Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Shitty Computer,But wonderful afternoon
This computer is irritating! I was in a happy mood typing my day out, how happy i was, how motivated I was. Then when I want to pubish the post, it didn't and it went blank some more! What the fish! Idoit! Arg! Shit this computer! Arg! Let me just vent my anger now, damn so angry! I was in such a good mood, thinking about my dream, thinking about my dream house all that, and this stupid computer just spoilt the whole thing. Shit you! I am typing loudly now, spoli this kepboard! Shit you! Arg!
As I am angrily typing here, I can hear God's words ringing in my ears, "In your angry do not sin." God, let me just calm down with my anger. Just retype the whole thing Gracie, don't let this affect your beautiful mood! Arg! Gracie, calm down ya? Calm down and relive your wonderful mood.
I'm back from my break, feeling much better now. Not going to let this shitty computer spoil my mood. Retype the whole things, things happen for a reason yeah. Amen!
As I was typing..
Tuesday afternoon and Gracie was recharged! Si Yun was then asking me some questions through e-mail. Those questions made me think and relive my passion and dream. The feelings is back! The same feeling I felt that year in 2003. I still remember that faithful day in 2003. It was after the final year, the school send me and a few more other student leaders to the Noth East CDC Young Leaders' Day. I was highly motivated after the talk by Ms. Elim Chew. I went home that day, sat on my sofa and wrote my composition on the My Voice paper from 77th Street. I was emotional then, and was happy when I wrote my feelings down on the paper. The great thing is, when the book was published, my voice was inside! Back to the topic... From that day onwards, I kept dreaming and till now, I had event taken actions to make my dream come through!
That day was really a day for Gracie. I was walking aimlessly and even though I has dreams, they were not firm. I wanted to become an interior designer, well-known in Singapore and even the world. Made my milion at the age of 40. My passion was burning hot then, but slowly it died down. Untill I attended the Young Leaders' Day, my life changed! Adam Khoo started me off, Elim Chew carried me through and Grace walk on the journey with God.
As I was typing my reply to Si Yun's e-mail. Memories flashed back in my mind. Those dreams that I set, it didn't died down, just that I have put them behind. Today I relive them again. I thought about my dream house, dream car and dream company building. My dream house, a big town house, 4 story high. Three story above ground level and one basement, which is the car park. A beautiful garden for Mum to do her gardening, or if she don't like gardening, at least she can spend her time watering the flowers. Besides the garden, I going to get Mum a big and nice kitchen for her. She can then invite her friends or even family members from Malaysia to eat over! For Dad, I will have a place specially for him and his pet birds! He can bath them and sun tan them. He can even invite his friends over to "watch" birds together. As for Aunt Helen, she can invite her friends over for fellowship and uncle Job will have his very own ironing room! The house is big, but will never be empty. My house is not only going to be warmth, it's going to be relaxing. After a day's work, going home will never be a chore anymore. At the basement, parked there will be my black 4 seaters convertable, a 7 seaters family sport car and a trendy sport bike! Side of the house I will have a swimmig pool.. or should I have it in the middle? More creative? Haha, depends on the designer! Aunt and uncles will stay under the same roof, so my parents will not be lonely when I'm out working. My house will be in the east side? I don't know why, but I enjoyed staying in the east. Nice and wonderful environment, best if there is a park near by. Not too near the road, not too far as well, so that Mum can go to the market without walking too much. Oh I understand her, she wouldn't like being ferried around even when I got her someone to drive her around personally. In this case, friends won't have difficulty finding our house!
I remembered my missionarie dream and bacpacking dream too. One day, I am going on my bacpack trip, to where? I'll see where I want to go. Oh ya! At the same time, I can carry out my missionarie dream too! As I travel, I can do God's words too! It's wonderful to think about all this, it pushes me to work harder and be more determinated! What a great afternoon!
