I invite him to my birthday party? Should I just forget him and, let this whole thing be memories, again?
Yeah Grace, nicely said.. You're gonna go through what you have just gone through, again. Oh boy, Lord, have mercy on me. I'm firm on the outside, but I'm weak on the inside.
Oh well, Lord, please hear my prayers and let me take care of my health.
I miss him.. Stupid me..
On friday, a group of us went out for our mini class gathering! Though little people, but it's still fun. Carmen, the lazy bone don't wanna go! I just discovered one interesting fact, Liana can't crack egg!! Haha, boy.. It was fun just by looking at how she crack her egg.
I've found a new singer that I like, Josh Gorben. He got nice vocals and his songs are quite meaningful to me. I've ask Charlene to burn the CD for me.
Girls at the steamboat.. Yah, I must admit for most of the time, my mind was thinking of him. Looking at how you guys can get to be with your love ones, it just made me wonder. Am I any different? He knew about it, he knew I had a crush on him.. But I guess he'll just treat me like a little sister? He once told me that 16,17 years old are too young to fall in love.. Does that have to apply to me as well, unfair. He's gone from the office for almost a month, still I have not gotten over him. I still talks about him in the office and occasionally I would sit at his table.
I'm torturing myself. I just gotten over Lawrence and now come another one. Why, why ,why, W-H-Y?
Liana told me I don't have a partner for a reason, capable woman usually don't have partners. I don't want to be the same, why can't I be capable and at the same time, successful in my relationships as well?
Seriously, I don't know how to face him. Yeah, we'll be like friend, but imagine how awful I will feel inside me. Should I invite him to my birthday party? Should I just forget him and, let this whole thing be memories, again?
Yeah Grace, nicely said.. You're gonna go through what you have just gone through, again. Oh boy, Lord, have mercy on me. I'm firm on the outside, but I'm weak on the inside.
Oh well, Lord, please hear my prayers and let me take care of my health.
I miss him.. Stupid me..
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/23/2005 09:45:00 AM
