Saturday, April 30, 2005
First Injection
Woke up at around 9.40 in the morning, I could have slept till afternoon, but I had to be up for my injections. First time injecting myself with insulin, scary at first.. Boy, I was really nervous, I may be brave, but come on! It's my first time. The insulin went all in, slowly, bit by bit.
It's going to be a lazy saturday! No church, no nothing.. Kind of weird, I must look for something to do.
Family members, STOP nagging! Stop, stop, stop!! I had enough! I know you all care alright, I know! I just need some quiet time, ALONE! Leave me alone will ya? I know what to do, if I don't I will ask. Mom, I know you are concern, but I am not turning into someone useless! Do you know your words hurt me, just by telling me, "You are just becoming like a useless person!" I'm not alright! So what if I am on injections, does that make me any different?
Dear Lord, please give me the endurance to all this that I am and have to go through. Without you Lord, I can go much further. Calm my anger down, let me not vent it on my family members, I know that they are just concern about me. Tie down whatever Satan wants to do,Lord.
Lord, I know I will be having a hard time and others around me will be having a hard time too. Lord, bring me through, bring me through. No matter how hard the way ahead of me will be, Lord, give me strength. Don't leave me Lord, don't.
So many things is happening right now, I'm slowly running out of strength... Lord, renew me. If I could choose, I don't wanna live the rest of life like that. I would choose to go, so people around me won't have to worry yeah.. But I know I am here for a purpose, a great purpose for me to fulfill.
Calm me down O Lord.. Give me your strength. Let be even stronger and firmer..
It's going to be a lazy saturday! No church, no nothing.. Kind of weird, I must look for something to do.
Family members, STOP nagging! Stop, stop, stop!! I had enough! I know you all care alright, I know! I just need some quiet time, ALONE! Leave me alone will ya? I know what to do, if I don't I will ask. Mom, I know you are concern, but I am not turning into someone useless! Do you know your words hurt me, just by telling me, "You are just becoming like a useless person!" I'm not alright! So what if I am on injections, does that make me any different?
Dear Lord, please give me the endurance to all this that I am and have to go through. Without you Lord, I can go much further. Calm my anger down, let me not vent it on my family members, I know that they are just concern about me. Tie down whatever Satan wants to do,Lord.
Lord, I know I will be having a hard time and others around me will be having a hard time too. Lord, bring me through, bring me through. No matter how hard the way ahead of me will be, Lord, give me strength. Don't leave me Lord, don't.
So many things is happening right now, I'm slowly running out of strength... Lord, renew me. If I could choose, I don't wanna live the rest of life like that. I would choose to go, so people around me won't have to worry yeah.. But I know I am here for a purpose, a great purpose for me to fulfill.
Calm me down O Lord.. Give me your strength. Let be even stronger and firmer..
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 4/30/2005 10:29:00 AM