My shitty computer again. Couldn't log on to the net, untill now. Thought the mordem is changed? How come still like that? Shitty means shitty..haiz~ Time to change the whole computer? But that means I will have to wait for a long long time again! Oh no!!! Without computer, it's hard for me to get things done man. Human can't live without computer now, I mean..things won't be done so qucikly wthout them.. Oh well... Human brains are better yeah? Hahaa
As I am angrily typing here, I can hear God's words ringing in my ears, "In your angry do not sin." God, let me just calm down with my anger. Just retype the whole thing Gracie, don't let this affect your beautiful mood! Arg! Gracie, calm down ya? Calm down and relive your wonderful mood.
I'm back from my break, feeling much better now. Not going to let this shitty computer spoil my mood. Retype the whole things, things happen for a reason yeah. Amen!
As I was typing..
Tuesday afternoon and Gracie was recharged! Si Yun was then asking me some questions through e-mail. Those questions made me think and relive my passion and dream. The feelings is back! The same feeling I felt that year in 2003. I still remember that faithful day in 2003. It was after the final year, the school send me and a few more other student leaders to the Noth East CDC Young Leaders' Day. I was highly motivated after the talk by Ms. Elim Chew. I went home that day, sat on my sofa and wrote my composition on the My Voice paper from 77th Street. I was emotional then, and was happy when I wrote my feelings down on the paper. The great thing is, when the book was published, my voice was inside! Back to the topic... From that day onwards, I kept dreaming and till now, I had event taken actions to make my dream come through!
That day was really a day for Gracie. I was walking aimlessly and even though I has dreams, they were not firm. I wanted to become an interior designer, well-known in Singapore and even the world. Made my milion at the age of 40. My passion was burning hot then, but slowly it died down. Untill I attended the Young Leaders' Day, my life changed! Adam Khoo started me off, Elim Chew carried me through and Grace walk on the journey with God.
As I was typing my reply to Si Yun's e-mail. Memories flashed back in my mind. Those dreams that I set, it didn't died down, just that I have put them behind. Today I relive them again. I thought about my dream house, dream car and dream company building. My dream house, a big town house, 4 story high. Three story above ground level and one basement, which is the car park. A beautiful garden for Mum to do her gardening, or if she don't like gardening, at least she can spend her time watering the flowers. Besides the garden, I going to get Mum a big and nice kitchen for her. She can then invite her friends or even family members from Malaysia to eat over! For Dad, I will have a place specially for him and his pet birds! He can bath them and sun tan them. He can even invite his friends over to "watch" birds together. As for Aunt Helen, she can invite her friends over for fellowship and uncle Job will have his very own ironing room! The house is big, but will never be empty. My house is not only going to be warmth, it's going to be relaxing. After a day's work, going home will never be a chore anymore. At the basement, parked there will be my black 4 seaters convertable, a 7 seaters family sport car and a trendy sport bike! Side of the house I will have a swimmig pool.. or should I have it in the middle? More creative? Haha, depends on the designer! Aunt and uncles will stay under the same roof, so my parents will not be lonely when I'm out working. My house will be in the east side? I don't know why, but I enjoyed staying in the east. Nice and wonderful environment, best if there is a park near by. Not too near the road, not too far as well, so that Mum can go to the market without walking too much. Oh I understand her, she wouldn't like being ferried around even when I got her someone to drive her around personally. In this case, friends won't have difficulty finding our house!
I remembered my missionarie dream and bacpacking dream too. One day, I am going on my bacpack trip, to where? I'll see where I want to go. Oh ya! At the same time, I can carry out my missionarie dream too! As I travel, I can do God's words too! It's wonderful to think about all this, it pushes me to work harder and be more determinated! What a great afternoon!
My shitty computer again. Couldn't log on to the net, untill now. Thought the mordem is changed? How come still like that? Shitty means shitty..haiz~ Time to change the whole computer? But that means I will have to wait for a long long time again! Oh no!!! Without computer, it's hard for me to get things done man. Human can't live without computer now, I mean..things won't be done so qucikly wthout them.. Oh well... Human brains are better yeah? Hahaa
# . Grace Eleora Loo : 2/22/2005 03:56:00 PM
